Cameron

When he left, I was speechless and a little off kilter from the moments together. My insides were sore and I had to go to the bathroom to take care of the seed that was left inside of me. He had made me come several times, staining my panties so much that I had to take them off and throw them away. I then realized that I had some of his cum on me as well. We should have used a condom, but it wasn’t like any of this was planned. I hadn’t seen it coming, so how could I prepare for something like this? He was as unexpected as most of the city had been to me, but like most of it, Grey had been a welcomed surprise that I wouldn’t change if I could. I couldn’t regret the moments that we had shared together.

It was time to leave and since I had promised Anne that I would go to a party with her, I had to go home and get ready. I really needed a shower because a few moments in the bathroom hadn’t done much to make me feel any cleaner. I still had remnants of our love making all over me. He had marked me in more ways than one, but it was what he had done to my heart that made me the most nervous.

When I got home, Anne was getting ready and I swear she looked at me like she knew what had happened at the dentist’s office. Maybe it was a glow on my face, or my own guilt for letting things get so out of hand.

“My, my, Cameron. You look like you had a good day. Do you want to tell me why you are smiling like that?”

I felt guilty and I looked away from her because I was sure that she was going to know what was going on with me. I was never good at hiding things, even worse at secrets, but this one felt like a doozy that was going to be hard to conceal.

“It’s nothing, really.”

She just shook her head and scoffed. “Your hair is a mess and you have a look in your eyes like you were just royally fucked. Don’t try to deny it Cameron. Trust me, I have been there before.”

I was shocked at her words and the accuracy of her assumption. Was it really that obvious what I had been doing? Was it that obvious that I had just had mind altering sex with a handsome man that I barely even knew? It sure was what it felt like and I turned away before she could read my thoughts anymore or see the look on my face that would give me away.

“I don’t know what you are talking about.”

She scoffed again and told me that I was full of it. I was and she was right, but I didn’t want to talk about it. I hadn’t even had time to process what had happened and I wasn’t even sure what I felt about it. I knew that she was right. I had been royally fucked, but that didn’t mean anything. It didn’t mean that it was going to happen again. A part of me hoped that it did, over and over again if I was one hundred percent honest with myself.

“Fine Cameron. You keep your secrets. I will get the truth from you eventually. There is nothing to be ashamed of. I wish I could get it on and look like you do afterwards. If I didn’t know any better, I would say that you were in love.”

Now it was my turn to tell her that she was wrong. She was way off as far as I was concerned. I wasn’t in love, but I was surely in lust.

“I am going to go jump in the shower before we go. Do we have time?”

She smiled broadly and I knew what she was thinking but I wasn’t going to give her the satisfaction of telling her that she was right. I had to wash Grey off of me before we went out, just like I had to push him out of my mind that now felt like jelly.

Getting in the shower, the hot water poured over me and it made me think about how much I wanted him again. The water felt like his fingers caressing me and it was more than I was willing to take. I got turned on again and I wondered then if I was going to hear from him again. I wanted to, I really did and it bothered me. Grey wasn’t the type of guy that was going to be a boyfriend. After what I had learned about him, what was normal for him, it was clear that we came from two very different sides of the spectrum. We wanted very different things. I wasn’t going to be another one of his girls, because I was sure that he had many. I didn’t like the idea of it, but at the very least I had to be honest with myself, even if I didn’t want to be honest with Anne.

When I got out, Anne was ready and she insisted that I borrowed something to wear. “Come on Cameron. You aren’t in your small town anymore. You are going to have to up your clothing game.”

I looked down at what I was wearing and I didn’t see anything wrong with it. I knew that it was going to be a fight if I didn’t go along with it, so I did. She had me put on a black little dress that showed more skin than I was used to, but her approval of it made me feel a little bit better about it all.

“See you look good Cameron. You are going to find a man tonight if you want one, though I have a feeling that you already got more than you bargained for already.”

I didn’t say one way or another if that was what I wanted. But truth be told, I had found the man that I wanted and I don’t think anyone at the party was going to compare to Grey. I doubted that anyone would ever compare to him. Not in this lifetime.

“Well let’s get out of here. We are already late.”

“No worries Cameron. We will be there soon enough. Any time is the right time for parties like this one.”

***

The party was at a friend of hers house and there were a lot of people there when we got there. I was still trying to get used to everything and the speed of life that she was used to. Anne was the belle of the ball and it wasn’t the first time that I wished I could be like her. She may it all seem so easy and I was trying to fit into the new way of life, but it was hard to do when I was so used to a slower pace.

I was watching her with one of her girlfriends and I didn’t see the guy coming up behind me. It was only when he said my name that I looked over and realized that he was talking to me.

“Can I help you? I don’t think I know you.”

“No, you don’t, but I would like to get to know you. Anne said that you were single and I thought that maybe you would like to have a dance.”

“Anne said that huh?”

My eyes went back to where Anne was and I caught her gaze. She smiled at me and shrugged. She knew that I was busy with another guy, but I wasn’t going to admit to it, so I turned back to Sam and we started talking. He wasn’t my type, not by a long shot, but he was nice and I found out that he was from a small town as well. It made me feel a little better to know that I wasn’t the only one.

“We have to stick together in the big bad city, right?”

Again I didn’t know how to answer and it was only when he was asking me if I wanted to go somewhere to be alone that I realized what he was getting at. He may have been from a small town in Ohio, but that didn’t mean that he hadn’t been here long enough to pick up the fast lifestyle. He was ready to go somewhere and screw and I certainly wasn’t. It was literally the very last thing on my mind.

“Thanks for the offer Sam, but I am going to be leaving soon. I have a job to do in the morning and it is getting late.” I didn’t want to string him along.

The smile on his face fell and he gave me a look like I was being rude or something.

“I thought you were cool. If you are a friend of Anne’s I thought you would be like her and less uptight.”

I didn’t like being called uptight and I didn’t like the way he was looking at me as if I was a tease. I wasn’t a tease, but after spending time with Grey, it was hard to see myself with another guy. I knew that Grey was what I wanted and I knew that he was the type of man that I couldn’t have. Sam was nice and all, but he would never be able to compare to a guy like Grey. I was afraid that Grey had spoiled me and even though I would most likely never hear from him again, it was going to be hard to push him out of my mind, even with that knowledge in the back of my mind.

“Sorry that I am not what you expected Sam. I have to go, but it was nice meeting you anyways. It was good to see you.”

I turned around and walked away. I knew that he was going to think what he wanted and when I turned back around after getting my coat on, he was talking to Anne. I could only imagine about what it was he was saying to her. Anne looked at me and kind of gave me a sly smile. At least she wasn’t going to be mad at me. She wouldn’t have forced anything on me and I waved to her because I was going to go home and get a little sleep. She was a great roommate and fun to be around, but I was still a small town girl and I wasn’t able to keep up as good as I had hoped. I was tired and I had a long day ahead of me tomorrow at work. Maybe I just wasn’t made for the city.