Aria bounds into the kitchen just as I finish scrambling the eggs and dividing them up onto three plates. She smiles up at me and holds out her hands in anticipation.

“Wash up first,” I tell her.

She sighs but does as she’s asked.

Javi doesn’t even seem to notice that we’re here. He’s at the counter, glued to his computer, the same way he has been for the past month. I ignore the dread churning in my stomach and fake a smile for Aria while we eat breakfast together.

Her plate is empty ten minutes later while my food has merely been redistributed by the fork.

“Can I go play now?” she asks.

“Worksheets first,” I tell her.

She skips off down the hall, leaving me to the suffocating silence that I’ve become so attuned to. Javi has not even looked at me this morning, but I’m getting used to that too. I’ve been afraid to ask what’s had him so preoccupied. The storm in his eyes hasn’t disappeared with time, and I’ve tried to reason that he must have good excuses for sneaking out at all hours of the day. But I can no longer ignore the tension that exists between us.

I thought we had moved past this. I thought we would only ever move forward after everything we’ve been through. We have come so far that sometimes it seems like a bad dream when I recall the events of the past. But I can only pretend for so long.

I can try to justify his actions and create excuses for his behavior, but it does not quell the hurt inside of me. The burning questions I am too afraid to ask.

Is there someone else?

Is it the same woman he brought here before?

I swallow some cold coffee, and it feels like sand in my throat. When I set the mug down on the counter too hard, Javi finally looks up at me.

“Why don’t we take Aria out for a picnic today,” I suggest.

His shoulders tighten, and shame burns his eyes.

“I am sorry, my love,” he answers. “I can’t today.”

I nod because I have no voice left. My eyes burn with unshed tears, and I shield them by turning away and tending to the dishes.

At some point, Javi leaves again.

The house is quiet for the rest of the day, and Aria and I eat dinner alone. When he returns at bedtime, I fake sleep and cry silent tears.

Javi does not sleep either. He is still and quiet, but I know his body well enough to know when he succumbs to his exhaustion. I wonder if he knows that I am still awake too. The answer to that question comes when he sneaks out of bed five minutes later.

A glance at the clock tells me that it’s three am, and I can’t take this anymore. I need answers. Aria is just down the hall, and she’s the first thing that crosses my mind. She can’t be left here alone, but at the very least, I need to see what Javi is doing.

When he slips from the room, I leave the bed myself and follow the soft thud of footsteps down the hall. I expect him to use the front door, assuming that he will probably take his truck to wherever he’s going. But instead, he ducks right at the parlor and moves in the direction of the conservatory, locking it behind him.

His actions won’t allow me to follow without being heard, and I’m afraid of losing sight of him. So I do the next best thing. I slip into his office and glance at the live camera monitors on the screen. Every angle outside the house is being recorded, and I know he will be on at least one of them. But I lose hope quickly.

Javi is skilled at hiding in the shadows. He is skilled at going unnoticed through the darkness of night.

I can’t see him on any of the screens.

I can’t see anything.

I slump back into his office chair and curl my fingers into my fist in frustration. He’s gone. There’s nothing.

Until there is.

It’s so faint that I almost didn’t see it. If I had even blinked, I would have missed the flash on the screen. There is a flicker of light coming from inside the tool shed. I watch the door for what feels like an eternity, waiting for him to emerge, but he doesn’t. And that’s when I know that I have no choice. He’s in there for a reason, and I need to know why.

I use the side entrance of the house and walk softly towards the door, my fingers trembling as they hover over the doorknob.

He could be in there with her right now. This could be worse than anything he has ever done to me. Something that I could never recover from. And I’m not entirely certain I can handle it. But then I think of all the things I’ve been through before, and it steels my resolve.

The knob turns freely, and the door creaks open. I stand on the threshold, mentally preparing myself for every scenario my mind can conjure up. Only, I couldn’t have prepared myself for what I find.

Javi is not alone.

But he’s not with another woman either. I can’t feel my fingers, and I’m trying to make sense of what’s happening here, but I don’t understand it. This is not the scenario that I prepared myself for.

He’s sitting on a bucket opposite a young boy I don’t recognize, and they are playing checkers. Javi turns to me and blinks before the boy growls at me and scurries into the darkness to hide.

“What are you doing, Bella?” Javi demands.

“What are you doing?” I fire back. “Is that… her son?”

Javi stares at me like I’ve gone mental. “Whose son?”

“The woman,” I accuse. “Whoever you’ve been sneaking off to be with. I’m not stupid, Javi. Don’t lie to me anymore. I demand to know what’s going on.”

He moves towards me then, his face grim. I step back and almost stumble. It’s the first time in a long time that I am unsure how to handle him. I have no idea what his intentions are when he comes near me and seizes my arm. He’s been so on edge. So off balance. It’s hard to read him right now.

“My Bella,” he sighs. “How could you think that I would do that to you?”

He regrets the words the moment they are spoken, and I see it in his eyes. Neither one of us likes to dredge up the past, but sometimes it can’t be helped. His fingers come up to touch my face, and his mouth lingers just a breath away from mine. It is the closest we have been in weeks, and my traitorous body relaxes into his touch, revealing just how much I have missed him.

“You are crazy,” he whispers. “If you think there would ever be anyone else for me.”

My bottom lip quivers and tears threaten to spill from my eyes.

“Then tell me what’s happening, because I don’t understand.”

He bows his head in a rare sign of submission and pulls me into his arms.

“I am sorry,” he tells me. “I did not know how to tell you this. I did not know the best thing to do.”

He steps away from me then, pulling me along with him into the shed. And the boy that I saw only a glimpse of earlier is now huddled in the corner, clinging to a tiny cot that I’ve never seen before. Beside him, there is a mini fridge with stacks of books and sketch pads and various activities to keep him occupied. It is as if he has been living here, and I didn’t even know it. And when I glance back to Javi, I realize that is exactly what is happening.

“Who is he?” I ask again.

Javi looks at the boy and back to me.

“Technically, he does not have a name. At least not one that he remembers.”

My stomach lurches when I realize the implication of those words. This boy is from the program. The same one where they tortured Javi as a child.

I don’t want to believe it’s true, but one look at him and I know that I can’t pretend it doesn’t exist. It’s easy to forget sometimes when we live away from everyone and everything that there are still children out there suffering. We go on with our daily lives and the things that are too difficult to accept sometimes just slip away. This child is a stark reminder that these problems still exist.

He is so small. Only ten or eleven if I had to guess. And he is feral. Scared. Angry. His eyes move over me like a target, waiting for Javi to give him the green light to eliminate me. I do not have to wonder if he has killed before. It is written in his troubled eyes already.

I have so many conflicting emotions about this boy that I’m having trouble processing them. If it were just the two of us in this house, then it would be different. But we have Aria to think about first and foremost. She is small and defenseless, and I can’t help but think that this entire time she could have been at risk. It angers me that Javi has done this without telling me, but that anger is only equal to the sympathy I feel for this boy.

“Where is his family?”

Javi guides me out the door and shuts it behind us, obscuring the boy from my sight and our words.

“He has no family,” Javi answers.

“Do you realize what you could have done?” I ask. “Aria—”

“She was never at risk,” Javi cuts me off. “I would never allow him to hurt her. And I would never allow him to stay here if I thought for one second that he would.”

“But you can’t know that for certain, Javi. You had me going crazy thinking that we were broken. That we were… through. You risked our marriage- our whole life together. You hid him from me. There must be a reason for that.”

“I never meant to hurt you, Bella,” he murmurs. “But I could not abandon him. And I knew that you would not understand.”

“That isn’t true,” I bite back.

Javi steps closer, wrapping me in his arms.

“You are my whole life,” he whispers. “And you have the softest heart I have ever been blessed to encounter. A heart that found love for me after all that I have done. But my Bella, as much as you love me, you cannot begin to understand or know what my life was like in the program. We are from two separate worlds.”

I rest my head against his chest and listen to his heart beat strong and steady beneath me. His words are true, as much as I want to tell him otherwise. I could never understand the full extent of what Javi has been through. And I know that what he’s trying to tell me now is that this boy needs him. He feels an obligation to him that perhaps I can never relate to, but in my own small way, I do understand that much.

“Where did he come from?” I ask. “How did he get here?”

“I am not entirely certain,” Javi answers. “I saw him on the cameras, lurking in the forest. He had been watching the house, and I thought that maybe he was an agent. I did not want to scare you, so I did not tell you. But when I found him, I realized he was only a boy. He said he had escaped and he was told that I could help him.”

“By who?”

Javi sighs. “A man with an apple.”

River.

The very name gives me mixed feelings, and I know Javi feels the same. There is still hurt in his eyes every time he thinks of him.

“Then how do you know we can trust this boy?” I ask carefully.

“I have interrogated him myself,” Javi assures me.

“Interrogated him?” I swallow. “But he is just a child.”

“He stopped being a child the day he was taken into the program,” Javi says. “And I could not risk my family until I was certain he was trustworthy, child or not.”

I don’t ask for further details because I don’t want to know them. From this point on, there is only one decision to make.

“A tool shed is no place for a boy to live,” I whisper.

Javi squeezes me a little tighter.

“I know.”

He believes that I will tell him to send the boy away. I can feel the tension in his body. He doesn’t want to choose between us, and right now he is torn.

“You will need to be responsible for watching him,” I say finally. “It’s the only way that we can ensure Aria’s safety. I need to feel comfortable in knowing that she will be safe no matter what.”

Javi’s shoulders relax, and he nods.

“Of course, Bella. I will never let any harm come to her. Nothing can ever cloud my judgment when it comes to our family. On that, you must trust me.”

“I do,” I answer.

And it’s true. I let my imagination run wild before, but being here with Javi now, I realize I should have known better. Aria and I mean everything to him. He wouldn’t have risked everything that we have without a good reason. A reason that I feel in my gut is about to change our lives forever. It scares me and warms me at the same time when I take Javi by the hand.

“I suppose it’s time for a proper introduction.”

His teeth flash in the darkness, and I know he’s smiling when he takes me back inside the shed.

The boy is curled up on the cot, scribbling in his sketch pad, his hood obscuring much of his eyes and face. He reminds me so much of a small Javi that it brings more tears to my eyes when I kneel down before him.

His hand freezes and the pencil stops moving. From this angle, he can’t avoid looking at me. And I know that this moment is the most important one we will ever have. I only get one chance to lay the foundation of our relationship.

I only get one chance to show him what a mother can be.

“Hello,” I say softly. “My name is Isabella. Has Javi told you about me?”

He looks to Javi for approval before nodding but doesn’t speak. I give him a gentle smile and reach out to touch his hand. He retreats into himself, and Javi steps forward as if to warn me, but I don’t shy away.

Javi may understand this boy, but I understand something that he can’t. This boy doesn’t just need structure and a safe space. He needs a mother’s love.

“I won’t hurt you,” I assure him. “And you won’t hurt me either.”

He looks to Javi again but allows me to take his hand in mine this time. It is small and cold and clammy because he is nervous. No matter what this boy has done, these are still the hands of a child. A child I feel a connection with. I can’t explain it. I can’t make sense of it. But I just know that this is where he belongs. I tell him so. And when I ask him if he would like to come and live in the house with us, he gives me the faintest of nods.

Once we have tucked him into bed in the room that he will call his own, Javi lingers outside the doorway.

“It’s alright,” I tell him. “You should stay here with him tonight. He needs you.”

He leans down into me and kisses me in a way that lets me know he will never forsake what we have together. This has been another learning experience for both of us, and although it was painful, I have come to understand that pain always brings about growth. And because of that, Javi and I will be stronger.

“After what happened with Aria,” he says, “I didn’t think we would ever be parents again.”

I smile up at him and peer through the crack at the form of the sleeping boy inside before I kiss him one more time.

“I think we should know by now my love, fate has a way of surprising us.”

The End.