CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

—Bella—

 

We entered Jax’s room of which I’d never been inside of. As soon as he pulled me close, his arms wrapped around my body bringing my legs to lock around his hips. Our mouths clashed together, his arms tightly gripped me, his right hand dropped, and he cupped my breast then grabbed at the gown.

“This has to go,” he growled.

He walked across the room, laying me gently on the bed in front of the fireplace.  Lifting his large lean body, he reached to my hair as he undid the pins releasing them from my head. My hair fell gently in waves around my face. He sat silently sweeping his hand over my cheek as he watched me and pressed a kiss to my forehead.

“Bella, you’ve made me feel more in this last week than I’ve felt in a lifetime.” His tongue swept along my collarbone with smooth, slow, long, intense strokes. He stood and began removing first his jacket, tie, shirt, and when his hand released the button of his pants, my heart pounded. I was scared to death. I was terrified, but without a doubt I wanted him. I’d been wanting him every time my eyes roamed over his body wondering what he hid behind the dark suits. But he didn’t want me, or so I thought. Maybe he only recently realized that he had.

I turned my back to his front as he slowly releases me from the dress. I slid my hair to the side as I waited. His hands landed on my waist and with them came an electric jab throughout my entire body. His tongue kissed my neck as he cradled me into his arms.

I was soon freed from the dress and then turned quickly to face him. I pulled him closer. His chest was a smooth solid rock and I slid along the ridges of muscle as I descended toward his pants. My hand continued to  trail his flesh feeling the lines and indentations that curved around his perfection. Once I reached his pants, I slipped inside feeling him pulse hard under my touch.

He watched me from behind the darkness in his eyes as he held my hand pinning it into place preventing me from touching him further. “I can’t make any promises, Bella. I need you to know that before we go any further.”

In that moment, I considered what I would feel about him or myself after this. But he had cracked something inside of me, and maybe it was because I’d been sad or that I’d been so happy all at the same time. Maybe he’d affected me because I needed to occupy my mind and he was there in a moment of need, of deniable weakness. 

He watched me, his gray eyes twisting with torment over something. I supposed he was only being honorable. “Tell me that you understand, Bella. Because I want you so badly right now.”

I wanted to understand, but I worried about the fallout later, though.

I nodded.

“Say it.” His lips were so closed, “Say it.” He growled.

“Yes, I understand,” I shot, lifting to his mouth.

His body fell to mine bringing my arms over my head. 

“Jax,” I breathed into his mouth. Straddling my legs, he rose, then removed my bra. He was beautifully perfect and strong holding me as though I were a mere feather. He was protective and gentle. I thought my imagination had been right when I wondered what he’d look like under all the clothing I only saw him in before.  I had been wrong; he was more amazing than I’d thought.

“You don’t know what you’re getting yourself into, Bella.” A growl rumbled.

I don’t want to feel anything but him right. “Show me.”

He released my hands taking my breasts into his hold. His hot tongue traced circles over my hardened nipples causing a shudder. I moaned wanting more as I closed my eyes.

He pushed me upward against his chest while he gripped his pants with his free hand and tugged them away with force causing my butt to jerk upward.

“Do you like it rough, Bella?” His voice was a purr.

Excitement rushed through me. “Give it your best shot,” I teased, excited to see how far he would go.

His head moved back and forth as he watched me. Fingers teased as they trailed over my heated flesh. Then biting his lips, he dropped me to the bed while he hovered over me. When he leaned down and grabbed my arm, I hesitated. I don’t know why. Maybe I considered this might mean more to me than to him, and for just that moment, I second guessed my decision.

He dropped his body onto the bed next to me  as he removed my black satin panties, sliding them down my legs. “You shouldn’t give me such leeway with your body, you never know what I might be capable of.” I gasped when his hand traced the tattoo on my right rib cage.

“But you’re my husband, Jax.” I bowed off of the bed.

“You don’t know me, though, I’m a stranger to you Bella,” His hand slid to my butt squeezing hard as he tasted my flesh. “Mmm, you taste like heaven,” he dipped his tongue over my tummy. “You’re so sure that I’m what you want right now?”

“Yes,” I hissed.

“Good.”

My body was naked and exposed for this man and yet I didn’t feel exposed at all.

I stood and padded into direction of the wall as my feet sunk into the cream carpet. My thighs rubbed together with anticipation of his touch. I walked slowly pulling my hands to my breasts so that I could pinch my erect nipples. I’ll play his games, if he only wants my body… that’s all I will allow him to have.

“You want me like this, lover?” My hands stretched against the wall and my legs spread for him.

I knew he was behind me; I could hear him breathing. “How long has it been since you’ve had an orgasm?” His hand slipped between my thighs.

That’s an easy one. “This morning.” I teased through a gasp.

“Did you have sex? Did another man touch your pussy?” he asked leaning into the nape of my neck. He knew very well another man hadn’t touched me.

I shook my head sucking in a breath.

“Is that a no?” His hand slid across my bottom as he brought a finger between my legs to touch my clit.

I shook my head, breathing heavily.

“Did you touch yourself, Bella?”

“Yes,” I hissed as he pushed me into the cold wall.

“Did you make yourself cum… hard?” He bit out, drawing the last word.

“Yes—”

“Do you want my tongue to make you cum… hard, Bella.” He drew out my name with pure torture. Holy shit, I could feel myself become wet with pure lust.

“Yessss,” I begged with insanity prickling at every nerve ending in my body.

His hands ascended my arms, teasing me slowly. “You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes on. Your body is perfection… perfection men would kill for. Do you know what men would do to have someone as beautiful as you in their bed?” He peppered kisses along my shoulder. “I would kill any man that touched what belonged to me, Bella. I’d kill him for so much as having a thought about touching what I own.” His hands reached my breasts. “I’d kill in a second with no regard for your feelings. How would that make you feel, Bella?” His lips wrapped around my earlobe sucking it into his mouth.

“Oh God...” I gasped. My body pushed back finding his warmth, but he shoved me forward into the wall once more.

“How would that make you feel?” He continued, bringing his hand around to my throat.

“Powerful,” I admitted.

“You like assertion? You like a man that will kill to defend your honor?”

“Yes...”

“Why?” His grip tightened from a feather touch to something darker… sexier.

“I deserve it.” I’d play his game.

“Why?”

“Because I’m a princess. Royalty.” I fought against the tug his hand had around my throat. The more I did the tighter his grip became and the more I was turned on.

“That… you are. And now I’m going to make you cum like a princes.”

His hands turned my body forcefully towards him and then he dropped to his knees, spreading my legs—wide.

I was standing against the wall and could see the burning embers across the room pop and sizzle inside the fireplace. My body felt like those embers, on fire in all the right places. This gorgeous man was on his knees running his tongue along my inner thigh. His strong hands gripped tightly to every piece of flesh he could get his hands on.

Smooth, wet, fire ripped through my core when his tongue found my pulsing clit. He flicked it with his tongue then kissed it.

I moaned, moving my head side to side against the wall.

His hands spread me wide so that he could have free reign of my pussy. His tongue found my pussy dripping wet and throbbing as he slid inside. I jumped forward moaning again and felt the vibration of a growl against my flesh.

My hips pushed into his touch wanting more… begging for it. When he stood I felt abandoned and lonely. His eyes met mine with trepidation and he reached out for my hand and I gave it to him without hesitation.

I followed the strong man across the room once again. His touch was softer in that moment than it had been earlier, but it felt like it could all change any moment.

“Lie down, Bella.” He gestured for me to lie on the bed. “Spread your legs.” I obeyed. “Close your eyes.” I lifted my hands over my head and closed my eyes.

I could hear him fumble with something as I desperately waited for his touch. Cold ice pressed to my nipples surprising me. I lifted my eyes open to watch him.

“Close them,” he demanded while he loomed over my body.

Where had he gotten ice?

Then, I heard ice fall inside a glass before he pressed a cube to my nipple sliding slowly to my pubic bone with his thumb jutting to my clit.

“Uhh,” I lifted my body into his hand.

“Do you like my touch, Bella?”

“God, yes...” It was soft, firm, hot, and hard.  There were so many feelings that swam inside when he touched me.

“Mmm…” His mouth completely devoured my clit as he sucked firmly.

“Uhh,” I moaned with pleasure as his fingers entered me.

“So wet.” 

“Yes…” I could feel how wet he had made me.

I subconsciously began to grind against his fingers while his mouth still sucked on my clit.

I reached for his head fisting his hair into my grip. “Oh my God, don’t stop. Right there.” I was there. I was already fucking there. I couldn’t believe it. Never had a man given me that.

He added another finger pushing hard inside of me as he circled his tongue around the edges of my clit, and the feeling rushed through me in explosive waves. My body contracted moving forcefully into him while I still had his hair in my hands as he gave me a never ending orgasm.

“Holy fucking shit...” I released him and his fingers released me. My breathing was so harsh, is was as if I’d just ran a marathon.

“Royalty, Bella.” His body hovered over mine. “And I’m the king.” He positioned himself over me holding one hand to my forehead and the other he used to position himself at my entrance. He dipped inside of me pushing slowly, but I wanted it hard.

“I won’t break.” I lifted to him.

His tongue traced my lips and when he shoved hard as hell inside of me he took my mouth into his. I brought my hands to his face feeling the rough stubble… God I loved this look on him.

He continued pushing hard inside of me. The pleasure was real, it was intense, but now I felt like he was having pleasure alone in his own world. His face buried deep into my neck while he grunted with each thrust. And at that moment I knew I felt something, it was only a matter of time before I would shut down. So I reminded myself this was just sex and only sex.

I lost myself in the feeling of his hard dick inside of me. He continued pushing my limits and when he pushed upward and slipped his hand to my clit once again I knew there was another orgasm on the way. I wrapped his head into my arms and came forcefully. Three hard thrust into my soul-clenching orgasm and he was coming inside of me. He pushed my body into places it had never been with a man who knew exactly how to touch a woman.

His breath was harsh as he pinned me to the bed.

“That was amazing.” I laughed out loud.

“You—” the grin on his face was a good sign, “—are amazing.” He lifted from me and walked to the bathroom. When he returned he leaned down softly pressed a warm cloth to cleanse me.

I smiled.

He sat on the bed hanging his arm over his leg as he watched me. “Damn.” He smiled while shaking his head.

“Did you like?” I asked sitting up just inches from him.

“I loved.”

“Oh, I thought you couldn’t do that,” I said playfully.

He laughed as he leaned forward to kiss me.

 

—Jax—

 

Pushing inside of her hot body was amazing. Sex was amazing. It feels so good and when you cum… it’s all you know in the moment, but when my dick pushed inside of Bella, I felt something. Something I had never felt before and it affected me. Closeness, gravity, electricity, passion. I don’t know, maybe it was all of those things… maybe it was none of those things.

Her head fell against the pillow sheepishly, she was wearing out and needed rest. Her bandage was holding up nicely and she hadn’t complained about pain even once.

“Stay here with me tonight, Bella.” I tucked her into my body pulling the sheet to cover us.

She stilled, uncomfortable perhaps. Maybe she hadn’t been expecting me to demand that of her. I hadn’t been expecting it either.

I smoothed her hair from her forehead to lay my lips across her flesh. She tucked herself into my chest as she slept. She’d fallen asleep in just the few moments she lay with my arms wrapped around her body.

I was falling in love with her.

“If I could love, it would be you, Bella,” I whispered into the darkness.