Chapter 14

Alexander

As I made my way from the parking lot of Preston Solutions to my office, I engaged in polite chit-chat with several employees and a supplier visiting with our VP of Finance. They could talk about numbers and figures all they wanted, but there was only one thing on my mind. Casey. I had to admit that our lack of communication had taken its toll on me. It had been a week and a half since our camping trip—not that I was counting—and I hadn’t heard from her at all. Not a single phone call or text message.

“Good morning, Mr. Preston,” Rachel, one of the interns said.

“Good morning,” I replied half-heartedly. Could she see that my heart was hurting on the inside? How about the other fifty-two employees at the company?

“I’ll see you at the staff meeting at two o’clock, correct?”

“Yes, sir,” Rachel said. She retreated to her cubicle as I followed the linoleum flooring to my office.

I hated feeling this way. I had never been the kind of guy to pine over a girl or check twenty times a day to see if she’d gotten back to me. I guess I’d become one of those guys. I couldn’t have dreamed up a more perfect camping night than ours, so I wasn’t sure why I was getting the cold shoulder. For the sake of my company, I had to put these feelings aside, at least for now.

I took my seat at my desk and, noticing the green, blinking light on my telephone, played through my messages. I had one voicemail from a client, two from Margie, my secretary, one from my buddy, Brett, and two others from local colleges wanting to set up meetings regarding our spring internship program. I skipped over Brett’s to jot down the information from the other voicemails and left his for last.

“Hey man.” Brett’s always-cheerful voice rang out through my speakerphone. “I have a few hours to kill tonight while the girls are at dance class and thought you might want to grab a beer. Flanagan’s at 7? Let me know!”

I smiled to myself as I thought about Brett, a party animal back in our college days, helping his daughters with their ballet slippers and dropping them off at dance class. Oh, how times had changed. His girls were four and six-years-old and it was still, all these years later, hard to wrap my mind around the fact that Brett was a daddy.

It suddenly occurred to me that Brett might be the perfect person to give me the advice and perspective I needed. After all, he was married with kids—and he’d knocked up his wife with their first kid before they were married. Ok, so it wasn’t exactly the same situation I had with Casey. Still, it was the closest I had to go by, so I texted Brett and told him I’d be there.

“Mr. Preston,” Margie said, knocking on my open door. “You have a meeting with the marketing team in five.”

“Of course,” I replied. I pulled out the bottom-right drawer of my desk and dug through the file folders until I found the one labeled “Marketing- Q3”.

Our marketing team had eight members: a VP of Marketing, two marketing directors, two marketing associates, a graphic designer, a PR specialist, and an intern. Once a quarter, we gathered in a conference room and listened as each person presented their work from the previous quarter. We then spent the second half of the meeting setting goals and target objectives for the next quarter. As luck would have it, the meeting this quarter fell on the day I wanted to be anywhere but the office.

“Good morning, folks,” I said, taking my place at the head of the table. Everyone had been with the company for at least two or three years, with the exception of one of the marketing associates and the intern. They had each only been there a few months, so this was their first quarterly meeting. They were both visibly nervous. I suppose it was intimidating having the CEO sitting in on their meeting, but I liked to think of myself as a cool boss. Maybe that was naïve, but I wasn’t much older than them when I started the company. I’d been in their shoes. I vowed to never be like some of the CEOs I’d worked for during college.

“Good morning,” a few of them mumbled back.

“I want to thank you for clearing your schedules so that we can meet this morning,” I started. “The goal of this meeting is to come up with clear ideas of what we need to work on or improve over the next quarter. This quarter was the most successful Preston Solutions has ever seen, and I think that it’s in large part due to our increased marketing efforts. Thank you all for all your hard work. With that being said, I’m going to turn this over to our VP of Finance, Mike Alvarez.”

The quarterly meeting lasted a painful four hours. We ordered in pizza so we could work through lunch, listening to presentation after presentation. I hated stuffy meetings, which is why we limited the departmental ones to only four times a year. Other than that, I let my employees decide amongst themselves when and how to meet with one another. I didn’t want my company to be a boring workplace. I checked my phone three times during the meeting, each one resulting in a sting of rejection when I realized Casey hadn’t called or texted.

Once the last slide of Mike’s presentation had been explained, we all rushed toward the door. Katrina, the new marketing associate, looked up at me from her small five-foot frame, as if she were seeking approval.

“Great job, Katrina,” I said. “Keep up the good work.”

A massive smile appeared on Katrina’s face and she said, “Thank you, Mr. Preston.”

Back at my desk, I returned three calls I missed while in the meeting, responded to the requests I’d received via voicemail, and scrolled through the dozens of emails that flooded my inbox. The day dragged on until it was finally time to head home for the night.

I walked into Flanagan’s, an old college favorite, and found Brett sitting on a stool at the bar. In his ball cap and t-shirt, he hadn’t aged a day since we’d graduated from college eight years earlier. “Hey man,” I said, shaking his hand.

“How’s it going, Preston?” Brett replied. Like most college guys, my friend group called everyone by their last name, with the exception of Brett. Brett’s last name was something Ukrainian with lots of syllables, impossible to pronounce. I had to admit that it’d been a while since anyone had called me Preston.

“Good, good,” I said, taking a seat beside him. We spent nearly an hour catching up, talking about my business and Brett’s job as a mechanic. He always had crazy stories to share, mostly ones that involved him overhearing arguments and conversations in the houses he worked at. For the first time, though, he spent most of the time talking about his family. He told me how his wife, Amelia, had started taking night classes to get her master’s degree, so he was working long days and running the kids to their activities.

“I’ve even learned to cook,” Brett said, warranting a laugh from me. “Ok, maybe I’m not a gourmet chef. But I cook a mean grilled cheese, and I can make some of the girls’ favorites. Macaroni and cheese, hotdogs… you name it.”

I smiled. “I must say, it sounds like you’re living the good life.”

“It gets tough,” Brett said, taking a sip of his beer. I was waiting for a second half of this declaration, but it never came. “So, how goes the single life? Any prospects on the horizon?”

“Actually, I have sort of a complicated situation,” I said.

“What are we talking?” Brett asked. “Two hot girls and you don’t know which one to choose? Having an affair with an employee?” He paused. “Both?”

I let out a dry chuckle. “Ok, it’s not sort of complicated. It’s very complicated.”

“Lay it on me,” Brett said.

I gave Brett the abridged version of my relationship with Casey. I had decided earlier in the day that I would tell him that Casey and I met on a one night stand, instead of the clinic situation, but I wanted the outside opinion of someone who knew the whole, honest story. If there was anyone who would be open-minded, it was the guy I’d found passed out and naked in the hallway at least half a dozen times in college.

By the time I was done talking, Brett’s jaw was practically on the bar. He looked around, moving his head from side to side. “Is this some kind of prank?”

“I wish,” I said. “I’m falling for her, man.”

“Wow,” Brett said. “Let me take a minute to soak this all in.”

We took a few swigs of our beers in silence as I wondered what Brett had to say. I knew how crazy everything sounded. Had I told him that? “Brett, I know this whole situation is crazy, but it’s my reality right now.”

“Let me ask you this,” Brett started. “Would you still feel the same way about her if there wasn’t a bun in the oven?”

“Absolutely,” I said, without hesitation. “Honestly, sometimes I get so caught up in how much fun I’m having with her that I forget that she’s carrying my child.” It felt odd to say the words aloud.

Brett sighed and adjusted his seat to have a more direct view of my face. “Just know that settling down and having a child are two of the biggest commitments you can make. Don’t do it unless you’re sure.”

I rambled on about Casey and our relationship before confessing to Brett that I was nervous. Most of my buddies knew me as the easygoing, fearless guy I’d been in college. But, the truth was, the thought of being a father terrified me. I was excited about the prospect, but there was always the fear in the back of my mind that I wouldn’t be any good at it. Brett’s response was that, like anything else in life, it was an adjustment I’d have to make.

“Do you ever regret it?” I said.

Brett shrugged. “Regret what?”

“Settling down? Having kids so young?”

“Well, I’ve traded in ESPN for Nickelodeon and trips to the gym for trips to ballet class,” Brett started. “But when those little girls smile at me, I know everything’s going to be alright. Everything I’ve sacrificed is worth it.” He paused and put his hand on my shoulder, as if he were a father giving his son a good talking-to. “If it helps at all, I’ve never seen you light up this much talking about a girl—even with Allison.”

Allison was the only other girl I had ever even remotely considered settling down with, and I knew the moment those words came out of Brett’s mouth that he was exactly the perspective I’d needed. “Thanks, man,” I said. One other thought was itching to escape my mind. “The only problem is, I haven’t heard from Casey in a few weeks. I’m thinking maybe she’s having second thoughts.”

“Put yourself in her shoes, dude,” Brett said. “She had this guy who agreed to knock her up, then she started dating him, she started falling for him, and now she’s confused. She probably just needs reassurance that you’re serious about her and the baby.” For a guy who had never even heard of Casey before today, I was amazed by how spot-on Brett’s advice was. I said goodbye to him, made plans to visit soon, and started brainstorming my next move.