Chapter Nineteen
ANA
I wanted him so bad that I felt myself drench with wetness at the very touch of his lips. My adrenaline was pumping and it was more exciting than anything I had ever done. The last twenty-four hours had been such an emotional roller coaster that when Nate pressed his lips against mine, I couldn’t think of anything else except what his body would feel like thrusting into mine.
Nate was the man I had never dared to dream about. He was confident, kind, and had his life together. When I had first come to America, I dreamt of a tall, blond man with muscles like Nate and a smile that made me melt. I finally had him. It had taken me a few months and I had gone through hell to find him, but there he was, right in front of me.
We quickly moved toward the door and locked it as we grabbed at each other’s clothing and took them off. Nate had taken special care to place his ammo belt and other equipment down gently next to the bed we were near. As soon as he had those off, I pressed his t-shirt up over his head and let my hands glide over his sweaty chest.
He was breathing heavily already, and I could tell he was as excited as I was to feel our naked bodies together. There was no worrying about my nightmares, no being gentle with me because of my past. We both moved quickly and wanted to feel the hard thrusting as soon as we were on the bed.
I felt like a real woman. Which wasn’t something that I had felt like in a very long time. It had been over a year since I had been back at home and living my normal life, but in that moment with Nate, I felt normal again. Like any woman who was about to make love to the man she loved. It was a glorious feeling that I didn’t want to let go of.
Nate gently removed my black scarf and then each piece of my clothing as he paused to kiss me in between the removal process. He only paused for a few seconds before moving onto the next piece, but it was long enough to build up my anticipation for his next move. The gentle touch of his lips energized me with each touch and I felt the building of excitement.
His big hands slid over my naked body in one, quick movement before he wrapped me into his arms and we fell onto the small bed near the door. It wasn’t a beautiful bed, and in the light of day, I’d probably have been disgusted by it, but in that moment, it felt like the softest bed in the world. With Nate there and our naked bodies pressed together, it didn’t matter what else was going on in the world.
“I can’t believe you’re here,” Nate said through his heavy breath.
“I can’t believe I’m here too.” I chuckled.
As his mouth pressed against mine, I felt his knees spread my legs open and I longed to feel him thrusting inside of me. This was no time for slow, passionate lovemaking; I wanted hard, erotic sex. My body ached to have his filling me up. I pressed my pelvis forward and urged him on with great demand.
“Fuck me,” I moaned as he teased me a little with his throbbing member.
“Oh, I am, but you can’t scream, you know. There are women and children in the very next room. No screaming.”
“Shit.”
That was going to be a real problem, and I knew it already. When he moved inside of me, I moaned out softly, and Nate quickly covered my mouth. He smiled down at me as if teasing me with his body as his hips pressed in deeper and I moaned a little more.
“Shh,” he said with a smile. “No noises.”
“Oh, God,” I moaned as he thrust deep and hard into me.
Nate reached down and grabbed my black scarf and gently slid it around me and tied it right in front of my mouth. He then slid the knotted fabric into my mouth and I bit down on it in an effort to muffle my moans.
“This should keep you quiet,” he whispered into my ear. “Because I’m about to make every muscle in your body twitch with desire.”
His pelvis thrust into me hard and I moaned out again, but this time it was muffled by the scarf. I felt more confident in letting my noises out as his thrusts continued. I felt complete and utter desire. Thrust after thrust, he delivered to me and I felt my body welcoming him with a wet rush of pre-orgasm. I tried to hold my body from releasing, but I felt it building up harder and harder for the ultimate release.
I wasn’t self-conscious. There were no worries about what he thought of my naked body. The only thing I could think of was how many more thrusts it would take from his body before I exploded in the ultimate orgasm.
With only a dozen or so deep, hard thrusts, I screamed out into my scarf as Nate thrust his body into me and released. It was hot, we were naked, and we were in the middle of a war zone fucking each other. I couldn’t have imagined that moment if I had tried. There was no fantasy of such a moment from my past. Only the pure reality that we had just let our bodies feel the sweet release of pleasure in a moment of passion.
There was no time for lying around naked though, and we both got up and started to put our clothes back on. Each of us with huge smiles and watching each other diligently as we got dressed. We had a comfort level with each other that people only achieved over time. Although we didn’t know each other all that long, I did feel like Nate understood me more than other people did.
“So, I flew to Damascus to fuck my boyfriend. I guess I should head home now,” I teased as I reached for the door handle.
Nate grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him as we leaned against the door. His big arms wrapped softly around me and my head rested on his chest. It was intimate and relaxing—well, as relaxed as you could be in the middle of a war zone.
“You shouldn’t have come here. It’s so dangerous. I wish you would have just waited for me at home.”
“I’m sorry. I had to get out of there. I had to take control of my life for a change and I thought I could help a little.”
“I called you my girlfriend to the guys,” Nate said softly as he changed the subject.
I looked up at him and saw his boyish grin. I knew enough about Nate to know that he didn’t go around calling anyone his girlfriend very often. I felt privileged that he had said such a thing to his friends.
Nate was the kind of man who kept his love life to himself. I was pretty sure even his close friends didn’t hear much about the women in his life. And then probably only when he brought with him to an event or something like that.
Nate had his quiet house in the woods and I had heard some stories of him picking up women and bringing them home. But I hadn’t heard a single story about someone who he loved or that he had dated for a long time. From what I knew about Nate, he was a serial bachelor.
“Sorry for worrying you and coming over here. I don’t know what came over me. I just couldn’t sit there and feel like a victim. I needed some sort of control.”
“You should have seen the guys faces when I said I had a girlfriend. I swear they almost passed out,” Nate said without addressing the fact that I had flown over there.
“I’m sure they think I’m a lunatic for being here. Sorry about that.”
“We are all a little crazy; that’s part of the fun of loving someone. You must think I’m crazy for doing what I do for my job. And I just think you needed some excitement in your life and made a little bit of a bad decision.” Nate laughed as he looked around the room we were in.
It certainly wasn’t the Ritz. The old, rundown room had six cots in there; none of the mattresses were the same as the others. The floors were covered with random items such as pens, paper, and books. It wasn’t romantic at all, yet I felt like I was in the middle of one of the most romantic moments of my life.
We still had hours to kill before it was time to load up more of the people from the building. I would have been perfectly happy to spend those hours sitting and talking to Nate, but my body had different plans.
I wanted more of him. The urge to feel his naked body against mine was still all consuming and as I pressed my hand to his pants I felt his throbbing cock still delighted to be there with me.
“Make love to me,” I whispered as I looked up at Nate.
“We just did.” He laughed.
“No. Make love to me. Love.”
Nate took a moment to look out the windows again and listened at the door to see if anything was going on out in the main area. When he was satisfied, his lips touched mine gently and he held my cheeks in his hands. He was such a manly man. I loved just looking into his eyes and seeing the intensity of his longing for me.
“You are my crazy woman.” He smiled.
“And you’re my crazy man.” I smiled back at him.
Again, he slowly took off my clothing, but this time he laid me gently onto the mattress and kissed from my neck all the way to my toes and back. Each touch of his lips on my skin sent shivers through my body. With my eyes closed, I imagined us lying on his bed in the cabin, with no noises around us and no people for miles and miles.
His lips felt like they belonged on my body all the time. Every single day of my life would be just about long enough to keep me happy. I knew in that moment that I didn’t want any other man; I only wanted Nate.
My past was officially behind me as I realized that I didn’t care at all what had happened to me before. None of those thoughts were filling my mind any longer; instead, all I could think about was what life would be like with Nate in the future. Where would we travel? What things would we see together?
I felt a level of control over my future that was intoxicating. I didn’t have anyone else in control of my life at that moment. It was only I who could determine the path to make myself happy. There was no need for any more ruminating on what happened at Stephano’s house. I didn’t even worry about him chasing after me because I knew if Nate was with me, I could deal with absolutely anything that could come my way.
There was no talk of me being quiet, no worry about my moans of delight this time as Nate let his mouth explore my center. The delicate nature of his touch combined with where we were at and I felt the excitement billowing up into an explosion, but before I could release; Nate stopped what he was doing and slid his body into mine.
With slow strokes, he gently kissed me. I closed my eyes and felt delightful as his body thrusted. His mouth was over mine and muffled my moans as his body brought me closer and closer to delightful orgasm. The way our bodies moved together was much more like a couple on their honeymoon than a couple in the middle of a war zone.
An overwhelming feeling of peace came over my body as I made love to Nate. Whatever else came to us in the next few hours, I now felt the strength to deal with it. My anxiety and worry over my past were long gone as I made love in the ultimate present tense.
Nate moved his body gently with mine, and as his lips touched my neck, he whispered sweetness into my ears. I absolutely loved the feeling of his strong body over mine as his lips touched the skin of my neck. It was the perfect combination of power and lust and made my body spring to attention with longing for more of Nate.
“You’re so beautiful and strong.”
“Thank you,” I whispered back before his mouth pressed against mine and we were consumed by kissing again.
“I feel stronger when I’m around you.”
“Then you should be around me more often,” Nate said.
Our bodies moved together in a slow, delicious pattern that had me building up to a pleasurable explosion. As my body finally released, Nate gave himself permission to release his orgasm as well. In one, last, glorious thrust, our hips pressed together and we both let out a moan of passion.
I wrapped my arms tightly around him and held his body over mine as we collapsed into ecstasy. It didn’t matter where we were. It didn’t matter that we might not make it out of that building alive. In that moment, we were together as one, and that was all that mattered to either of us.
“Mister Nate, there is movement in building across the street,” a young man’s voice said at the door.
“Thank you,” Nate said as he jumped up and went to the window to look out. “I’ll be right out.”
He was naked as he looked carefully out the windows to see what was going on. I gathered my clothes and hurriedly put them back on while I waited for Nate to tell me what he saw. It was funny to see how he didn’t care if he had clothes on or not as he looked out the window for rebels who could want to kill us.
“Several men leaving the building across the street, but it doesn’t look like a large operation.”
“What are we going to do?”
“Still need to wait and see how things are closer to 0400. If they are quiet, we will proceed with the extraction.”
“Won’t they see you loading the next group? How will we get the second group out?”
“It’s too risky to have both SUVs driving through town at once, much too conspicuous. We will have to get the first group out and then see what happens.”
I didn’t like the sound of that at all. But I knew that Nate was an expert in this area, and I was willing to do whatever he saw fit. There was no way I would know what to do in order to get the people out of the building and back to the base.
Nate got dressed and quickly went out to talk to the guys. I couldn’t hear everything that he was saying, but it sounded like he told them to continue what they were doing and keep their eyes posted until 0330 when they would wake everyone and get them loaded into the vehicle.
I waited in the room because I didn’t know what to do. My confidence was a little shaken as we sat there knowing that rebels were just across the street from us.
“They have been watching the building, right?” I asked. “They are going to come in here soon?”
“We have no idea. They could be looking for military and not care about us at all. There’s no way to know.”
“I’d like to train to work with you someday,” I blurted out.
Nate’s initial reaction was to smile, and I could tell he didn’t think I was being serious. But when he looked me in the eyes, he could tell that I was. My eyes locked onto his; I was one hundred percent serious. I loved the feeling I had at that moment.
Knowing that something I was part of was going to help to save people from dying, that was more powerful than any type of counseling a person could go through. Plus, the adrenaline rush was like a high that I had never felt before. It was better than any drugs that Stephano had forced into my system. Adrenaline was a natural high and much more all-consuming.
“We can talk about it when we get home. It’s very dangerous; I don’t know if I’d want my woman in such danger all the time.”
I knew that Nate was trying to be sweet and show he cared for me, but I didn’t like how he thought he could choose if I put myself into danger or not. No man could always protect their woman and preventing them from going after something they wanted wasn’t a good way of protecting someone anyways.
Sometime in the future, we would have to talk about my plans, but at the moment, our only goal was to get out of Damascus alive. We had a few more hours before the sun would be up, and then it would be impossible to get out without being detected.