I took my fifteen pills every morning, and every night, my body shook for an hour straight. So far, that was the only side effect I had, and after what chemo did to me, that was a piece of cake. I occupied the last couple of weeks by absorbing myself in my artwork and spending time with Mason and Landon. They quickly became my best friends in California. Even though I tried to keep myself busy, I thought about Connor every day and night. Peyton kept me updated, and nothing had changed. He wasn’t doing anything to find me.
The loneliness I felt was beyond anything I’d ever experienced before. When we were apart in New York, I had the comfort of knowing he was in the same city and that we would eventually run into each other. But he was not here in California, and the loneliness factor was ten times worse now. I checked my email every day, hoping he would send me one, but he didn’t, and I didn’t send one because it was obvious he was over me. I would pull his picture up online and put my wrist over my heart. Sometimes, just seeing a picture of him eased the pain, but most of the time, it made it worse.
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In two days, I would get my first set of injections. I was nervous not knowing what effect they’d have on me, so I decided to take the morning to run to the store. I needed to stock up on some things in case I couldn’t leave the apartment. I put on my khaki shorts, a black tank top, and a pair of black strappy sandals that I picked up on sale when I first moved here. I stopped by Mason and Landon’s apartment to ask if they needed me to pick up anything; they graciously said no but appreciated the thought. I walked down the street and around the corner to Trader Joe’s and picked up some things to stock my refrigerator. I took in the warmth of the California sun as I headed back to the apartment.
I reached down in my bag and pulled out the Twix bar I desperately craved. I looked up as I almost reached the building and came to a standstill when I saw him leaning against the side of a black convertible Porsche. He looked at me and smiled.
“You’re a hard woman to find, Miss Lane.”
It felt like life was breathed into me again as my heart started racing. I let my bags fall to the ground and ran to him as fast as I could. He was no longer leaning against the car when I jumped up and wrapped my legs and arms around him. He caught me by wrapping his arms around me and holding me tight.
“I’ve missed you so much,” he whispered in my ear.
“I missed you, and I’m so sorry.”
“Shh…no apologies; the only thing that matters is I found you, and you’re safe.”
I lifted my head up, cupped his face in my hands, and kissed him passionately. Our tongues met with excitement and exhilaration as our long-lost kiss left us breathless. Tears started running down my face as he put me down and softly wiped my cheeks with his thumb.
“Let me look at you,” he said as he spun me around. He grabbed me and held me tight. “You look just as beautiful as when you left.”
Mason and Landon emerged from their apartment, clapping. I turned my head and smiled. “Guys this is—”
Mason held up his hand. “We already met this gorgeous man, Elle.” I looked at them and then at Connor.
“What? How?”
“Your hot, sexy boy toy came to the rental office and wanted to know if you were renting an apartment here, and we said YES! We told him you ran to the store but that you’d be right back.”
Connor kissed the top of my head. “You have some great friends here.”
I hugged him again as Mason and Landon walked over and picked up the bags that I’d dropped on the cement. Connor put his arm around me as we walked up to the building.
“See, no private entrance.” I smiled.
“You’re learning.” He chuckled.
I took him up to my apartment. Mason and Landon stepped inside, put the bags on the counter, and quickly left as Landon gave me a wink. Connor turned and ran his finger along my jaw line and over my lips.
“You have a lot of explaining to do, but first, I’m going to make love to you.”
I gasped as my body quivered. He lightly brushed his lips against mine as his tongue trailed down my neck. “You taste so good. It’s been too long, Ellery. I need you. I need to be inside you.”
His words sounded desperate, as was my body, begging him to take me. He picked me up and carried me to the bedroom, his lips never leaving mine. He set me down in front of the bed and lifted my shirt over my head, tossing it to the side. His hands ran up and down my sides and over my hips as he let out a light moan. He unhooked my bra and let it fell to the floor. His hands were cupping my breasts and fingering my nipples as his tongue explored my navel. His lips found their way up to my breasts, lightly biting my nipples while removing my shorts. My body was on fire, and the ache I felt for him was an ache much stronger than before. He didn’t even need to touch me for my body was in a constant state of ache whenever he was near me.
I brought his face to mine and kissed him, letting him know how much I needed and wanted him. He groaned as my hands took off his shirt, and my nails lightly dug into his back. He broke from me as he kicked off his shoes and took down his pants. I stared at his masculine body as the fire in mine raged. He put his arms around me as he gently laid me onto the bed, hovering over me and staring into my eyes.
“You make me feel alive like no one ever has,” he said.
I ran my hands through his perfect tousled hair and brought him in for a kiss. His hands traveled from my breasts down to the edge of my panties. He pressed his erection into me as I arched my back, begging for more. He slid his hand down to the front of my panties and moaned, “Ellery, you’re so wet.”
“This is what you do to me, Connor. Feel every bit of it.”
He slid his fingers inside me and gently worked them around as his thumb circled around me, arousing me more than I already was. The ache was getting unbearable.
“I want you to come now, Ellery, while my fingers are inside of you and pleasuring you.” His words sent me into oblivion as I screamed out from the amazing orgasm this man gave me. “That’s my girl.” He smiled.
With him still hovering over me and his tongue circling my nipple, I reached down and grabbed his erection, gently stroking it and feeling the wetness as I lightly moved my thumb over the tip. He groaned. “Oh God.”
His lips moved to mine as I pushed him off me and got on top. He smiled and bit his bottom lip. I wanted to take control of him. I wanted to pleasure him as much as he pleasured me. I straddled him as I took him inside me, gently moving up and down. His hands traveled over my breasts as he took my nipples between his fingers.
“You’re so beautiful, especially when I see you like this.” He groaned.
I was swelling as I moved back and forth, preparing for my next release. My hands were planted firmly on his chest as his were planted on my hips, moving me up and down.
“Look at me, Ellery. I need to see you come.”
I looked directly in his eyes as our breathing was heavy, and I moved up and down, back and forth, faster and faster. His moans grew louder, and his eyes never left mine.
“Don’t come yet, baby. I want us to come together,” he panted.
He flexed his hips under me so he was deeper inside. I didn’t think it was possible, but it was. He moved up and down with me as our bodies became one.
“Ellery, come with me, baby. I want us to come together, and I want to hear what I do to you.”
That sent me over the top as I couldn’t hold back anymore and neither could he. One final thrust then we both came together, never taking our eyes off one another.
I collapsed onto his chest and buried my head into his neck. I lay there as he rubbed his hands up and down my back, and I lightly kissed his neck, taking in his incredible scent. Our heart rates slowed, as did our breathing. He rolled me off of him and onto my side as he faced me, pushing my hair back behind my ear without saying a word. He didn’t need to say anything. I knew exactly what he was feeling just by his stare and his touch. I never wanted to leave this position. I wanted to stay like this forever.
“Tell me what you’re thinking,” he said.
I took his hand and brought it up to my mouth. “I was thinking about how happy I am that you found me.”
He smiled in the way that made me ache for him. “I told you that I’d find you. Remember, I’m a stalker.”
I laughed and ran my fingers up and down his arm. “You can stalk me any day, Mr. Black.”
He sat up and pulled me closer so that my head was resting on his chest.
“How did you find me?” I asked.
He kissed me on the top of my head. “We’ll discuss everything later while we go grab something to eat. I’m starving.”
I lifted my head and frowned at him. “You mean we have to leave this bed?”
“Yes, darling, but trust me, we’ll be back in it soon enough.”
I reached up and kissed him on the lips, and we got out of bed. We redressed ourselves and headed to the main room of the apartment.
“This apartment’s really nice, better than the one in New York.”
I hit him on the arm as I walked past. “Hey, I like my little box in New York.”
He smiled and walked to the kitchen. He stopped as he stared at the fifteen bottles of pills all lined up in a row on the counter. He picked up one of the bottles and starting reading the label.
“Care to explain what these are?” he asked as he gave me a pained look. I took his hands and led him over to the couch.
“I’m in a clinical trial study. That’s why I came out here.” He started to interrupt as I put my finger over his mouth. “Let me finish.”
He smiled as he took my finger in his mouth and sucked on it. I giggled and removed it as I continued. “I have to take these pills every day. Once a month, I go to the hospital and get a set of three injections. It’s called some type of ‘Immunotherapy.’ I have to do this for a period of three months. Once I complete the three months, the doctor will test my blood to see if the cancer is gone. If not, then I will continue for another three months. I don’t even know if it’s going to work,” I said as I looked down.
He lifted my chin so I was looking at him. “It will work. It has to work.”
“It’s only a trial, Connor. It’s the first time it’s been done on humans, so right now, I don’t know what to think.”
“You’re strong, Elle. You’re the strongest and most stubborn person I’ve ever met in my life, and if anybody can pull through this, it’s you, but you have to stop running away from me.”
I took his hand that was stroking my cheek. “I know. I’m just so scared.”
He grabbed my hands and turned them over as he looked at my tattoos and lightly kissed each one. “Don’t be scared. I’m here, and I’m going to help you through this. Even if this trial doesn’t work, it doesn’t matter because I will fly you around the world and find you the treatment that will work because…” He took in a deep breath, “I love you, Ellery Lane, and I will protect you.”
Tears streamed down my face as I heard the words that he never spoke to anyone before. I hugged him as tight as I could and whispered into his ear, “I love you too.” His fingers wrapped around the bottom of my shirt as he gently lifted it off me. My heart started racing as he leaned me back on the couch,