Epilogue
Sadie
The house is quiet. It’s an unusual sound because, with four of us here, there is always something going on. Jack is sleeping in his nursery and Carter and Dale are sleeping either side of me.
I look across at them; Dale with his gorgeous floppy hair and Carter still shorn as though he’s just returned from Iraq. In sleep they look more alike than they do awake. I guess their personalities drive their mannerisms and that causes the differences that I find so fascinating.
Carter stirs a little and his hand seeks out my warmth, resting over my stomach possessively. I find Dale’s hand under the sheet and we lay this way for a while.
Connected.
It’s how I feel between my men.
Eighteen-months ago I never would have believed that I would have found space in my heart for another man. Dale was my everything and I was happy…contented.
Eighteen-months ago, I would have thought that any woman involved with two men was of looser morals than I felt I had myself. I took vows with Dale that I never intended to break.
But Eighteen-months ago I hadn’t met Carter and I had no idea how close he and my husband were. As an only child I didn’t realize the bond that sibling can have, especially twins. There is something about the way they are together – the ying and yangness – that made falling in love with Carter a possibility.
He is Dale and Dale is him.
It’s hard to explain because they are so different in every way, but I guess that’s what makes them so together. It’s as though, when they divided in the womb, they became two halves of one person. At least, that’s how I see them.
The clock on the wall says it’s 6.30am. Earlier than I should be awake. Jack’s stopped waking this early for his first feed of the day but I guess my body clock hasn’t adjusted yet.
For the first time since he was born I’ve woken feeling horny. My body has taken time to recover and my mind has taken time to adjust. I’m a mommy now, but still a woman.
My heart still yearns for the affection that Dale and Carter show me, but up until today my body wasn’t responding the same.
We have an hour before Jack wakes. It’s an hour I want to use rather than snooze. I take Dale’s hand and guide it between my legs. My panties feel damp. He moans softly in his sleep, stirring gently until his eyes open and find mine.
“Baby,” I whisper gently. “Will you touch me?”
His eyes flash in a way I haven’t seen since before I gave birth. That hint of desire and promise of what’s to come makes me wetter. He starts to move his fingers, finding my clit gently and reaching lower, seeking lubrication. Oh, god. I’d forgotten how it feels to be aroused. Where my body had been sleeping…switched off almost…now its awake.
As Dale works between my legs, I turn to Carter, moving his hand from my stomach to my breast. It’s round and filled with milk, so much bigger than they were before. His fingers brush my nipple and that combined with what Dale is doing so well is enough to make me moan. Carter is awake in a flash; his combat alertness still hasn’t subsided.
“Whah,” he gasps but I shushhh him and show him what I need. His hands on my body. All his attention on me.
When he realizes what’s happening he groans.
“You feel so good,” he says, gently stroking my breast, brushing the tip of my nipple with his palm. I feel my milk letting down and he strokes away the small white bead and puts it to his lips. “Sweet,” he says with a grin and I laugh out loud. Maybe I’m kinky for liking it when he puts his lips around my nipple and sucks, but damn, I almost come there and then.
“Save some for Jack,” Dale chuckles. He moves to kiss my mouth and Carter moves lower, pushing my knees apart and finding my clit with the tip of his tongue.
My hips rise off the bed. Oh my god, Carter is good at this. Long slow licks combined with little flutters of his tongue have me gripping his shoulders as I chase the pleasure to orgasm. The lack of familiarity makes it sweeter. Dale knows my body inside out and that’s amazing, but Carter’s newness has me moaning loud enough to wake the neighbors.
“Oh,” I gasp. I didn’t want to come this fast but it’s been so long since I last had sex that my body seems primed for it. Carter doesn’t stop though. He keeps on sliding his tongue around my clit, slowly bring me close all over again.
“I think she likes that,” Dale says and Carter looks up grinning.
“I have a magic tongue,” he chuckles.
“Magic cock too, I’m sure.” Dale shucks off his boxers and his dick stands large and proud.
“Funny, I’ve got one just like that,” Carter says, doing the same. I’m suddenly faced with every woman’s dirtiest fantasy. Gorgeous, identical twins with gorgeous identical dicks. I’ve thought about this moment so much over the past few months. What it would be like to be with both these amazing men at the same time. I’m as scared as I am excited. Neither of them is lacking in the size department and I have no idea how I’m going to accommodate them. I guess it’s going to be fun finding out.
“Condom,” Dale says to Carter and he throws him one from the nightstand. After one successful pregnancy, none of us wants to risk another just yet. Dale doesn’t bother because the chances of us conceiving are so slim.
“Husband first,” Carter jokes.
“Nah,” Dale laughs. “You’ve been waiting for this longer than I have.”
Carter smiles down at me, clutching his big cock by the root. “You ready for me, Sadie?”
“As I’ll ever be,” I say, biting my lip. As he lowers himself on top of me my mind flashes the memory of the first time we did this. There was so much strangeness that time. The guilt of what we were doing and all the worry about how it was going to change our lives for good. Now, as I lie here with Dale at my side and Carter pushing himself inside me, all that worry is gone. I feel truly content and it’s the best feeling in the world.
“You’re tight,” Carter grunts.
“That’s good to know,” I chuckle. After giving birth it’s kind of inevitable to worry how things are going to be down there.
Dale laughs too. “Smooth, Carter,” he says.
“What?” Carter scowls. “I’ve just woken up and given your wife an orgasm. Let me get my damn bearings.”
“Is that what they’re call it these days?”
“Oh,” I gasp as Carter’s hips meet mine. His eyes search mine out in the soft morning light.
“Sadie,” he says gently. “You okay, baby?”
“Yeah,” I whisper. “Go easy on me.”
He strokes my hair away from my face and kisses my lips softly. “You don’t gotta ask, baby. I got you.”
His movements are slow and languid and I begin to lose myself in how amazing it feels. Dale is there watching. He kisses my cheek and puts my hand around his cock. “See how hard you make me,” he whispers. “This is all for you, baby. When Carter’s done, I’m gonna give it all to you.”
I stroke him firmly and he moans in my ear. Carter rolls his hips and I’m lost in the sensations and the promise of what’s to come. “I love you,” Carter say, sliding his hands beneath my ass so he can raise my hips higher. He grinds harder and I gasp I love you too as another orgasm takes my breath away. Carter comes too, his whole body seizing as he groans in ecstasy.
Dale gives us enough time to recover before telling his brother to get out the way. He gently rolls me so my hips are resting on a pillow and he bends to kiss the bottom of my spine. “You look so damn perfect, baby.”
My husband makes love to me with all the fineness of a man who’s mastered my body over many years. I’m boneless and lost but he brings me to the brink so quickly I don’t even have time to gasp. “That’s it, baby,” Dale whispers in my ear. “Come on my cock.”
And I do. Oh I do.
When I come round, Carter is there to kiss my lips and stroke my back. Dale groans low and deep when he comes and just as we’re all flopping on the bed, a little cry rings out from the nursery across the hall.
“Dale, the baby.” I shift from beneath him.
“It’s okay, I’ve got him.” Carter heads to get Jack and brings back our little bundle of joy. I throw on my robe and take the baby, cradling him close to me.
“Mommy’s hear, little one,” I say. “Is it time for breakfast?”
“Better hope Carter left something for him,” Dale jokes.
“No sex talk in front of the baby,” Carter warns.
Dale plumps pillows up against the headboard, making a little cocoon for me and our son. I settle in, my boys on either side of me, and lift Jack to my breast. He roots around, making little hungry, grunting noises before latching onto me and settling in for his feeding.
“Looks like somebody else needs Sadie now,” Dale chuckles and rubs lightly at Jack’s fuzzy little head.
“You’re lucky you’re adorable, little man,” Carter says roughly. He reaches out a finger and touches Jack’s hand. Jack’s tiny fingers wraps around Carter’s and he holds on tightly.
“That’s right, little man, you got us all wrapped around your little fingers. Don’t you.” Carter coos at Jack.
I lean back, resting my head against the pillows and listen to the soft murmur of Dale and Carter talking to Jack and the smack of Jack’s lips as he feeds. My life is beyond perfect.
Sometimes you have to fight for your dreams. They might feel distant or impossible, but taking risks is what life’s all about. I knew in my heart that being a mom was my destiny, and Dale found a way to give me the chance to experience life’s greatest gift. It was the love between Carter and Dale that brought Jack into our lives. If they hadn’t been so devoted to each other, none of us would be here right now.
I know that whatever happens next that my boys will be with me and I will spend the rest of my life showing them just how grateful I am.