CHAPTER EIGHT
Sinner
AFTER LEAVING CARA’S last night, I called the hospital for an update on Cazzo’s condition. He was in a private room and had been in and out of it since he first woke. It was too late to head over there, so I went home and worked out my frustrations on my cock. Although the two minutes I spent jacking off to the memories of Cara did absolutely nothing to put me in a better mood.
I headed out to the hospital this morning after checking in with Sebastian. Our team was officially off duty until he finished going over the reports. It was pretty typical for a team to take time off when a team member was injured. Walking down the halls of the hospital, I prepared myself to see Cazzo, not knowing what mindset he would be in.
He seemed to be sleeping when I walked into his room, but opened his eyes as I got closer.
“You here to bust me out?”
“I actually came to ask you to hang out a little longer. The nurses are hot.”
He rolled his eyes. “I take it that since you’re not with Vanessa we’re no longer on her detail.”
“Her dad sent his security that night. How ya feeling?”
“Can’t feel my fucking legs, but other than that, I’m just dandy.”
“What’d the doctors say?”
“They said that swelling is normal with this kind of injury and we won’t know more for a few days.” He stared at the ceiling and blew out a breath. “Fuck. I hate hospitals. There’s no way I can stay here for a few more days.” He clenched his jaw and growled in frustration.
“Right, so hot wings and ribs?”
“Don’t forget the whiskey.”
“Honey, I can hear you loud and clear. I already told you there would be no alcohol as long as you’re on pain killers.” A nurse in her fifties walked in and looked at his chart before checking in on the computer.
“Why the fuck do I need to be on painkillers? I can’t feel anything.” Cazzo growled.
“You may not be able to feel your legs, but I can guarantee you would feel where you had surgery and it wouldn’t be too pleasant. Now, would you prefer the whiskey or the painkillers?”
She raised an eyebrow at him and put a hand on her hip.
“Fine, just give me the damn painkillers.”
“Now, Cazzo, don’t go pissing off the pretty nurse. She could give you a male nurse for your sponge baths,” I grinned.
“Cazzo? I’m guessing that’s a nickname?”
“Yep.”
“What’s it mean?” She asked Cazzo.
“I don’t know. They won’t tell me,” he grumbled.
“You could look it up, asshole.”
“Hmm. Fitting.” She murmured and walked out of the room.
“Cap been here?”
“Not this morning. He was here last night, but I told him to get the fuck out of here. He was doing all his work from here and I couldn’t sleep. Wouldn’t leave until the doctor came in.”
His words started slurring and his eyes were drooping. The painkillers must have been kicking in.
“The doctors say he’s pretty lucky.” I turned to see Burg standing in the doorway. He looked exhausted as he sat in the chair on the other side of the bed.
“What exactly did the doctors say?”
“The bullet hit close to the spine, but he should recover. They think that he can’t feel anything because of the pressure from the swelling. We won’t know for sure until the swelling goes down. Therapy’s going to be a bitch.”
“He’s ready to leave. Any chance he’ll get out of here early?”
“Not with a spinal injury. They won’t move him until they know more about what they’re dealing with.”
“Fuck, he’s gonna go crazy.” I ran a hand through my short hair and stared at my friend lying in the bed, not knowing what was going to happen to him. It would kill him if he couldn’t walk again and I didn’t think I could stand to see him in pain like that.
“When did you get here?”
“About forty-five minutes ago.”
“You should just head out. I’ll be here for a little bit, but everyone is taking turns coming over today. He’s gonna be pissed if everyone’s hanging around him.”
“He said he kicked Cap out because he was keeping him awake,” I grinned.
“Cazzo likes his privacy.”
“Alright, I’ll head out, but call me if you hear anything new.”
He nodded, but didn’t say anything. I looked back at Cazzo again and realized that he looked pretty good, maybe a little under the weather, but not like he should be laid out in a hospital bed. Shit. That could have been any of us. I needed to talk to Cap about what exactly happened. I needed answers.
I headed over to Reed Security determined to get some answers for why our team was under fire with no warning whatsoever. Sebastian couldn’t just blow this off. I needed to know why that asshole, Victor Adams had sent us in without all the facts. Stepping out of the elevator inside the Reed Security building, I was greeted by Maggie.
“Hey, Sinner. Did you come to speak to Sebastian?”
“Yeah, is he here?”
“Yeah, he was just about to leave to go check on Cazzo.”
“I just came from there.”
She walked forward and placed a hand on my arm. “I’m so sorry that happened. I know that it must have been hard.”
“He’s going to be fine.”
“I know, but still..”
“When I saw him lying in that bed..” My throat started to constrict with all the thoughts running through my head. I hadn’t really allowed myself to feel anything up until this point, but when I saw him lying there, it brought back all the shit from my days in Special Forces. I never dwelled on the people we lost because it would drag me down into a hole I wasn’t sure I could climb out of. But when it happened, when there was someone lying there in front of me, dead or close to it, I just felt so helpless. That’s how I felt when I saw Cazzo lying there, useless. Nothing I did would guarantee he would walk again.
Maggie wrapped her arms around me and gave me a hug that I didn’t know I’d needed until she gave it. Since she had started dating Sebastian, she had become like a little sister to me, despite the fact that she bashed my head in with a car door. My own family was thousands of miles away and we hadn’t spoken in years. The guys in my unit in the Army were my family and now the people at Reed Security.
“What the fuck are you doing? Get your hands off my woman,” Sebastian growled as he stepped out of his office. Our hug was innocent to anyone’s eyes, but Cap was possessive of Maggie to the point of irritation.
“Relax, Cap. It was a hug. It’s not like I was taking her out for ice cream,” I smirked. Yeah, Maggie had told me about how she made Sebastian think that us going for ice cream was code for sex. It didn’t make him like me anymore, but it was fun sticking it to him.
“My office. Now!” I bent down and gave Maggie a kiss on the cheek before brushing past Cap and sitting down in the chair across from his desk. As he walked past, he slapped me on the back of the head.
“I went by to see Cazzo this morning.”
“How was he?”
“He wants whiskey and ribs.”
Cap smirked at that. “I’m heading over to see him later, but I don’t think he’s allowed ribs yet.”
“What the fuck is going on with Adams? Did you find out anything?”
“Nothing yet. I have Becky working on it, but Adams is very rich and knows how to hide his secrets. It’s going to take some time.”
“That fucker is responsible for getting Cazzo shot. We need to deal with him.”
Cap’s jaw flexed in irritation. “I know you want revenge for what happened, but until we have proof that he knew about a potential attack, there’s nothing we can do. You’re just going to have to let things play out. Take some time off.”
“I don’t need time off.”
“I don’t give a fuck what you think you need. Your head’s not in the right space to be out there right now. Come back in a week and talk to me.”
I clenched my jaw to keep from spewing shit at him about how pissed I was. Cap wouldn’t be intimidated and there was no changing his mind. I got up and stormed out of the office, ignoring the hellos as I got on the elevator and left the Reed Security property. There was only one place I could think to go right now, so I headed over to Cara’s for a much needed distraction.
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Cara looked absolutely stunning when she answered the door. She was just in some lounge pants and a t-shirt, but she was still the sexiest woman I’d ever seen. I pushed my way inside and wrapped my hand around the back of her neck as I kissed her. She melted into me, giving in to the kiss and taking it higher as she pushed her tongue into my mouth.
Slamming the door shut, I picked her up and carried her into her bedroom. I had removed my belt in the truck so that I didn’t scare her and she noticed because her eyes flicked to my waistline. I lifted my shirt so she could see and that’s when she stepped forward and undid my pants, then yanked them down my legs. I hadn’t even taken off my shoes and she didn’t bother to finish undressing me. She pulled my cock out of my boxers and stroked it until I was fully hard for her.
When she sucked my cock into her mouth, I was sure I was going to come in two point five seconds. I had to start imagining all sorts of nasty shit just to get myself under control. The longer she sucked on me, the more I tipped over the edge toward oblivion. I pulled back and quickly undressed her. I couldn’t take my time with her right now. I just needed to escape all the shit in my life and she was like going to Hawaii.
“Get on the bed on your knees,” I whispered in her ear. She got up on all fours and shook her little ass in the air. If I thought she was ready for it, I would take her ass, but we weren’t at that point in our fuck buddy relationship.
As I ran my hands along her wet folds, I felt my cock jump toward her. Even he knew where paradise was located and couldn’t wait to get there. I pumped my fingers in and out of her a few times to be sure she was ready and then lined my cock up with her pussy. I had every intention of slowly sinking into her, but as soon as I felt her heat, I plunged in and started fucking her hard. Cara was skinny and there wasn’t a lot to hold on to, so I wrapped my hands around her waist, which felt way too small in my hands, and slammed my body against hers until the only sounds in the room were our heavy breathing and the slap of our skin.
Every moan she made pushed me until I was pistoning my hips violently against her body. “Fuck, Cara. I’m gonna come.”
She didn’t respond except to moan loudly. I felt her pussy clamp around me and that was all it took to push me over the edge. I pulled out and collapsed on the bed next to her. As I stared at the ceiling, I wondered if I had just taken advantage of our arrangement. I hadn’t even said hello to her. I just barged in and took her. After everything she had been through the past few days, I didn’t even ask her how she was doing. I really was an asshole. Maybe her brother was right about me.
“Thanks for stopping by. I needed that.”
I looked over at her smiling face and figured she was fine. I saw no sign of fear or distress, so I let it go.
“Me too.”
“Shit day?”
I nodded as I looked up at the ceiling again. “I went to see Cazzo this morning. He can’t feel his legs and the doctors won’t know more for a few days when the swelling goes down.”
“I’m sorry.” She placed her hand over my heart and gave my chest a little pat. “That must have been hard to hear.”
“Then Cap told me not to come back for a week until I get my head on straight.”
“And what will help you accomplish that?”
“I suppose you could fuck it out of me,” I said with a lazy smile.
“I don’t mind helping you with that, but I have to get back to work tomorrow, so I’m afraid you’ll have to settle for night time visits only.”
I pouted and batted my eyes at her, but she just laughed.
“Okay, on to you. Time to get to work on your shit.”
“I thought you just stopped by to fuck?”
“That wasn’t our deal.”
“Well, I wasn’t really planning on doing much today. Let’s reschedule for another time.”
I grabbed her hand and pulled her up. “Nope. You’re not getting out of this. We have to get you out of your head too.” I smacked her ass and then pulled her toward the bathroom. “Shower first, then I’m taking you out.”
I started the shower and shoved her inside. After I removed my boots and then clothes, I stepped in behind her and lathered her up. My plan was to get her really turned on and then we’d head out. I had no idea if it would work, but it was worth a shot. As we got dressed after our shower, Cara continued to stare at me like she was ready to ravage me, but I wasn’t biting.
“Come on,” I said as I grabbed her hand and dragged her out to my truck. She started pulling against my hand.
“Wait, where are we going?”
“I’m taking you out to eat.”
“No, Mark, I’m not ready for this. It’s too soon.”
“Too bad, you gotta get back on the horse.”
“Mark, please don’t make me do this. I can’t.”
I could feel her hand shaking in mine. I knew this would be tough for her, but I had already witnessed what it was like for her. We had to push through. I turned to her and cupped her cheek.
“Cara, I need you to trust me. I won’t ever push you too far, but you have to keep trying. I’m here for a whole week without any interruptions, so let’s get down to business.”
Tears swam in her eyes as she looked at me. “Please,” she whispered. I leaned in and gave her a soft kiss, then threw her over my shoulder and carried her to the truck.
“Mark! Stop!” She hit me repeatedly in the back and then started kicking when I set her in the passenger side and buckled her in. I shut the door and ran around to the other side, throwing it in gear before she could escape.
“I swear to God, I will jump from this truck!”
“Now, Lollipop, don’t go doing something stupid like that because I will still take you to the restaurant, only you’ll be covered in blood.”
“I hate you right now.”
“I’m sure you do, but you asked me to help you and I swear to fuck, there will be someone that I can help.”
I hadn’t meant to say that last part, but maybe it was a good thing I had because she stopped fighting me and stared out the window. I drove out of town to the next town over and pulled into a small diner that I knew wouldn’t be busy. I took her hand and guided her inside, then got us a table at the back of the restaurant where there were no customers. It also happened to be close to the bathrooms.
“I need to be by the door in case I need to leave.”
“No, you need to be away from the other customers. If you’re surrounded by them, you’re going to be worrying about them instead of just enjoying yourself.”
I sat down in the booth and then pulled her in next to me. I made sure to give her the outside so that she could run if she needed to. She didn’t like feeling caged in and that had to do with being kidnapped, but also her need to escape the restaurant in a hurry if she felt sick.
A waitress in her fifties or sixties stopped by the table and gave us a harried smile.
“What can I get for you today?”
“Let’s start with water.”
She looked at me with a look of irritation. “Real big spenders today.”
“Janice,” I looked at her name tag, “we haven’t gotten a chance to look at the menu yet. What would you recommend?”
Janice started rattling off the specials, but all I could do was stare at Cara. She was trying to control her breathing and had a fine sheen of sweat breaking out across her face. I turned toward her in the booth and slid my hand over hers that rested on her leg and intertwined our fingers. When she squeezed my hand, I looked up at the waitress and told her to bring us two burger specials. She walked away and I used my other hand to brush a few strands of hair away from Cara’s face.
“You’re so beautiful, Cara.” My mouth was just an inch from her ear and I licked the shell before nipping the lobe with my teeth. I moved my hand to caress the nape of her neck as I continued to speak softly to her.
“When we were in the shower, it took everything I had not to take your beautiful nipples in my mouth and suck them until they were sore.”
I untangled my fingers from her and moved my hand up and down her inner thigh. “When I was washing your body, I was imagining what it would be like to fuck you in the shower. I’d push you up against the wall and slide my cock in and out of your hot pussy.”
I kissed my way down her neck, feeling the thump of her heart against my tongue. Her breathing was fast, but it had changed from the panicked breathing to the erratic breathing I heard when I got her riled up. I cupped her pussy with my hand and slowly started to massage her through her pants.
“Hmm.” She let out a little moan and then opened her eyes to see if anyone was watching. Her breathing changed slightly as panic started to set in.
“Nobody’s watching, Lollipop. I’d never let anyone watch you come. That’s all for me.”
I continued to rub her and kiss her neck, all while keeping an eye on our surroundings. I rubbed her harder and harder until I needed to feel how wet she was for me. I slipped my hand into her pants and groaned when I felt her wetness coat my fingers.
“Lollipop, if we were at your house, I would lick you to the last drop. Fuck, if this was my place, I’d shut it down and take you right here in this booth.”
I pinched her clit and pumped into her as her walls tightened around my fingers.
“That’s it, let go and enjoy it.”
I kissed her hard as I continued to massage my fingers in and out of her. When her pussy stopped throbbing, I pulled my fingers out and then put them in my mouth, licking them clean.
“Damn, you taste good.”
Her eyes were locked with mine, so many questions swirling, but I didn’t want to let her go there. I needed to keep her in this haze of lust. I kissed her softly and continued to run my hand over the back of her neck. When our food arrived, she swallowed hard and started fidgeting again.
“Here’s the deal, we’re going to eat until you can’t take it anymore. You let me know when you’re done and we’ll walk out that door. Simple as that, okay?”
She nodded and hesitantly picked up her burger. As she took a bite, I could see that she really didn’t want to chew it. Every movement of her mouth was difficult and when she swallowed, she quickly took a drink of her water. I smiled reassuringly at her and took a bite of my own burger.
“You’re doing good, Lollipop. Why don’t you try a fry and see if that sits a little better in your stomach.”
She did as I asked and when I saw the fry enter her mouth, my cock jumped to attention.
“Damn, I wish I was that fry.”
Her eyes sparked a little at that and she picked up another and teased me with the fry. Over and over, she used the fry like a dildo in her mouth. I had to adjust my cock so it wasn’t pushing into the metal of my zipper.
“I see you like the fries,” the waitress said as she came back to the table, and just like that our spell was broken. Cara placed her hand over her mouth and breathed deeply several times. When she looked at me, I knew she’d had enough. I nodded and she stepped out of the booth. I thanked the waitress and threw down two twenties. It was way more than our meal cost, but I didn’t have time to wait for the check. I wrapped my arm around Cara’s waist and pulled her toward the front door.
“Just keep breathing. We’re almost there.”
She nodded and when we reached the doors, she pushed through and took deep gulps of air. I rubbed her back as we made our way to the truck and then helped her inside. Getting in, I turned to her and grinned.
“You did great, Cara.”
She rolled her eyes and smiled. “Yeah, but I don’t think fondling me in public will work every time we go out to a restaurant. Besides, whatever will I do when our arrangement is over?”
I didn’t want to think about that now. I was enjoying our time together even if it would never be more.
“I’m sure we’ll eventually work our way out of me groping you under the table, but for now, I suggest we just go with it and have fun.”
“You’re terrible, Mark.”
I waggled my eyebrows at her. “Yeah, ain’t it fun?”