Sailor
Breaking my gaze with Elliott, I turn around and straighten my skirt as Jake removes the condom and ties the end of it into a knot.
“That was by far the best dessert,” he says before pulling up his jeans and closing them. I quickly think of how to respond.
“You know, let’s save the cheesecake for tomorrow and go to bed. I’m kind of tired now.”
He gives me a passionate kiss, and all I can think about is how Elliott’s watching us. What will Jake do if he notices? What would Elliott say in return?
I know what I thought about the incident. It was the hottest, most exciting moment of my life, and I can’t believe I allowed it to happen, but I was too afraid they’d fight if I stopped it.
“Will you sleep in my bed tonight?” Jake asks with a crooked smile that melts my heart.
“Sure.” My brain is in a state of chaos as I follow him from the room and head to my own to change. Confusion is crowding my head, and I don’t know which way is up or down–what’s right or wrong. Since two guys agreed to date me at once, is there a right or wrong?
I don’t believe this is what either one of them had in mind, and it’s certainly not what I was expecting, but I can’t deny that I enjoyed every second of it.
My phone buzzes in my purse on the bed, so I find it.
Elliott: You’re mine tomorrow night; although I feel like I just had you. I didn’t know there was this side to you, Sailor Girl, but I’m happy to see it exists since I tend to think outside the box when it comes to sexual encounters.
Me: I witnessed that. I’m moving to a hotel after work tomorrow. This is all too confusing with us under one roof. I’ll text you the info.
Elliott: I understand, and I’ll be waiting.
***
“You don’t have to move,” Jake says to me as he helps load my car.
“I’ll be back often. I’m even leaving some of my things here for when I stay over.”
“I can’t believe you’re going to fight traffic again this time of day.” Jake clutches my shoulders after I close the back passenger door. “You could wait until the weekend.”
“Your pouty expressions are endearing and hard not to give in to, but I’ve already put this off too long. You can’t tell me you want to go to bed at night knowing I’m in Elliott’s room, just like I’m sure he hasn’t appreciated the nights he’s gone to sleep knowing I was downstairs in your bed.”
Huffing out a breath, he looks to the sky.
“You’re right.”
“I’ll stay over some when he’s gone, and you can visit me at the hotel while Brad’s working on finding me a more permanent place in the Village.”
He grins. “You’re going to move that close?”
“If I can find something I like.”
“I’ll see to it that Brad makes it happen. He owes me.”
“You’re cute, and have I told you today how happy you make me?”
“No, but feel free to tell me how amazing I am. It gives my ego a workout, buffs it up a bit.”
Sliding a hand around his neck, I press my body against his and let my lips follow suit to touch his sizzling mouth. He envelops me in his arms, and as the fall breeze kisses our skin, too, I can’t help but feel torn about leaving.
I’m conflicted. In Jake’s arms, or simply in his presence, I feel content and safe. He’s attentive and sexy. With Elliott, the sense of the unknown and the depth of attraction is thrilling. I also know beneath his rough, brooding exterior, he’s loving.
Letting my lips go, Jake clasps my chin.
“What’s wrong? You’re supposed to smile after I kiss you.”
“I’m sorry. I’m frustrated over this situation and feel guilty. You’ve treated me nothing short of amazing from the first day I met you, and it’s not fair you’re having to share me.”
“You’re worth it, and I know you didn’t plan this. It would be different if you met Elliott after me and wanted to date us both, but you already cared about him.
“I don’t see how we could’ve prevented this situation, and honestly, I feel lucky you’re giving me a chance since you hadn’t known me long when you saw him again.”
I hug him. “I hope you won’t give up on me.”
“Not a chance, doll.”