The tension between River and me was too much. After what we had done in the dressing room, River left me wanting so much more. Everything about him was so seductive, and I was so confused about what my body was feeling. The truth was that I was supposed to meet Blue’s fiancé, Hunter, after my suit fitting. But I’d messaged him to reschedule because all I wanted that afternoon was River.

As we made our way into my home, I felt a nervousness that I hadn’t felt in a long time. It felt like I was about to enter a courtroom for a very important case. I was about to do something I never imagined myself doing. And it was all because of this young man.

River stepped into my home.

“Where do you want to do this?” he asked.

I thought for a moment of where we could go. I thought about taking him to the guesthouse, but that wouldn’t be a good place because Harry and Carter had agreed to move in later with their baby. I thought about going into my bedroom, but that felt way too intimate for what I was comfortable with. But then I remembered the wine cellar in my basement that had large steel doors where no one could hear us.

I led River down to the basement. There weren’t very many windows in the basement, and I had to feel my way around to turn on the light.

“Does the dark scare you?” I asked.

“If I were here alone, I’d be a bit scared. But I don’t feel scared with you,” River said.

How was I going to spank him? This guy was fucking adorable. But my curiosity got the best of me, and I knew I needed to try it. My cock throbbed like it had in the dressing room of the Louis Vuitton.

I opened the heavy wine cellar door and pulled the string to turn on the light in the middle of the room. There was a wooden chair under the light that was left there by the previous owners.

I was nervous, but I didn’t want River to see it. As a successful lawyer, I was good at hiding my nerves. I pretended like I was about to present an argument in front of a judge.

River stood by the door waiting for me to take the lead. I sat down on the chair facing him and gestured for him to come toward me. The light above him made him look like an angel, and I was about to spank the good out of him.

I pulled him close to me and made him sit on my lap, facing me. I felt his body tremble. I wasn’t sure if it was because it was cold in the cellar or if it was because of his nerves. I put my hands on his arms to try and steady him.

River leaned in close to me and rested his forehead on mine. His hazel eyes looked so vulnerable in that moment. He looked so eager to please me, and I was about to take advantage of it.

I kissed his lips, feeling his body soften up to mine. I moved my hands down his back and grabbed his ass and squeezed it.

River rocked his hips gently on my hard-on.

I slipped my hands down his pants and touched his bare ass. He was so smooth that when I closed my eyes, it didn’t feel like I was touching another man. Maybe that was a lie I was telling to convince myself that what I was doing was okay.

I pulled his pants down just below his ass cheeks and rubbed them gently before I spanked him lightly. He let out a quiet moan, and he wrapped his arms around my neck. I kissed him harder, and I could feel his hard cock against my abs. I spanked him again, this time a bit harder. I didn’t want to hurt him, but his lustful moans were telling me that he was enjoying it.

River was holding on to me like a leech, and the harder I spanked him, the tighter he held on to me

“Are you a bad boy?” I asked.

He nodded. “Yeah, so bad.”

I loved the way his nose and his cheeks got rosy like he’d been out in the cold for too long.

I spanked him again as River bit his lower lip.

“Tell me what you did today that makes you so bad,” I said.

It felt natural to say that to him, even though it was the first time I’d ever spanked anyone.

“I got my car towed…and I was being bad in the dressing room,” River said.

I moved his body so that he was bent over my knees. My handprints had turned his ass cheeks red. His plump ass looked so beautiful under the bright light. I felt bad that I was causing him pain, but at the same time, I couldn’t stop. It felt good to release my energy by spanking River. It felt better than any kind of foreplay. The rush and power I was feeling were like winning a case in the courtroom. Was this what I’d been missing my whole life?

“You want more?” I said to River.

River nodded, and I pulled his pants even lower so that I could spank him. The sound of my palm striking his ass echoed in the room, and the sound was so satisfying.

River turned to me and looked me in the eyes. I was conflicted by what we were doing and how beautiful he looked. But it was like his eyes were screaming for more, so I gave him more. I spanked him until his ass got redder and redder. My erection was aching so much I knew I had to do something about it soon.

I withdrew my hand from River’s ass and saw how tender it looked. My heart wrenched at what I’d done to him. River noticed that I’d stopped, and he turned to me. His eyes looked wet like the reflection of the sidewalk after the rain.

“Don’t stop,” River said. “Please.”

I shook my head and stood up off my chair so fast that River fell to the ground.

“What the fuck are we doing right now?” I asked.

River looked up at me with his pants still around his knees.

“I don’t hit people,” I said. “I’m a lawyer so I should know right from wrong…this is so wrong.”

I felt disgusted with myself like the feeling of not showering for days. But my cock continued to throb in my pants, seeing River’s beautiful body sprawled out on the floor.

River pulled his pants up and stood in front of me.

“We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to,” he said.

River put a hand on my arm, and his touch was so tender.

“It’s wrong,” I said. “Look what I did to your ass.”

River pulled his pants back down and turned his head to take a look. “I like the pain. It feels so fucking good to me,” River said.

I wanted to ask him who’d hurt him in the past that made him think it was okay for someone to abuse him like what I’d just done. I felt like a monster.

“Well, I don’t want to give you that sort of pain,” I said.

“It’s my fault,” River said. “We went too fast. I shouldn’t have pressured you to spank me.”

I wanted to hold him at that moment. It seemed like the right thing to do. But I was too disgusted with myself to touch him any further. I led him back upstairs, out of the cold wine cellar, and we went up to the kitchen. I opened the freezer and took some ice and wrapped it around a dish towel. I went up to River, who was leaning against the side of the counter, and I pulled his pants down. I ran my hand softly over his ass, and he winced a bit at my touch. Then I put the ice on the red prints on his ass.

I sat down on one of the barstools, and River wedged himself between my legs. His hard cock was pressed up against mine.

“We can move a bit slower,” River said.

This whole thing was making me so uncomfortable. It just wasn’t me. I wasn’t attracted to men. But my body was reacting to River in ways that it never had before.

Why was my heart racing so quickly?

Why did I enjoy the warmth of his body so much?

River reached down, unbuttoned my pants and ran his hand gently over my briefs. We could both see the outline of my cock, visibly throbbing. River reached into my briefs and stroked me. His delicate hands moved up and down my shaft.

“You’re so big,” he said. “Wow, you’re so big.”

I groaned and tilted my head back. I found that when I closed my eyes, I could enjoy it more without thinking about how I was being jerked off by another guy. But I could still feel his cock pressed against my thigh.

What was I doing?

My mind was going a million miles a minute.

I could feel my muscles tense up. I was on the verge of an orgasm, and before I could warn River, I erupted all over River’s T-shirt. Ropes of come released out of me like I’d never seen before.

“What did we just do?” I mumbled, looking at the mess in front of me.

After I came, I was even more confused at what we’d just done. It felt like I was in a dream that I couldn’t control.

River’s hands were covered in my come, and when I looked down, I noticed that he must’ve stroked himself too. His come was dripping down my leg. Seeing another man’s come on my leg disgusted me, and I quickly went to the kitchen counter to wipe it off with a piece of paper towel and some water.

I looked at the time and was shocked at how late it was. Harry and Carter had been planning to move in that day, and they were going to be there any minute now.

“You have to go,” I said. “My brother, Harry, is coming over soon.”

“Oh...okay,” River said.

There was a bit of disappointment in his voice. But I didn’t want to have to explain to my brother who River was and what I had just done. I needed a moment to myself.

I could still see the red handprints I’d branded onto River before he pulled his pants back up. He looked down onto the ground without saying much.

“I’ll see you soon then?” River said.

I nodded and brought him to my front door. River turned to me as he went out the door. But I couldn’t stand to look at him at that moment. I was too disgusted with myself.

As he climbed into his car, I saw a bright red truck drive up and stop at my curb. I knew it were Harry and Carter. They were blocking the driveway, and they hadn’t noticed River about to back out.

Harry stepped out with a huge smile on his face. I was flustered from what just happened with River and how he was still parked on my driveway.

“What’s up, bro?” Harry said, coming over to hug me.

I tried my hardest to put a smile on my face and pretend like everything was okay.

Carter stepped out of the driver’s side of the truck and came over to me. He looked up at my house and then at Harry. “I can’t believe we’re going to be living here,” he said.

Harry saw River in his car. “Sorry, are we blocking you in?” Harry said.

River rolled down his windows. “Yeah, just trying to get out,” River said shyly.

I didn’t want to be rude, and I knew River was going to be there at Blue’s wedding with me. I knew I had to introduce him to Harry and Carter. But it was just bad fucking timing.

I went over to River and gestured for him to come out of his car. “This is my...friend, River,” I said.

River stepped out of his car and got out to shake their hands.

“Oh, you’re the guy that my brother’s bringing to Blue’s wedding?” Carter said.

River looked at me for approval before he nodded.

Harry laughed. “Well, I’m sorry you are the guinea pig for my bro’s crazy idea.”

River smiled. “. Wait. So you two aren’t the ones getting married?”

Carter shook his head. “No, though Harry has been talking nonstop about getting married now that his brother is.”

Harry rolled his eyes. “I mentioned it once,” he said.

“Okay, okay, can either one of you move out of the driveway so that River can back out?” I said, hating how awkward it was getting.

I wasn’t usually an awkward person. It was because of what River and I had done right before they’d came over that made me want him to get out of there as quick as possible.

“I can move it,” Carter said.

“Wait a minute. Are you going to Blue’s wedding rehearsal dinner tonight?” Harry asked River.

River shook his head and had no idea what Harry was talking about because I hadn’t told River about it. I wasn’t expecting River to go to that.

“You should go,” Harry said. “You’ll get to meet Blue and Carter for the first time if you haven’t already. And I’m guessing if you’re going to be Gray’s fake boyfriend, it’s probably important that you do so.”

River looked up at me, and I hated every second of that moment. But I didn’t want to be ruder than I already had been to him.

“Are you busy tonight?” I asked River.

“No, I was planning on having dinner with my roommate. But it’s not that important.”

“Well, maybe you should come to the rehearsal dinner,” I said.