Chapter Four.
Javier takes a deep breath. What is he thinking? Saying that was hard enough on its own. But actually going through with it? He feels completely crazy, and yet... “After talking to my mom I realized...there is some growing to do. Some learning. For them, but for me too. But I think I can handle this. I think they could handle it. I might have been wrong all along.”
Aaron, who had been pushing him so hard all along, is all of a sudden a bit quiet.
“Okay, what is it now? Spit it out,” Javier says.
“Nothing. I'm just thinking,” Aaron replies.
“What about?”
“What I'm going to call the dogs,” Aaron says.
Javier laughs. “What?”
“Uh, never mind that.” Aaron laughs a little too. “I told you, I'm a social wreck.”
“You're not though, you're a bit awkward, and a bit of a weirdo, but it suits you. And you know more about people than it seems I do. I figured Mom was going to kick you out.” Javier's grin melts off his face. “How did you know they wouldn't be mad at you?”
Aaron shrugs. “I didn't.”
“But you could have got hurt. You barely know me. And you met them this morning. You were really putting yourself out there,” Javier replies, feeling a slight sweat breaking. Even though it is all said and done now, the seriousness of what Aaron just did is striking him.
“Yeah, I guess so. But I do stupid and reckless things for the people I love.” Aaron smiles. That smile could melt a heart of stone.
Pulling up at a red light, Javier drums his fingers on the steering wheel. “So.... what are we doing?”
“Huh?”
“Are we going back and I'm doing this stupid crazy thing now, or are we going on to your place and thinking before we dive in the deep end?” He can't believe he's handing this over to Mr. Reckless in Love either. But maybe today is the day for doing stupid things.
Aaron stares at the red light thoughtfully. “Let's just go back to my place. For now. We had a good plan. We can start dating in secret. You can build up to coming out. Do it carefully, and when you're ready. I don't want you to rush into it.”
Javier nods. The guy is speaking a lot of sense. It might be like Aaron to jump right into a situation, but it isn't like him to do the same thing. He has never in his life been as reckless as this guy, and if he is feeling the urge to be, it could all be down to Aaron's influence. Aaron's bad influence. “OK then. Besides, you really need that shower.”
Aaron laughs. “Hey!”
***
Sitting in Aaron's apartment is a weird experience. Javier went to the same college as Aaron, which naturally means he stayed at home the entire time. He'd seen a few dorms and apartments over those years, but he'd never had a proper look around them. He'd never cared to.
But now he actually does care, it strikes him how empty and bare Aaron's place is. From what he'd gathered, Aaron is not a freshman, and yet his place is still pretty stark. A bed, a wardrobe, a poster, and a dream catcher. A desk with a laptop on it and a pile of snacks on a solitary bedside table. Behind a little door, the sound of a running shower stops. Aaron emerges wrapped in a towel. This is the first time Javier has ever seen a guy walking around with a towel wrapped around his whole torso, like girls do. It's kind of weird and kind of cute. Much like Aaron himself.
“It must be a little...lonely moving away from home for college,” Javier says.
Aaron nods. “It is. I miss my home, and my family, and my friends back there. But I guess no matter how shy I can be, I like new things and challenging myself.”
“You're not too shy for me,” Javier replies with a smile.
“I guessed that. I suppose it's easier for me to try with someone I like. That said...”
“That said?” Javier asks.
“I wanna get dressed,” Aaron replies with a blush.
“Do you want me to look away?” Javier asks, secretly hoping he will say no.
Aaron pauses and looks around the room a bit. “No, it's OK.” He drops the towel from around his body and draws a deep breath, avoiding eye contact.
“Wow,” Javier gasps. “You are pretty damn hot.” And he is. Aaron is one of the most attractive guys Javier has ever laid eyes upon. He is tall, lean, and slightly muscular. And yet his skin looks so boyishly soft. He is almost dry, but he glistens slightly with the remaining layer of water and, most likely, a little of his own nervous sweat. Javier looks down at Aaron's crotch, noticing his slowly swelling erection. “Is being bold paying off?” he asks, looking up into Aaron's eyes with a smirk.
“I'm feeling a bit exposed, to be honest.”
“Looks like you like exposing yourself. But if you wanna get dressed, nobody's stopping you,” Javier replies.
Aaron pauses. “Well, then we'd be even.” A red-hot blush is rising over his chest, neck and face. His semi-erect cock twitches. “But we'd be even if you took your clothes off too.”
“You sure you wanna do this?” Javier asks.
“We can always see how far we go,” Aaron replies, stepping a little closer.
Javier isn't about to ask again. Aaron is stunning, available, and very clearly into him. He has never taken another guy's virginity before, but...he's never felt for anyone what he feels for Aaron either. If anyone is going to be Aaron's first, it should be him. “And you've never done this before?”
Aaron blushes. “I... I've used toys. Like...full sized toys. And I...” His eyes dart to the floor in the corner of the room. “I cleaned myself in the shower.”
“You douched?”
Aaron nods.
“Are you sure you're all that inexperienced?” Javier replies, standing and taking off his shirt, revealing his strong, brown chest and thick arms.
Aaron nods again. “I have always been curious.” He steps closer, running his hands over Javier's chest. “I've always wanted to... But I never met the right guy. The guy I could trust.” His hands slide down over Javier's hard abs and down to the top of his jeans. He runs his thumbs over the slightly protruding hip bones.
“And I'm that guy?” Javier asks, caressing Aaron's cheek with one hand while seizing his waist with the other, pulling their bodies close together, feeling Aaron's increasingly harder cock brush up against his own erection through his jeans.
Aaron locks eyes with Javier and nods. “You feel it too, right?”
“Oh, I feel it.” Javier grins. “And I also love you.”
Aaron laughs a little, still a hint of nervousness in his voice.
“You've used toys before, it will be fine,” Javier reassures him. “It's OK to be nervous, but you have a lot less to fear than some guys do their first time.”
Aaron nods and leans in to kiss Javier. Javier's tongue slowly parts Aaron's lips and begins exploring his mouth. He tastes like sheer magic. Javier wants this so badly, and right now, but he has to make himself take it easy. Aaron is a virgin. And shy. And... undoing his jeans. Javier smirks into the kiss. “Naughty boy,” he whispers against Aaron's lips.
Aaron just resumes the kiss and drops Javier's unzipped jeans around his ankles. He wraps his slender arms around Javier's back, pulling him in close and moaning softly against his lover's lips. Javier runs his fingers through Aaron's hair, his other hand sliding down over Aaron's firm butt cheek, pressing their crotches together. Only that one thin remaining layer of fabric separates them. Feeling his hard cock rubbing and pressing against Aaron's is one thing, but the knowledge that this is in some way uncharted territory for both of them adds to the thrill.
Javier breaks the kiss again, lightly leaning back when Aaron moves in to close the gap. Their eyes meet, blue staring into black, transfixed. It feels like he is staring into Aaron's very soul. He takes Aaron's hand and slowly slips it down the front of his boxers. Aaron lets out a soft gasp, but carries on reaching in, running his fingertips tentatively up and down Javier's silky-smooth dick, not breaking eye contact. A small moan escapes Javier's lips and he lightly grips Aaron's hips. Aaron's fingers gently wrap around Javier's cock and start teasingly stroking him.
“I want you in me,” Aaron whispers lustfully, his face bright red.
Javier smiles and plants butterfly kisses over Aaron's face as they sit down on the bed. Aaron lies back and tries and fails to subtly reach into the bedside table. Javier steps out of his boxers and swiftly lifts his wallet from his jean pocket before lying down beside Aaron. “I have the condom, you got lube or am I going to the kitchen for vegetable oil?”
Aaron laughs nervously. “I have it,” he assures Javier, finally producing a tube from the bedside table.
Javier turns Aaron onto his back and playfully pins down one of his wrists. “Good,” he answers before kissing Aaron again. As his tongue probes Aaron's mouth, he lifts Aaron's legs, first one, and then the other, onto his shoulders, sitting up so Aaron's ass is raised off the bed a little. His cock twitches with anticipation as his hand slowly glides down Aaron's side and around his butt cheek, lightly tickling his hole. Aaron gasps into the kiss, and arches his back instinctively. “Shh, soon,” Javier whispers against his lover's lips, his hand leaving Aaron's warm skin and seeking out the bottle of lube.
A few seconds later a slick finger is slowly circling Aaron's entrance, causing him to shiver and moan. Javier relishes the moment: the moans, the flushed face, the glowing skin, the writhing. It's perfect. He leans in and locks lips with Aaron once more as he slides in first one finger, then two.
Aaron swallows both fingers with only a little resistance, and moans into the kiss. His hands run through Javier's hair as Javier's fingers start working steadily in and out, teasing him gently into loosening.
“It's okay,” Javier whispers against Aaron's lips. “You've done this before, you can take it... You've just gotta relax.”
Aaron nods and pushes lightly back against Javier's fingers. As he feels Aaron's tight ring relax around his fingers, Javier begins gently probing for the sweet spot. Aaron throws his head back and lets out a much louder moan. Javier smirks and starts moving his fingers slowly in and out, lightly scissoring them, pressing against Aaron's prostate each time, making him writhe in delight and release moans of unbridled pleasure.
Looking down Javier can see Aaron's cock is throbbing, desperate for some attention. He slips his fingers out and Aaron whimpers pleadingly. “Oh, I have something much better for you now,” Javier says, letting Aaron's legs slide from his shoulders. With one hand he lightly teases Aaron's pubis, not wanting to touch him just yet, not wanting to bring him over the edge too soon. This has to be perfect. His other hand rolls the condom onto his own throbbing cock before he applies another layer of lube to himself and his lover.
Aaron is watching, wide-eyed and red-faced, as Javier prepares himself to consummate their relationship. His aching dick twitches with every gentle stroke of Javier's fingertips. “I want you so bad,” Aaron whispers. “I need you.”
“And I need you,” Javier whispers back, moving in closer.
Aaron raises his legs a little again as Javier's knees move under his thighs. Javier can feel the tip of his cock brushing Aaron's ready hole. He leans over his love and tenderly kisses his quivering lip.
“You're doing great.” Javier grins. “Get ready to have your world rocked.” He guides his cock slowly into Aaron, whose breath hitches as he feels Javier's girth stretching him. The fit is pretty tight, as Javier expected from how nervous Aaron is, but not too much. He slides in slowly but surely, feeling Aaron's tightness caressing his entire length until he is completely buried.
Aaron finally starts breathing again as Javier stops to kiss him once more. Aaron's hands travel over Javier's broad shoulders and back as the thrusting begins, slow and leisurely at first, then building up a little pace.
Aaron moans loudly as Javier hits his sweet spot. Javier aims for it again as he reaches down and starts stroking Aaron's cock. It's too much for the once-virgin. Letting out a deep, throaty groan, he cums hard, his spasms squeezing Javier's cock firmly and rhythmically, bringing him over the edge too.
Javier slowly pulls out and collapses on top of Aaron, panting. He can feel Aaron's arms wrap around him and hold him close. “How was your first time?” he finally whispers as he catches his breath.
“Beautiful,” Aaron whispers back.
***
“You sure you want to do this?” Aaron asks, looking at the lease papers. “I mean, your folks took it pretty well in the end. You don't have to if you don't want to.”
Javier looks slowly around the empty room that will soon be their bedroom. “Yeah, I think we can make this work.”
“If you're sure...” Aaron shrugs, signing his name at the bottom of the page.
“Absolutely positive,” Javier replies, hugging Aaron from behind and kissing his neck tenderly.
Aaron turns his head and their lips meet, brushing softly. “It's just...odd. I mean, I knew from those first days that you weren't really the impulsive type. And you haven't done an impulsive thing in the past three months either. Are you sure this isn't moving too fast for you?”
Javier shakes his head. “No, you were right all along. Sometimes we need to be a little bit impulsive to live as we truly want to. And, right now, I want to live with you.” Reaching over Aaron's shoulder, he takes the pen and also signs his name. “Now, let's get some furniture.”