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Nothing Left to Lose by Kirsty Moseley (25)

Chapter Twenty-Five

 

 

~ Ashton ~

 

 

As we walked back to my apartment, I held Anna’s hand tightly. I’d had another incredible night. The band had been great, dancing with her was great, and Nate singing at the end of the night was priceless. Nate was easily the worst singer I had ever heard in my life, so Anna couldn’t have chosen a better forfeit for him to do.

Nate was coming home with us tonight too. Due to Anna’s little ‘he slept with my sister’ stunt, he hadn’t managed to hook up with anyone tonight, much to his disappointment. From the corner of my eye, I glanced at Anna and silently wondered if she was going to want me to make love to her again tonight. Every part of my body hoped that she did. The girl literally blew my mind. Last night and this morning was the best sex I’d ever had in my life, and I’d savoured every last second of it in case I never got to do it again.

In a way, Anna had ruined me. I couldn’t even look at other girls anymore; they were nothing in comparison to her. She was just incredible inside and out and what we had was more than just sex, it was everything that was good in my world. Being that close to her and knowing she would never allow another in my place made me feel as if I were the only man in the world.

When we got to my apartment, it was a little after one in the morning. “Hey, wanna play PlayStation?” Anna chirped.

I grinned; she honestly was the perfect girl. “Yeah, if you want to.”

Nate jumped over the side of the sofa. “First game!” he called excitedly. I rolled my eyes; he was such a kid at times.

“You two play first, I’m gonna go change,” Anna suggested. As she walked past me, she trailed her hand across my ass teasingly. I had the strong urge to follow her into the bedroom, but I wasn’t sure she’d want that. Instead, I plopped down onto the sofa next to Nate. We were in the middle of a mission on Grand Theft Auto when Anna walked out of the bedroom. She’d let her hair down so it fell messily around her shoulders. She had on one of my T-shirts and nothing else. Her long, toned legs were bare and begging to be touched. I couldn’t take my eyes off her.

“Holy shit, come sit by me, Anna,” Nate suggested, smirking at her and patting the chair next to him. Jealousy reared its ugly head, as it kept doing when he hit on her, so before I knew what I was doing, I’d punched him in the arm.

Anna giggled and shook her head. “I’m gonna make a sandwich or something, you two want anything?”

“Yeah, sounds good. You need a hand?” I asked, silently adding ‘or any other body part’ on the end.

“Nah, I think I got it, Pretty Boy,” she smiled her sexy smile and disappeared into the kitchen.

Instantly, Nate turned to me with wide eyes. “How the hell do you cope with that all the time?” he asked, shaking his head.

“Cope with what?”

“With dating Anna. I mean, damn, she’s so hot, I’d just want to bone her all day. You really like her, huh?” he questioned. He wasn’t teasing, which was surprising.

“Yeah, I’m so totally in love with her that it’s not even funny.”

“You’d better not screw this up, bud, because seriously, I’m gonna ask her out if you do,” he said, looking at me warningly. His serious expression told me he wasn’t joking.

“I won’t screw it up,” I promised. I just prayed that at the end of my assignment she’d still want to be around me.

“Good, because I really like this one, I think she’s a keeper.”

“Who’s a keeper?” Anna asked as she strutted back into the room with a plate of sandwiches, which she set on the coffee table.

“This girl on the game,” Nate lied quickly.

Anna looked at the screen, and a little frown lined her forehead because we were driving down the street in a stolen police car, no girl in sight. She picked up a sandwich and sat next to me, swinging her legs up into my lap. My attention was now solely on her bare legs and not on the game at hand so, of course, I was killed within a minute and passed my controller on to her. The position certainly wasn’t helping with my inappropriate arousal that seemed to happen all the time around her, and she was sure to feel it poking her in the leg but, thankfully, she didn’t mention it.

Unable to resist, I traced my hand up her leg, marvelling over the feel of her soft skin. My heart started to race as my hand reached her inner thigh. Her leg twitched, and her breath seemed to catch in her throat as she looked at me and sank her teeth into her bottom lip. I gulped loudly as she sat up and manoeuvred herself onto my lap. Her hand fisted into the back of my hair as her eyes locked on mine. The pure, unadulterated lust that I saw on her face sent shockwaves through my whole body. She leant in, pressing her chest against mine tightly as her mouth inched towards mine before stopping a hairsbreadth away.

“Bedroom, Agent Taylor. Now.” Her lips brushed against mine as she spoke.

I grinned, catching on immediately. “Yes, ma’am,” I answered, taking the controller from her hand and tossing it to a shocked and envious Nate. I gripped her pert little ass and pushed myself up off the sofa, taking her with me. Her lips crashed against mine as I carried her to the bedroom and kicked the door closed behind me.

As the kiss deepened, I pressed her against the wall. My fingers dug into her thighs, trying to cope with the sheer luxury of having her body wrapped around mine again. Slightly confused as to what she wanted, I broke the kiss and put my forehead to hers. “Anna, what are-”

Her lips pressed against mine, silencing me before I could voice my question fully. Her hands immediately went to my belt buckle, pulling on it frantically. My excitement bumped up another level as she wrenched the buttons open and slipped her hand inside, releasing my now painful erection. I groaned as her small hand wrapped around me tightly.

“Now, please, right now,” she begged breathlessly.

I nodded and fumbled in my pocket, pulling out my wallet intending to find the condoms that I’d purchased from the bathroom of the club, but her mouth closed over mine and she shifted her hips on me, crushing herself against me tightly.

“What are you waiting for, you want me to beg?” she asked breathlessly.

I grinned against her lips. “That would be pretty hot,” I admitted.

Her teeth sank into my bottom lip in reprimand as her thighs tightened around my waist. I chuckled wickedly, but her hand started stroking my erection gently and I knew I was done for. Now almost desperate, I dropped my wallet carelessly and took hold of her hips, lifting her higher and positioning myself at her entrance. I could feel the heat that was waiting to envelop me. I held my breath, waiting for the intense pleasure of her as I pushed her panties to the side and pulled her down onto me, forcing my body inside hers. She threw her head back, accidentally banging it on the wall behind her as she moaned my name. I hissed through my teeth as her inner muscles instantly gripped me in a vice-like grip. She fitted me like a glove. It was like she was made for me. Slipping one arm under her ass, I held her still as I used my free hand to tug off the T-shirt that she was wearing. She squeezed herself tighter to me, forcing me in another inch, taking my whole length inside her. The pleasure of her was so immense that it was almost dizzying.

She gasped and gripped the back of my head as she pressed her forehead to mine, looking me directly in the eye as she spoke. “This still counts as last night.”

Disappointment rushed through me at the thought of not being with her like a real boyfriend tomorrow, but the disappointment soon faded as she shifted her hips, making me move inside her.

I groaned and lifted her hips, starting up a rhythm that seemed to suit her. I kissed her passionately, wishing I could make her love me like I loved her – even half as much would still be more than I thought it was possible to love anyone. I loved her with everything I had; everything that was important to me just disappeared in a puff of smoke when she came into my life. I would do absolutely anything for her. She felt something for me too, deep down I knew it, but she was just scared of getting hurt again. I could wait though; I’d wait as long as she needed.

Her inner muscles started to tighten with each thrust; it was getting harder to move inside her as her moans became louder and more frequent. Suddenly her hips bucked and her whole body jerked as her eyes squeezed shut. Her inner walls tightened and convulsed around me, trying to force me to finish too, but I couldn’t allow that to happen. In the back of my mind, I was acutely aware that I hadn’t put on a condom, so I needed to be careful. At the tip of her climax, she gasped my name. The sound of it made my heart ache. I panted through her orgasm, trying to remain in control as the pleasure of her coming apart at my touch was becoming almost too much to bear.

Once her body started to relax and she slumped against me, I held her still against me and carried her over to the bed. Laying her down gently, I pulled out of her and just stared down at her in awe. She was gasping for breath with a look of pure pleasure and happiness stretched across her face. Pride swelled inside me that I had made her, the broken and emotionless girl, feel happy. Reaching out, I snagged my camera from the side and took a picture of her face.

“Hey! What are you doing?” she protested, trying to grab it from my hands.

I smiled and held it out of reach. “I just love that look on your face, and if I’m not gonna get to see it again after this trip, then I want to be able to have a picture of it,” I explained, shrugging. I didn’t need a photo though, I was confident that I’d be able to see that face every time I closed my eyes. As she smiled up at me and ran her fingers through my hair, I silently wondered why I couldn’t have met her four years ago before all that terrible stuff happened to her. Maybe then I could have stolen her from Jack, and she wouldn’t be afraid to fall for me.

Suddenly her smile faded, replaced by a horrified expression. “Oh no! We didn’t use a condom!”

I smiled reassuringly. “It’s okay, I didn’t finish.” I brushed her hair from her sweaty forehead.

She gasped. “You didn’t?” She looked both relieved and angry at the same time.

I winced, knowing that she was going to chew me out for not using a condom. “I was going to put one on, and then I got distracted. You said now, and I just, I don’t know, I lost my thoughts. I remembered though, I didn’t finish, it should be fine,” I rambled, trying to explain my irresponsible act.

She put her hand over my mouth, stopping my garbled excuses. “Just shush,” she whispered, lifting her head and brushing her nose up the side of mine. She gripped my shoulders and pushed me onto my back, moving to straddle me. “So you haven’t finished?” she asked, grinning wickedly.

I shook my head, watching her, waiting for her reaction and scolding. Instead, she stood up on the bed above me, one foot either side of my hips. She unclasped her bra, sliding it off slowly, making my breath catch in my throat as her breasts came into view. She swung her bra on one finger teasingly before dropping it in my face. I groaned and moved the material quickly so I could watch her. She was grinning as she ran her hands across the waist of her panties before slipping her hand inside the hips of them, pulling them down slowly, running her hands down her legs as she did it. With every inch that the panties moved down, my heart rate seemed to speed up. With every inch of creamy flesh that her hands traced over, I felt my arousal heighten. She didn’t once take her eyes from my face. This was killing me slowly; it was the hottest thing I’d ever seen in my life. I moaned as she kicked them off, standing stark naked above me, making my mouth water as she exposed all of her brilliance.

“Anna,” I breathed, I couldn’t summon any more words than that, my brain was like mush. Clearly I’d unleashed a sex-crazed freaking monster. Whatever the hell she was doing was almost painful. I gripped my hands around the back of her knees and pulled, making her knees buckle. She fell onto me, giggling. I could feel her naked skin pressing on every inch of my chest making me tingle with excitement. I ran my hands up her legs, from her knees, following the curves of her body, all the way up to her breasts.

She pushed herself up to sitting, straddling my chest, looking at me sternly, grabbing my hands from her body and pinning them above my head. She shook her head forcefully. “No, Agent Taylor, I’m in charge, and you’ll do as you’re told,” she scolded, grinning wickedly. My stomach clenched and, impossibly, my dick got even harder.

“Yes, ma’am. I’m sorry, ma’am,” I replied, knowing she’d like that.

She narrowed her eyes and moaned breathily. “That is so damn hot, Ashton,” she purred, licking her lips slowly. I smiled at how turned on she was too, it seemed like she was loving this just as much as I was. “Now, where are your handcuffs, Agent?” she asked.

Holy fuck. “Seriously?” I asked breathlessly. My excitement was spiking to new heights at the thought alone.

“I’m serious, Agent. Where are your handcuffs?” she repeated, biting her lip.

“Over in my top drawer on the right,” I answered quickly. I was so excited that I could barely breathe. She grinned and climbed off me, walking naked to my drawers. I watched her pert ass sway as she walked. The little red hickey that I’d put there the previous night actually made my mouth water. As she pulled the drawer open, she giggled excitedly as she reached in and produced my SWAT tactical waistcoat. Her eyes lit up as she looked back at me and raised one eyebrow as if silently asking my permission. I gulped and nodded. Almost instantly, she slipped it on and zipped it up. I groaned loudly because of how hot she looked in that. I’d never be able to look at my uniform the same way again. She sashayed her way back to me, crawling on all fours over the bed, her eyes playful. Every nerve in my body was on fire with desire as she climbed onto me, straddling me before kissing me deeply. She held up the handcuffs and smiled as she reached my hands, pushing them through the bars on my headboard before clipping the handcuffs around my wrists. I’d honestly never seen anything more beautiful than her sitting on top of me, wearing just my waistcoat, and that sexy smile.

She grinned at me wickedly. “I’m gonna go play PlayStation with Nate,” she smiled teasingly, and I couldn’t help but laugh.

“Don’t you dare,” I warned.

She laughed and put her finger to her chin, pretending to think. “Hmm, actually I think maybe I’ll have more fun here with you,” she purred. “I’m gonna tease you until you beg for mercy.” She grinned wickedly, and I knew then that I would probably die before this night was over.

“As long as you fuck me after, I don’t mind,” I answered.

She bent forward, tracing her nose along the edge of my jaw. “Oh I will, don’t you worry about that, Agent Taylor.”

My heart was crashing in my chest. I loved this girl so much; I really wished she knew it.

 

Once she’d finished with me, she slumped down against my chest, pressing her face into my neck, breathing heavily. Our bodies were slick with sweat. I bit my lip when I wanted to confess my love for her, she really didn’t need to know that.

I turned my head and kissed her temple, still feeling my heart fly in my chest. “That was freaking awesome,” I muttered breathlessly. Annabelle Spencer certainly had a wild side, and although some of the time she’d looked a little insecure and had silently asked my permission for stuff, she had undoubtedly been liberated by what we had just done.

She sighed happily and ran her hands up my arms, pushing her hands through the bars of the headboard and interlacing our fingers. “Mmm,” she mumbled.

I gripped her hands tightly, afraid to let go. The sad truth was that I wanted her forever, but she just had no idea.

After a few minutes, she raised her head and smiled lazily at me. “That was the most fun I’ve ever had,” she whispered, kissing my mouth.

I grinned; she’d taken the words right out of my mouth. “I’m glad, Baby Girl. Now, can you take these damn cuffs off me so I can wrap my arms around you?” I asked, looking at her longingly. I needed to touch her, hold her, make the most of every second of her before this agreement was over.

She laughed and sat up on me. “Hmm, I’m not sure I want to let you go just yet. Where exactly did you put your camera?” she teased. I looked at her warningly, and she giggled. “Okay, okay. Where are the keys?” She bent down and kissed me, making my world spin faster. I needed to get these cuffs off and hold her, my whole body was aching for that closeness, that reassurance that I wasn’t going to lose her.

“Same drawer where you got the cuffs,” I mumbled against her lips. She climbed off me, looking somewhat reluctant, and went to the drawer. I glanced at the clock, shocked to see that it was quarter to three in the morning, which meant that we’d been at this for over an hour and a half.

She came back with the key, smiling teasingly. “So, what’s it worth, Pretty Boy?”

“Whatever you want.” I’d give her anything she asked for – not that I’d tell her that though because she already ran rings around me.

“How about I have a girls’ night at our place when we get back,” she blurted quickly, a hopeful expression on her face.

I looked at her curiously. She wants some girlfriends over? I don’t mind that. “Sure.” I shrugged. I was getting off easy with that one.

“You’re not allowed to be there. You have to wait next door with Dean and Peter,” she added, grimacing.

“What? No way, that’s not happening!” I said sternly.

Her shoulders slumped with disappointment as she crawled to my side. “Please? Not all night, just for a couple of hours. Maybe a movie and some drinks?” she suggested, pouting and shooting me the face that I had serious issues saying no to.

I swallowed hard, trying not to give in. “Anna, I can’t do that,” I said apologetically praying she wouldn’t keep asking.

She sighed sadly, and my heart sank. I hated telling her no. “Okay, never mind, it was just a thought,” she muttered, reaching out and unlocking my hands.

As soon as I was free, I grabbed her into a hug and rolled to my side, pulling her close to me. I ignored the fact that her naked body fitted perfectly against mine and that her breasts were pressed tight against my chest. “Please don’t be upset, Baby Girl. I just can’t let that happen,” I whined, feeling awful.

“I know. I shouldn’t have asked. I just wanted to be a normal girl for a change. Don’t worry about it; it was a stupid idea anyway. I knew you wouldn’t go for it,” she shrugged, smiling weakly, but it was a forced smile and I could see the disappointment in her eyes, even though she was trying to disguise it.

I groaned, knowing I shouldn’t allow it but not being able to stand the look on her face. It wasn’t even as if she was asking for the world, it was only a couple of girls. I’d just have to pray her father didn’t hear about it, otherwise I’d be in trouble for neglecting my duties.

“Okay fine,” I agreed. “But not all night,” I added quickly.

Her head snapped up. “Seriously?” A smile crept onto her lips and her eyes widened with excitement.

I grinned; I loved seeing her happy. “Seriously,” I confirmed, nodding and hooking my leg over hers, pulling her closer to me.

She kissed me gratefully. “Thank you so much, Ashton. I really appreciate it, I know you’re gonna hate doing it,” she said, looking a little guilty.

“I know, but it’s worth it to see that look on your face.” I would walk through fire to see that look on her face.

She kissed me again before pulling back and resting her head on my chest. I sighed and ran my hands down her back, relishing in the feel of her naked skin against the pads of my fingers. But a nagging sensation in my bladder had to ruin the moment. “I need to pee. I won’t be long,” I whispered. She nodded and moved off me, curling onto her side. I smiled at her as she started to fall asleep almost immediately; she looked so peaceful and adorable. I sighed happily and pulled on a pair of boxers, heading out to the bathroom.

“Finally, you two are finished,” Nate said, smirking at me. He was still sitting in the exact same spot, playing the same game.

I grinned. “Yeah, she’s a freaking beast,” I replied, laughing quietly at how much that statement just didn’t even begin to describe Anna and what had just happened to me. I ran my fingers through my hair and turned to go to the bathroom.

“Wow, Taylor, she got you a bit there,” Nate called, laughing and nodding at the scratches on my back.

I shrugged. “That was last night.”

He pointed to my hand and frowned. “What the hell happened to your wrists? Those look like handcuff marks!” he stated, frowning. I looked down to see a small red ring around each wrist; it was my own fault from where I was pulling, trying to get my hands out so that I could touch her.

I smiled wickedly. “None of your business, man. A gentleman never tells.”

His eyes widened in awe. “Screw that, you’re not a gentleman! We always share details,” he whined.

I laughed and shook my head. “Not this time. She’s not some one night stand, Nate; she wouldn’t want me to say anything.”

I said goodnight to Nate and slunk my way back to the bedroom. I looked at her sleeping form for a few minutes, feeling the love simmer inside me. I sighed and flicked off the light, pulling my boxers back off. I figured that if she was sleeping naked, then I could too. I climbed in the bed next to her, and she instantly shifted in her sleep so I could wrap my arms around her.

“Mmm,” she mumbled as she snuggled into my chest.

“I love you,” I whispered, knowing she was asleep. I quite often told her when she was asleep; saying it out loud made me feel better.

“Mmm. Love you too,” she murmured, tightening her arms around me.

My heart stopped. What the… did she just say that to me? I shifted so I could look at her, she was definitely asleep. “Anna, are you talking to me?” I asked quietly.

She didn’t answer, she was sound asleep.

I sighed and closed my eyes. All I could think about was those three little words she had said. Love you too. They sounded incredible in her voice, and I would kill to hear them again. My heart was trying to escape out of my chest, and my stomach was clenched up tight. She wouldn’t have been talking to me though, I was being stupid, she was probably dreaming about Jack or something. Disappointment washed over me, killing my happy mood and making me feel slightly nauseous. I sighed and kissed her forehead, snuggling into her warm naked body, making the most of my time with the most perfect girl in the world.