Climbing in the bed with Caden, I push away the overwhelming thoughts running wild in my mind. There’s just too much for me to process at once, and even though I told Caden I’d stay, the feeling of getting away from all of it is still present. It’s like my entire body knows I can’t deal with this, and I honestly have no idea how I’m going to get past it. Finding out my birth mother had a fake identity wasn’t something I’d ever expected. It hurts deeply knowing she went through so much trouble to keep my birth a secret when it’s supposed to be celebrated. I wonder if my parents even knew her identity was a secret, but then again how could they have known? This news is like an endless track running around in my head, and I wish it would just stop for a while. I’m still shocked that Caden got through to me when no one else has before. I won’t even let myself think of what all he said, how he said it, or what it all means. Deep down I know it’s big, but I’m putting it away in my ‘to deal with later box’ and calling it a day.
Getting comfortable on the bed, I glance at Caden. He seems happier now that I’ve decided to stay, and I find I like those blue eyes shining back at me with nothing but excitement. He opens his arms, and I don’t even hesitate to move over and let him embrace me. Is it selfish I’m using him like this? Probably, but I need his strength. I need his comforting arms around me to remind me I’m not alone. Just like he said. Sometimes I forget there are people willing to help me, but it’s easier to push people away when you have such deep insecurities like mine. I could blame it all on me being adopted, but I can’t. I’ve always felt out of place, as if I was an outsider looking in. Even at the happiest times of my life, I’ve always felt something was missing.
But with Caden, that whole in my heart starts to fill a bit more each day.
That’s why I lean on him now, and why when he reminds me he’s here, I’ll continue to lean on him. I know it seems like I’m headed down that road of serious relationship land, but I’m not ready just yet to admit it. Being with Caden is easy, and if I’m not careful, I might find myself falling for him.
Placing my head on his chest, I glance to the TV that’s mounted on his wall as he scrolls through Netflix. “What are we going to watch?”
“Well,” he sighs out, and I feel content hearing the strong beat of his heart. “I was thinkin’ we could watch Supernatural. Supernatural is really good, and oh yeah, have you watched Supernatural before?”
Chuckling, I lift my gaze to him. “Do you want to watch Supernatural?”
“Only if you do,” he says in a serious voice.
“I’m okay with watching Sam and Dean. They’re the best. And Dean isn’t so bad looking either.”
I’m totally fucking with him, but I think he takes me seriously. His eyes widen, and I bite my bottom lip to stop myself from smiling. “Do you have a crush on Dean Winchester?”
“Well I mean look at him. He’s sex on a stick.”
His eyes narrow as he gazes into my eyes, and it takes him a moment to respond. “I’m just goin’ to pretend you didn’t say that so I can enjoy the show. Because you’ll totally ruin it if you tell me you love Dean Winchester.”
Letting my arm rest on his stomach, I ask, “Are you jealous of a celebrity?”
“What? No,” he scoffs too quickly. “I mean why would I be? I’m way hotter than Dean Winchester.”
“You keep telling yourself that.” Looking away when he pulls me in tighter, I let out a sigh loving how his arm feels around me. I feel safe, warm, and yet again Caden shows me he there is so much more to learn about him.
Caden hits play and shifts down to get more comfortable. As the show plays on, Caden’s hand never once stops rubbing up and down my shoulder. My skin prickles at the soft touch, and the longer he continues to lightly touch me, the more my heart pounds in my chest. I can’t even focus on the show with him being so close, and my face warms feeling the desire start to flow through me. What is it about him that makes me go crazy with need? He’s hardly doing anything, and I feel as if the room just spiked ten degrees. Trying to ignore his touch and how I’m reacting, I move a pillow between my legs to try and put out the slow building fire he’s created. But when that doesn’t seem to help, I begin to fidget. Huffing out a loud sigh, I jerk the pillow out from between my legs and toss it on the floor. I’m not comfortable, and it’s all Caden’s fault. All I can think about is how close he is, and how much I like him touching me. Then I begin to think about how he made me feel a few days ago in the kitchen when Cason rudely interrupted us.
Feeling Caden’s eyes on me, I turn to him. He’s grinning widely, and I’m sure he’s just loving this. “You okay there, small fry?”
I give him a pointed look because he knows what he’s doing. “I’m fine,” I snap with more crass than intended.
He raises an eyebrow then smirks. “Someone is cranky.” My breath catches in my throat when he reaches over to caress my cheek. Leaning in, my gaze never leaves his lips as he stops inches from mine. Just kiss me already. “Want to mess around?”
Letting out a small laugh, I ask, “What’s that? Southern slang for want to have sex?”
Caden moves his hand down to my neck as he huskily says, “It is. So what’s it goin’ to be, small fry?” I don’t even let myself think about if this is such a good or idea or not. Closing the small distance between us, I place my lips on his and wrap my arm around his waist. Caden quickly responds by deepening the kiss, and I already feel desire flowing through me. It’s worse than ever as his grip on the back of my neck tightens. Everything about him sets me on fire, and I’ve never wanted someone so much before. How can he do that? How is it he’s the only man to make me experience something so intense? Before I know what’s happening, I’m on my back, and Caden is hovering over me. “I take that as a yes to messin’ around,” he says with a playful tone in his voice.
“Shut up and kiss me, Caden.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
And boy does he kiss me. Jesus, this man knows exactly what he’s doing. His tongue intertwines with mine, and I let out a moan as his taste fills my senses. Running a hand under his shirt, I pull him closer. Even though it’s physically impossible for him to be any closer, I still try anyway. Spreading my legs wider to accommodate him, I run my other hand through his hair. My hips rotate when he starts to kiss his way down to my neck, and my eyes close as he presses his hips into me hitting my sweet spot. Wrapping a leg around his waist, I keep moving my hips loving the feel of his hard cock against me. I need more than just this dry humping shit he’s doing. “Caden, please.”
Hissing in a breath when he nips at my earlobe, he whispers, “What do you want, Savannah?”
“You. I just want you.” Can’t he tell how much I need him? I’m about to burst into flames if he doesn’t do something to relieve this ache and hunger that’s growing.
He kisses me hard as his hips grind into mine, and I use my nails to keep him there. He lets me up for air, and all I can hear for a moment is my breath coming out in pants. Opening my eyes as his fingers lightly trace down my cheek, his blue eyes gaze into mine. Swallowing at seeing his pupils dilate and how his breath catches, my stomach clenches with need. “Are you sure about this? I know you’ve been through a lot today, and I’ll stop right this second if you’re not okay with this.”
Frowning, I cup his cheek as I honestly say, “If you stop right now, I might kill you.” He grins widely then takes my mouth again. This time it’s not sweet or gentle. Caden kisses me like he needs me to breathe and with so much passion. A wave of lust rushes through my veins as one of his hands moves down to one of my breasts and cups it with the palm of his hand. Arching my chest, he chuckles at what I assume is my eagerness. I wasn’t joking around when I said if he stopped I might kill him. He’s driving me mad with his teasing. Taking matters into my own hands, I reach down and pull at his shirt. “This has got to go,” I claim as I take it off and throw it to the side. And let it be known that I’ve never once ogled a man like I am now. Holy fuck. Caden is beautiful shirtless, and even though I saw him shirtless once before, it’s as if I’m looking at him for the first time. Not caring if he sees me staring, I take my fill. Using my hand to run down his abs, his stomach jumps at my touch. He has a light tan, and it compliments his rock hard abs and chest perfectly. Moving my eyes and hands to his arms, I glance up when he visibly flexes. “Did you just do that on purpose?”
“I have no idea what you’re talkin’ about,” he says sweetly as he leans down to kiss me once more. Running my hands up his back, I relish in the feeling of his warm skin. When he pulls away, I want to protest. I’m enjoying his tender kisses more than I thought. “It’s my turn, small fry.”
Leaning up as he takes my shirt off, I lay back down as he tosses it on the floor. “You’re prettier than I am,” I say softly.
Now I’ve never really had insecurities about my body. I know I’m a bit heavy, my boobs are huge, and not to mention I do have belly rolls but even if I did have any insecurities, they would be completely washed away with the way Caden’s eyes roam over me. “You’re fuckin’ stunnin’, Savannah. Never forget that.” I can’t help but believe him. The tone of his voice tells me all I need to know, and I won’t ever question it. His hands run up the middle of my breasts, and I know he can feel how hard my heart is pounding.
His eyes never leave mine as he does so, and I begin to feel something more than just lust. I’ll admit it scares me. Which is why I lean up once more and take off my bra. Now that Caden is focused on my naked breasts, the desire I have for him hits me with full force and the warm feeling I felt in my heart slowly dissipates. “Are you just going to stare at me or what?”
“Yeah. I could stare at you all fuckin’ day, small fry.”
Pushing my chest up when both of his hands caress me gently, I breathe out, “Stare all you want, just not right now.”
His hands run down to my stomach and stop at my shorts as he asks, “Impatient are we?”
Lifting my hips to find some sort of friction, I hiss out, “Yes. Please hurry up.” He’s killing me, and he knows it. Watching him with wide eyes, he quickly unbuttons my shorts and pulls them down my legs. Tossing them away, those blue eyes seem to darken as he gazes into mine, and I swallow when he reaches up to take off my panties. Raising my hips to help him take them off, I suck in a breath as the cool air hits my core.
“Goddamn, Savannah.” Looking up, he’s staring at me like a man dying of thirst. As if I’m the only one he needs to survive. It’s intense, and the desire in his blue eyes make my stomach clench with a hunger I’ve never felt before. His cock is straining in his khaki shorts, and it sends a thrill through me knowing I’m turning him on so much. “Last chance to tell me to stop, small fry.”
I don’t even hesitate as I answer him. “Don’t stop.” Using both hands, he spreads my legs wider, and I hold my breath as he crawls back on the bed and places each hand behind my thighs. Watching him as he slowly moves closer to my aching pussy, I begin to panic knowing where he’s headed. Clamping my thighs against his head to stop him, I ask, “What are you doing?”
“I was goin’ to taste you. Would you mind easin’ up a bit? You’re hurtin’ my face.”
Opening my legs just a little, I feel my face flame with embarrassment. “I’m sorry. I just … I’ve never …”
“No one has ever gone down on you before?” Shaking my head, he asks, “You’re not a virgin are you?”
“Oh God, no. I’ve had sex before but never … what you want to do.” Maybe I’ve been with all the wrong guys because I’ve never had one want to go down on me. I’ve always wondered what it would feel like, but it’s a little intimidating at the same time. And very intimate.
“Just relax, small fry,” he says as he runs a hand up and down my thigh. He places a kiss on my knee as he huskily says, “I promise you’ll love it.” Trying to do what he says, I let out a long sigh. Unable to leave his eyes, my heart begins to race as I wait for him to do what he wants. Caden kisses my inner thigh as he slowly makes his way down to my aching core, and I swallow hard as he hovers over me. Feeling his breath lightly touching me, my skin breaks out in goosebumps as I wait for him to taste me. He’s only inches away, and the anticipation is beginning to get the best of me. Seeing his tongue dipping out of his mouth to lick his lips, I move my hips away. This is so unreal, and I’m not sure if I’m going to like this. “Relax, Savannah.” At his demand, I try to stay still but it’s hard though, and I hold my breath as he starts to kiss my inner thigh again. Caden sure knows how to get me riled up, and I almost beg him to just fuck me already. But then I see then feel him lick me from top to bottom, and I let out a loud moan as my head falls back. He wasn’t lying when he said I would like this. I freaking love it. He licks my pussy slow as if he doesn’t want to go too fast, and when he groans my stomach dips.
Letting the pleasure of his mouth take over my erratic thoughts, I rotate my hips up as he starts to suck on my sensitive clit. “Oh, God.” How in the hell have I missed out on this? His fingers begin to dig into my hips, but I don’t care. All I want is for him to make me come while using his tongue. “Caden,” I moan out and raise my head to see him staring back at me with those intense blue eyes. Watching as one of his hands move, I wonder what he’s going to do next. Feeling him at my entrance, I lick my lips, and my head falls back on the bed. Clutching tightly onto the sheets, my mouth falls open as a ripple of intense pleasure hits me when he pushes a finger inside of me. It’s the perfect combination, and I’m already feeling the sensation of an orgasm coming on.
The strokes of his finger match the pace of his tongue, and just as I’m about to ask for more, he adds another finger inside of me. Caden sucks on my clit, and I can’t decide if I like that best or just him using his tongue. I can feel myself getting ready to fall into the abyss of euphoria, but the sound of someone knocking on the door makes me snap my head up. Caden stops all movement, and doesn’t bother taking his fingers out of me as Cason says, “If y’all are hungry, I ordered pizza.”
Caden glances to me with my essence on his face, and I’m panting heavily hating we were interrupted. Again. “We’ll be there in a minute,” Caden calls out, and I frown.
“A minute?” I practically yell. “We need more than a fucking minute.”
“Good point,” he says then turns toward the door to yell, “We need more than a minute.”
Oh my God. Feeling my face warm, I just know Cason knows what we’re doing. “Uh alright. I’m just … I’ll be at work.”
“Why did you do that? Now he knows what we’re doing,” I whisper yell at Caden.
He grins widely as he says, “He left, didn’t he? Now we don’t have to worry about bein’ interrupted again.” Caden places an open mouth wet kiss on my pussy, and I let out a rush of air as I feel his fingers curl inside of me. “I’m goin’ to have my wicked way with you now.” I can’t even find the words to respond. His mouth is suddenly back on me, and those fingers inside me work overtime. My entire body warms feeling the instant sensation of my pending orgasm, and I know it’s not going to take him long to make me come. God do I want him to. All this pent up sexual tension hasn’t been easy to ignore, and I can tell how much I need this.
My stomach begins to clench and my heart rate spikes knowing I’m right on the edge. Caden must know I’m right there because right as I’m about to let go, he sucks hard on my clit, and those fingers of his thrust hard inside me. “Fuck, Caden.” A wave of intense pleasure rushes through me, and I don’t care if the whole town can hear me. He lets me ride out my orgasm, one that I don’t think will ever end.
When I finally come down, Caden places one last kiss on me before standing at the edge of the bed. He uses the back of his hand to wipe my essence off his chin, and I swallow hard knowing I want more of him. “Damn, small fry. You’re fuckin’ beautiful as hell when you come for me.” Moving up to my knees, I make my way to him. Eagerness has me rushing to get him naked, and he smirks as I quickly try to unbutton his shorts. Before I can get them undone and pull down his shorts and boxers, he takes hold of my wrist stopping me. Glancing up at him, I think for a split second that he doesn’t want this. “What’s the rush?”
Wrapping my arms around his neck, I kiss him to show how much I need him. Pulling away, I claim, “I need more, Caden.” Moving my hands down his stomach, I whisper in his ear. “I want you inside of me.” His breath hitches and I smirk knowing I’m affecting him. Kissing the side of his neck, my hands continue to roam down until I reach his cock. Cupping him in my hand, he groans loudly and grips my hips. “Don’t you want me?” Caden moves so quickly I don’t realize what’s going on until I’m lying on my back once more with him between my legs. He grinds his hips into me and uses a hand to grab my ass. Lifting my hips to meet his, he takes my mouth and kisses me roughly. When he starts to pull away, I grab him and bring him back. It seems we can’t get enough of each other, and I’m ready to beg for him to take me already.
He caresses my face as he breaks our kiss, and my breath catches in my throat seeing his eyes gazing into mine. God he’s utterly breathtaking. “I want you so fuckin’ bad, Savannah.”
“Then what are you waiting for?”
“I don’t want to embarrass myself,” he says with a wide grin, and I frown. “You’re drivin’ me insane and fuck. I might just come in my pants if you keep on.”
Rotating my hips up, his jaw clenches as his eyes close. “Condom, now,” I demand, and his eyes snap open. He takes a deep breath before moving off the bed leaving me feeling needy, and my pussy throbs watching his abs contract.
My erratic panting fills the room as I stare at him. “Is this what you want, small fry?” He asks as he unbuttons his shorts. Only able to nod, he smirks knowing he’s driving me crazy. Slowly taking off his shorts, I swallow and suck in a breath seeing how hard his cock is through his boxers. I start to move to help rid of him of his clothes, but he shakes his head, and I poke out my bottom lip. “Patience, Savannah.” I don’t want to be patient any longer, and this teasing game he’s playing is making this ache I have for him worsen. Those blue eyes never leave mine as he slips his boxers off his hips, and I break contact to see all of him. My face flames seeing him completely naked for the first time, and my mouth suddenly dries when his cock jumps at my attention. Caden is utterly breathtaking, and I lick my lips wondering what he would taste like. That desire I feel? It’s multiplied by a hundred now. I have to have him. My gaze snaps up when I see him moving toward me, and he reaches down to his bedside table to pull open a drawer. Never in my life have I been so ready for a man to take me before, and my heart races wildly in my chest when Caden pulls out a condom.
Spreading my legs as wide as they can go, he moves back in between them, and I feel a piece of my walls crumble. It’s the look he’s giving me that threatens to knock my walls completely down, and realizing there’s more to this than just lust, well it changes things. Doing what I do best, I ignore it and take the condom out of his hand. Quickly opening it, Caden chuckles as I move as fast as I can to put it on him. He hisses loudly when I grab his cock with my hand, and slowly slide on the condom for him. My pussy throbs once more knowing what’s about to happen, and I know it’s been a long time coming for us because the sexual tension has always been there. It’s just surreal knowing this beautiful, charming, and utterly delicious man wants me.
Me. Of all people.
Trying not to think about it, I finish rolling the condom on him and wrap my legs around his. One of his hands brushes my hair out of my face as the other takes my right leg behind my thigh. He’s opening me up further than I was before, and I raise my hips sensing he’s right at my entrance. “Caden, please,” I beg hoping he’ll hurry up. Why he continues to make me wait, I have no idea.
“I don’t want to hurt you,” he says against my lips, and my heart clenches knowing he’s so concerned about me.
Running a hand down his back and the other caresses his face, I give him a sweet peck on his lips. “You won’t break me. I promise.”
He nods and huskily says, “I’ll go slow.” As soon as slow comes out of his mouth, I feel him pushing his way inside. Letting my eyes close and my head falls back, I rotate my hips up to help him more. His pace is so slow, I fear I might explode with sensation after sensation. With his slow pace, I can feel myself stretching for him. It’s the most consuming and intense pleasure I’ve ever felt before. Is this how it’ll be with him every time? I can’t help but wonder why things feel different with Caden, and why my body is reacting to him so much differently than with anyone else. It’s like I can’t get enough of him. Choosing to push it out of my mind, I focus on his cock inside me and how good it fucking feels. Right before he’s all the way in, Caden touches my lips and demands, “Open your eyes, Savannah.” Quickly doing just that, I gaze into his eyes and my heart does a little flip. The way he’s looking back at me, well it looks a lot like love shining in those blue eyes. But that can’t be right. We’ve only just met a few weeks ago, and there’s no way he can love me.
Rising to take his mouth, I kiss him with a fervor I hadn’t known I could feel for him. Running my hand down to his ass, I pull him to me as I raise my hips. The movement makes him push deeper inside of me, and I break the kiss to call out his name. God he feels amazing, and I have no idea if I’ll be able to get enough of him. His pace is slow, but his thrusts are deep. Caden hits the spot I love the most each time, and I’m even surprised that I begin to feel another impending orgasm. My grip on his ass cheek tightens, and it’s only my moans and his heavy breathing that fills the room. Everything about this moment is intense, sensual, and it’s so freaking consuming. Caden doesn’t seem to be in a hurry, and neither am I. Wanting this to last as long as possible, I hold off on letting go. My free hand moves to his bicep and feeling how hard it is makes this need grow stronger than before. Loving how his muscles contract with every thrust, I let out a loud moan. Caden’s fingers around my thigh grip me harder, and he groans when I clench around him. “Damn you feel so fuckin’ good,” he huskily claims and moves to my neck. Tilting my head to give him more room, I grip his arm hard willing him to stay right where he is.
My skin starts to warm with our combined body heat, but I don’t care. He feels too good to worry about overheating. All I can think about, feel, and want is for him to keep going. My orgasm continues to build, and I know once I let go, I won’t ever be the same. That’s how powerful this is between us. Caden kisses and nips at my neck as he moves the hand on my thigh to my breasts. While he caresses my right one lovingly, his leg moves under mine, opening me up more than before. His pace begins to quicken, and I can’t hold off any longer. “Tell me you’re close,” he asks with a grunt in my ear. Only able to answer with another loud moan, he demands, “Come with me, Savannah.” Turning my head to him, he takes my mouth and kisses me deeply.
That kiss is everything.
That kiss is my undoing.
Breaking away to cry out, my orgasm hits me with such a force I lose my breath. My entire body tingles as it ripples through me, and an intense wave of pleasure rushes through my veins. Hearing Caden’s loud groan as he lets go with me, I relish in knowing I made him feel this way. It’s a powerful feeling knowing I can make him experience something like this. He doesn’t bother rolling off me once he’s spent, and his body sags on top of mine. Running my hands up and down his back, I kiss his shoulder and neck. Feeling his racing heart and hearing his rapid breaths, I smile sensing pride. Closing my eyes, I let his warmth surround me.
We lay like this for a while, forever it seems, before he uses his arms to prop himself up. “I’m not hurtin’ you am I?” There’s so much concern in his voice, and I grin as I shake my head. Technically, I can’t breathe very well with his weight, but I’m starting to get used to him stealing my breath away. “You okay? I don’t think you’ve ever been so quiet before.”
Grinning widely, I sigh deeply in content. “I’m perfect. Just enjoying the after effects.”
“Good because I plan on makin’ you look this fuckin’ happy all the time, small fry.”
“Cocky much?” I ask playfully.
He raises an eyebrow as he claims, “You know you loved it.” Narrowing my eyes, I try to pretend I didn’t, but it doesn’t last long. Letting out a laugh at his serious expression, he smiles down at me. “I’m goin’ to get rid of this condom. Don’t move.” Sucking in a breath as he moves out of me, I roll to my side so I can get the perfect view of him hopping off the bed. He flashes me a cheeky grin, before turning around. Shaking my head seeing him flex that perfect ass of his, I quickly crawl under the covers as he leaves the room.
Glancing at the door as I wait for him to return, something begins to happen to me. I’m not sure how to explain it, but it feels a lot like happiness. My chest warms, and I can’t stop smiling. Every time I think of what we did and what we shared together, my stomach dips and flutters. When Caden comes back into the room, my gaze locks with his and once again, my breath hitches. Swallowing hard, I know what this feeling is, and I won’t lie it scares me.
Because this feeling I have, this feeling that’s beginning to spread throughout my entire body, seems a lot like love.
Shit. I’m falling in love with him.
And that’s something I swore to myself I wouldn’t do.