I watch as she lays there in her skimpy two-piece bathing suit. I see my brothers looking at her and it pisses me off. I’m not jealous, but I am so hungry for attention from her that it simply fucking gets to me. I made a comment about her wearing the damn thing. It wasn’t that I don’t think she looks good in it, it’s just that she looks too good in it. Pregnant women aren’t supposed to look this sexy. The bathing suit is almost skin color so it even makes it worse. When she gets out of the pool it’s glued to her body hiding nothing from view. When she and the girls lay out I watch as my brothers take particular notice to the way she puts her lotion on. I know Liam and Gabriel are faithful to their wives and even Vin wouldn’t touch what’s mine. But they can’t help but look, I am a sucker too because as much as I’d like to not pay attention, my eyes are drawn to every curve of her body.

Vin asks, “So, Zander, how is it working out with you and Murphy, have you made any headway yet?”

I fucking growl! He gets his answer and asks nothing else. Liam breaks the rest of their concentrations off my wife and turns them towards me. “How do you sleep with that every night and not touch?”

“Shut up, Liam.”

“I was just asking, man. I couldn’t do it.”

“How do you know I haven’t?”

Gabriel answers, “Because a man that would be sleeping and having sex with that woman would have a smile on his face. He wouldn’t look like you do right now.”

“Oh yeah, brother, how is that?’

“Like you want to kill someone,” Gabriel says and laughs.

They all make their way to the girls with drinks for them. I stay for a few minutes longer, deciding I need to fuck with Gabriel a little harder today to get my mind off Murphy. So, I make Fallon her favorite drink. When I bring it over, Murphy asks Gabriel to come to help her at the casino and then tells him how she trusts him. What the fuck. Then she brings his attention to her breasts right in front of me. She then gives me some bullshit about Gabriel being strong and sexy. I know she’s trying to fuck with me, and damn it’s working. So much so that when she kisses Gabriel on the cheek, I go crazy. She walks away, leaving me to fight my brother.

Once I calm myself enough, I go upstairs. I don’t see her anywhere. But then I hear a moan and then another. The bathroom door is ajar so I walk over and peek through. I see Murphy in the tub. She’s touching herself and I can’t tear my eyes away, the woman is gorgeous. I push the door open and as quietly as I can walk into the bathroom. Her eyes are closed and she is so in the moment of passion that she never hears me come into the room. I stand above her and watch her fondle her breasts and then I notice she has a vibrator, she’s using a fucking toy instead of me. I am becoming so jealous of the fucking thing, how it gets to be inside of her instead of my cock. As I stand there watching I can’t help but get so turned on my swim trunks are growing a tent. She’s beautiful like this. She starts to speed her movements, I know it won’t be long. Then she cums; I can tell the way her body is writhing under the water. But I promise it is far cry from what I can make her body do.

She opens her eyes and sees me. She yells out because I scared her, but then she gets pissed. Then I start to get pissed.

I look down at her still in the tub and ask, “Who were you thinking of?”

“What?”

“You heard me, who were you thinking of?”

She stands, grabs a towel with her small vibrator in her hand as she heads to the bedroom. “That is none of your business, Zander.” She throws the toy in her nightstand. I take notice that there are more, well fuck me. This is how she has been able to keep me at bay.

“Why won’t you answer me?”

“Because you don’t deserve an answer. What I do in my private time is my business. When I close my eyes and see whoever, it is my business, not yours. Those choices are the ones I have left. You can’t take them away from me.”

“Oh yeah?!” I practically run to the nightstand, I pull the drawer open and see not one or two, but three vibrators. I start stripping them of all their batteries.

“What are you doing? Zander, what the hell are you doing? Leave those alone!”

She tries to grab them from me, but she has no chance. As soon as I get the batteries out of them, I throw them on the bed.

“You have no right, Zander, you hear me?”

I start to walk off with the batteries in my pocket when I feel one of her toys hit my back. I open the door and turn to tell her I’ll be back when I see her go to throw another one. I duck and it barely misses my head. When I look to see where it landed, Liam is standing there.

He goes to bend down to pick it up and says, “Nice, having a little fun, are we?”

“Brother, don’t you dare pick it up!” Avery walks up and sees what’s going on. She sees Liam bent over and then sees what he was about to pick up. “Liam, leave that alone!”

Murphy runs out the door to pick it up wearing nothing but her towel. She sees them and says, “Sorry, guys.” Liam is just staring at her cleavage and wet skin.

Avery waves her hand in front of Liam and says, “Down boy, come on before Zander wants to knock you out too.”

“Oh, baby, I was just looking, but it might be worth it.” Avery laughs and continues to pull Liam down the hall.

Once they’re gone from sight I return to the bedroom and slam the door. I grab the toy out of Murphy’s hand and push her against the wall, trapping her between my arms.

“Who were you thinking about?”

“I’m not telling you.”

I yank the towel from her body and throw it to the floor, my chest touches her breasts. She starts getting nervous, I can feel her body trembling.

“I don’t want you using those fucking toys without me! I’m right here, baby, the only thing that gets to fuck you is me. Not anyone else or those toys unless I’m the one using them to fuck you.”

I pull my swim trunks down.

“Zander, what are you doing?”

She tries to push against me, but that shit isn’t going to work. I grab her wrists and hold them in one hand, pinning them to the wall above her head.

“You want it this way, Red? Then I’ll give it to you. You’re not allowed to touch anyone else and I won’t either. But if you’re going to use this body to turn me on, then you will help me to release myself. I won’t force myself on you, I won’t even touch you, but you want to tempt me then you will pay a small price.”

I grab my cock in my hand and start rubbing and tugging, working my hand up and down my length. Just feeling her against me gets me so close to the end. I bend and whisper in her ear, “I know I fuck you better than that toy. I know you want to feel my cock deep inside you. Oh, fuck, Murphy, you’re drive me crazy.”

I feel her chest rising under me, and I feel her breath on my neck. “Look at me, baby.”

She lifts her face and I want so bad to kiss her. One look and my hand moves faster with images of her eyes on me the last time we slept together. Remembering every sound she made gets me right where I need to be, I can’t help but explode in my hand and on her. My head falls down into her neck.

She starts to whisper to me, “How did you like your hand? Was it as good as my pussy, baby? Was it as warm as I am, did it squeeze you just right? Come on, baby, look at me.” I lift my head and look into her eyes. “I hope it felt just as good as me because that is all you will have for the rest of your life. Now let me fucking go!”

What the hell, every time I think I have the upper hand, she fucking knocks me down. I let her go and she walks away swaying her hips confidently to the bathroom.

* * *

I cannot believe he did that. If he wanted to embarrass me then fuck him because I had the last word and if he wanted to make me hot then fuck him because it fucking worked. I had to walk to the bathroom as fast as I could just so I wouldn’t reach out to him. He’s right, the damn toys I have are no substitute for him. Not even close. How am I supposed to keep doing this?

When I return from the bathroom, he’s gone. I go downstairs to join everyone and he is still nowhere to be found. We all spend the day together as a family and I find myself enjoying it very much. Growing up as an only child left me desiring more of this. I am starting to be thankful to be having twins. At least they will have each other.

Supper comes and goes then everyone starts to disperse to their rooms. I retreat back to my room by myself. I can’t sleep, I have been getting used to Zander being next to me at night. I fall asleep somewhere in the middle of the night. I wake feeling the bed move. Zander lays down on the side of me.

“Where did you go?”

“Do you care? Never mind, don’t answer that. I was collecting for both casinos. I’m here now so go back to sleep.”

A few minutes pass and then I hear him say, “I’m sorry, Murphy, I had no right to do that earlier. It won’t happen again.”

I want so bad to tell him that I do care, but then he turns around, facing away from me.

The nights sleeping in the same bed and not being intimate are becoming unbearable for the both of us.