Chapter 5
“Are you okay, Sarah?”
Sarah looked over at Darlee, trying her best to stand on the legs that felt like rubber suddenly. It was all she could do not to fall. Darlee came to help her and Sarah was thankful for it. She had always wondered what happened between a man and a woman, knew logistically how it worked, but never had she thought it would end with a feeling like that. It was almost too much to handle, her body still shaking from the side effects of it.
“Yea I am…”
Darlee was shocked to see that Lars had taken a liking to her. He never messed with the helpers and never once had she seen him there with another woman. Why was Sarah so different?
“We need to get you to your room. You do not want this to be known, Sarah. If she gets an inkling that her husband is with someone else, you will be sent away.”
Her words were not quite connecting. “What do you mean?”
“If she find outs that her husband fancies you, there will be hell to pay.”
“But I thought that they aren’t together and she has a lover?”
Darlee looked around like there was someone there that would hear them and report back to her with that very information.
“She does have all of those things, but the rich are strange and she will not take kindly to a woman like you stealing away her husband’s affections. Whether she has them or not is no matter to her. She doesn’t want him to be happy ever.”
Sarah seemed to understand, but it just made her feel worse for the man that was so kind to her and made her feel better than anyone else in her life had. How could something that felt so good, be wrong? She was sure that it couldn’t be wrong, but the way Darlee was looking at her, made her nervous. She was nervous because Sarah didn’t like the idea of being sent away. Not when she felt like she was really close to finding out what it was that she had been missing all that time.
“I will make sure to keep my distance from her.”
“Be sure that you do, Sarah. I like having you around and I don’t want something to make you have to leave.”
Sarah nodded agreeing one hundred percent with the sentiment. She didn’t want to go back to her home in even more shame then when she had left. She didn’t want to go back to working from dawn to dusk in the fields and selling the wares in the small villages. Sarah wanted to stay there and find out what more there was. All she knew was that what she had been living wasn’t life and there was no way that Sarah ever wanted to go back to that.
“I will make sure that I don’t do anything to make that happen. I really don’t know what happened. One minute I was looking for a bottle and the next minute he was kissing me and it was like my brain completely stopped working.”
Darlee agreed with a smile. There was more than once that she had felt the exact same way. She was no stranger to the soft caresses of a lord. Many visiting there would visit her in the kitchen as well. It was something that she missed from her days in her youth, but there was still a couple that still liked their women a little aged. Darlee was more than happy to give them what they wanted, but Sarah aimed too high and picked the wrong man. Mila was dangerous if she was crossed and Darlee didn’t want Sarah to get involved.
She took her up to her room and Sarah was quickly in bed. She wondered what it was that Lord Lars wanted with her, but she knew that it was unusual for him to take an interest in someone from the castle. It hadn’t happened that she knew of and she knew of everything that went on there. It made her smile to herself, wondering why she hadn’t seen it before. It made sense now. They both deserved a little happiness.
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“I don’t want to go to the countryside Lars! I don’t care what your reasons are. It is boring there, even worse than here.”
Lars was trying to be diplomatic, but he wanted her gone and Lars always got what he wanted. While she liked to pretend that what she said matters, when he did put his foot down, he meant it. “You will go by morning. I have told you why and I will not repeat myself.”
“Just because it is dangerous? I do not want to leave you. I want to be by your side.”
He looked at her and almost wanted to laugh. She was being dramatic and it didn’t suit her well. She could have cared less about any of it and he wondered why she didn’t want to stay all of a sudden. Surely there was more of a reason then she didn’t want to leave? He was sure it had something to do with her lover.
“I have said my piece wife. You will leave for your own protection while the clans work it out. I do not want anything to happen to you. I still would like to get an heir out of you yet. It was the reason we got married after all.”
“You would have to come to my bed once and a while, my lord, for that to ever happen.”
He grimaced at her. “I suppose you would have to be in it more yourself. You are always off running to him in the middle of the night. You don’t think that everyone knows what you do and who you do it with?”
She just smiled and it was one of those ones that he had seen before. He knew that she was never going to be easy to manage. The grin never made it to her eyes that were as cold as they had always been.
“Well I have to get some sort of attention or have you forgotten your duties?”
He moved towards her suddenly and kissed her, his body pushing up against hers. She was compliant almost immediately, and the rougher his hands pulled her to him, the more she seemed to like it. He was trying to prove his point, that she didn’t want him, but she seemed to like the treatment and when she moaned against him, he pushed her back.
“What is wrong with you? Is that what I have to do to make you a decent wife?”
It took her a minute to open her eyes, her body still buzzing with his touch. When she did open them her jade-colored eyes flashed at him before she finally turned away. She didn’t know why she liked it in such a way, her lover knew what she liked and when she had tried to rile Lars up to get it before, it had never ended well. She needed more than just talented fingers and tongue. She wanted to feel taken and Lars had never been one to give her what she wanted.
“I want to be taken by a man, Lars. Why is that so hard to understand?”
He shook his head and sighed. “Be gone by morning and take him with you. Just get out of my sight for a while.”