I’m embarrassed as fuck that I had little control in stopping that bullshit from trying to take charge. I legit wanted to spend time with my mother, once I got over the initial shock. Clearly I wasn’t ready for that, no matter how small the step appeared. I hope my mom can forgive me someday. I just can’t worry about it right now.
Based off the enormous bag Willow is currently lugging up to the house, it’s safe to assume she’s sticking around for a bit. That soothes my jagged nerves but I’m still hesitant as fuck to confess the depth of my feelings for her. I’m done hiding that shit though. It’s been eating at me for far too long.
The fucking black abyss almost swallowed me whole when my mother tried to touch me. I could sense the demons closing in and urging me to let them take over. The edges of my vision blurred and darkness started seeping in. I’d been so fucking close to the edge before Willow broke through. She saved me again. I’m beginning to lose track but it doesn’t really matter. I owe her everything and I’m about to start paying her back.
My attention is hooked onto the woman swinging her hips my way as she struggles with her luggage. I need to take the plunge with Willow. She has always been the cure and she’s the only one who can truly save me. I’m starting to think the truth will help set me free from the fucking clutches holding me captive to that horrific day and I am more than ready to be released from those fucking chains. I’m ready to let go of this shit once and for all.
When she finally reaches me on the landing, her effort puffs out in quickened breaths that are visible due to the chilled air. When I tell Willow we need to talk, I think she takes my message the wrong way based on her lack of eye contact and restless fidgeting. She doesn’t respond either so that also alerts me to her unease. Does she really think I have anything bad to say? As if I’m going to tell her to hit the road and never come back. That’s a fucking joke.
I snatch the bag from her arm, something I should have done right away, before following her into the house. I’ll end this misery soon enough and hopefully bring the light back to her beautiful eyes.
Once I’ve closed and secured the busted door, I turn to find Willow facing the bay window I recently uncovered. The view into the forest is something that shouldn’t be kept hidden and I was an idiot to boarding it up in the first place. When she suggested tearing down the barricades, I couldn’t agree fast enough. The grin that overtook her face was worth every splinter I received while ripping the wood down.
The sun shining through the unobstructed glass causes Willow to glow, which is extremely fitting. This woman is my angel. I stroll up behind her and place my hands on her hips. She tries to turn around so she can look at me but I hold her in place. I won’t be able to admit everything if Willow is staring directly at me and imploring me with all-knowing eyes.
My throat is tight with the words I’ve kept buried and held hostage for too long, before stalling on my tongue.
I need to stop being such a fucking pansy.
I lower my head until my chin rests on her shoulder and try to steady my voice as I unleash my secrets. She presses her forehead against mine and I don’t stop her movement this time. The intimate connection makes this moment even more powerful.
“More than ever I wish I was better at expressing my feelings, but I’ll do my best to explain. It’s your turn to listen, all right?” I wait for her to acknowledge my request. When she nods, I start down the path that will undoubtedly alter our relationship but could lead to our future.
“I’m in love with you, Willow.” I don’t let the sharp hitch in her breath deter me. “The deep, life changing, irrecoverable, all consuming kind. I have been since the moment I first met you, which was well before I actually understood the weight of the concept. You mean everything to me. You’re so fucking vital that it’s difficult to breathe when you’re not around. I didn’t always understand these feelings but they’ve always been there. Burning inside of me and growing stronger each time I saw your beautiful face.” I inhale her lavender scent before slowly exhaling to continue.
“You’re my best friend but I’ve always wanted more than that. Before I enlisted, it never felt like the right time to cross the line with you. I was just a punk kid with nothing to offer. Fuck, how much time we’ve wasted. I want nothing more than to go back to those early years and slap some sense into myself.
“I want to protect you, Willow. Possess you. Share my life with you as we grow old together. Always be blessed with your blinding presence.” I end my procession with a delicate kiss on her neck.
She shivers slightly before settling her head back against my chest. Her eyes are closed but I notice the tracks of tears on her rosy cheeks.
Shit, why is she crying?
Willow sniffles before clearing her throat. If I were a betting man, I’d go all in on this ending badly. If I were a religious man, I’d send a prayer up to the heavens for my case.
“Tell me what you’re thinking, Willow.”
Her watery eyes blink open and I’m immediately lost within their emerald depths. “Oh my gosh, Xander. Seriously, wow.” She chuckles at her bumbling.
Her next words are barely audible but I feel them deep within my soul. “I’m so in love with you. I’ve been waiting so long to hear you say those words. I’m a little unbalanced because I’m trying to absorb the fact you love me too. I’ve dreamed of this moment since I was a little girl.” Her gorgeous lips tip up into a stunning smile, showcasing her happiness. I can’t resist kissing her there as well.
She loves me.
The girl I’ve always been crazy about just mirrored my infatuation. I can’t fucking believe this is happening. What did I do to deserve the devotion of this woman? I’m not going to waste time questioning it.
“There’s not a single doubt about how I feel. I want it all with you, Willow. Let me show you how much I care about you. Let my body communicate the admission I can’t properly describe.” I utter my desire and her tongue peeks out of her succulent mouth. I almost groan at the invitation to devour her.
I’m glad we’re on the same page.
When she whispers, “Make me yours, Xander,” I just about bust in my pants.
As if I need further encouragement, Willow plants her palms on my thighs and glides them up to my groin. My hips involuntarily rock forward into her ass. There is no denying the physical reaction she evokes in me so I want to drive her equally wild with want. When I get between her legs, she better be soaked with desire and incoherent with need.
This is going to be a long fucking night.
My arms loop around her waist so I can whip her shirt off. Once the top is out of my way, I stroke the expanse of her freshly exposed skin. My rough fingers on her silky flesh makes a tantalizing contrast.
Before I get too carried away, I need to give Willow something very special to me. There is another token that proves how serious I am about her. I dig the dog tags out of my pocket and slip the cool metal over her head. She releases a startled gasp at the cold sensation against her heated skin.
I give her more of the sweet stuff. “My heart is yours and I want you to always keep me close. These belong to you, just like I do.” I give the strand a gentle tug for emphasis before continuing.
“In the military, these are the most important form of identification for a soldier. Now they symbolize that you’re a part of me.” With those words from me, Willow grasps the tags in her hand before lifting them to her mouth.
When she places a delicate kiss along the engraving, I forget everything else besides showering this woman with my undying love. I resume my physical seduction to her body by swiping my palms along her tits and pinching her hardened nipples. Willow is already getting desperate with longing as her enticing form wriggles against me, begging and urging me on.
I spin her around to face me before easily lifting her to straddle my hips. Once my hands are firmly placed under her ass and her ankles cross behind my back, I stride to the bed. Willow begins to suck on my neck, which causes my feet to slide along the wooden floor in my haste. My demand for her is igniting an unstoppable flame that is threatening to combust. I imagine the heat will soon take over both of us. I can almost taste the lust crawling up my limbs.
As if sensing the proximity to our desired location, Willow loosens her death grip. I toss her down onto the center of the bed and she scoots further up toward the headboard.
Her dark hair fans out on the white pillow like a dirty halo but there is nothing filthy about her. Everything about my girl is pure and good, which is part of the reason I’m so fucking mesmerized.
I stand at the edge of the mattress and take a moment to appreciate her natural beauty. Her green eyes are lit with hunger and her cheeks are flushed with arousal. Willow arches her back, which pushes her ample tits higher in the air. The sight of my tags hanging between her breasts really turns me on. Everyone will know who she belongs to, which has my cock harder than a lead pipe.
Her breathing is rushing out in uneven pants as she continues to get worked up. One of her hands glides along her exposed breasts while the other begins to travel lower. Her toned stomach flexes with her movements and I want to lick a path down the middle until I hit her heated core. Her narrow hips are shifting restlessly and I can tell she won’t wait for me much longer.
Just as that thought passes through my mind, Willow reaches for me while humming another, “Please.” Who am I to deny her?
With fake calmness, I prowl forward and cover her body with mine. Her eager hands glide up my arms until they reach my shoulders. I dip my mouth to hers and suck on her lower lip before diving my tongue inside. Willow immediately matches my aggressive strokes with her own, earning a low moan from me. Her soothing touch seeps down into my bones, which engulfs my entire being in scorching heat.
I swivel my pelvis into her lower half, making sure Willow feels how stiff she’s making me.
Fuck, I don’t think I can wait much longer.
Breaking away from her mouth is a challenge but I’m desperate to taste more of her sweetness. It’s all teeth, lips, and tongue as I move from her neck to her glorious tits.
The luscious mounds make me fucking starving so I quickly work of devouring them. Willow’s nipples are hard peaks that I eagerly suck deep into my mouth. She claws at my scalp and goes nutty due to my actions. I’m going to mark her again, which might be savage as hell, but I could give a fuck. While my mouth is latched onto her nipples, my hand snakes down her delectable waist between us. I work my palm under the elastic of her pants in order to reach her bare pussy. Just as I hoped, Willow is fucking slick with desire. Her essence coating my fingers is such a huge turn on that I feel my dick get impossibly harder. I need to taste her sweetness then bury myself deep inside her.
I release the suction on her nipple before dragging my tongue down her belly. I sit up on my knees so I can pull Willow’s leggings off. My greedy mouth follows the trail of fabric and her creamy flesh instantly has an uncontainable craving pooling in my throat. She’s damn delicious so I nip and lick along her legs until Willow’s impatient whines bring me back to her center.
Once she’s completely naked and spread out before me, I thank my lucky fucking stars that this extraordinary beauty loves me. She’s the most gorgeous woman I’ve ever seen, inside and out. Right now though, I’m focusing on the dripping spot between her thighs.
Sexy as fuck.
I don’t waste any more time getting my mouth on her velvet core. Her fingers resume clutching at my hair as she allows me to take control of her body. Once my lips make contact, Willow melts and opens under me. As though she’s never wanted anything as badly as this. Her whimpers and moans morph into pleas, which exponentially escalates my appetite and I’m fucking starving. I can’t tease her much longer.
I scrape my flattened tongue down her slit and back up through her delicious seam. I stop for a moment to inhale her musky scent and bury my nose in her honey. She releases her fistfuls of my hair in order to glide her palms down to my shoulders. The gentle slide of her smooth skin against me has an involuntary shudder rolling through me. The sensation encourages me to work even harder to ensure Willow is consumed with the same pleasure as me.
Her swollen clit is begging for attention that I’m happy to give. The bundle is easy to find and is peeking out for me to see. I lap at the little nerve button and Willow shudders in response. I swear more delectable nectar flows out and I eagerly quench my thirst by drinking her up.
When I add a finger into the mix, Willow squeals and starts thrashing her head against the pillow. Her nails will surely leave scratches on my skin as they dig into me deeper and I’m not shocked at how much the thought excites me. Once I sink another digit into her quivering tightness, Willow begins bucking her hips, so I cinch an arm around her pelvis to hold her in place. Then I really get into it.
My tongue is working relentless circles around her clit while I work my fingers steadily into her slick core. I reach to hit the spot that I know sets Willow off and once I get there, her body erupts in uncontrollable trembles. Her grip on me is painful, but feels so fucking good, I might come in my briefs.
The sounds coming out of her mouth are nonsense but make me think I’ve pushed Willow past the edge of sanity. Her release is pouring out of her and I can’t swallow fast enough. I could eat Willow for all three meals and be completely fucking satisfied. I want to feast on her all night but if I don’t get some relief, my cock will burst.
I’m still licking up her juices and giving gentle strokes with my finger when Willow eases down from her epic orgasm. She loosens her death grip on my scalp in order to grab my shoulders and encourage me up her body. I’m just as fucking eager but the whisker burn on Willow’s inner thighs catches my attention. The skin is irritated and red because of what I just did to her. The sight is a fantasy come to life and I have to clench my eyes shut to avoid embarrassing myself. I‘m damn fucking proud of leaving evidence of where I’ve been and I hope she will appreciate my brand all over her.
I place a light kiss along the trail before raising my head to catch her stare. Willow’s eyes are glazed over and reflecting so much passion.
This woman effortlessly pushes me past any boundary I ever had and I fucking love it. I can’t keep the growl out of my voice when I say, “I see you, Willow. You’re so fucking gorgeous all crazed and gasping. Are you ready to be completely mine?”