Chapter 25
Sarah
Ah, Friday morning. My favorite mornings. It ushered in the last round of interviews before I ushered in the weekend, and I knew exactly what I wanted to do with mine. I wanted to call Mason up right after this interview, have him pick me up somewhere secretive, and go fuck in the back of his convertible somewhere. I wanted to paint my life with him as he slammed that cock into my body, and then I wanted to go home, call up Emma, and have some girl time.
I shivered at the thought of it all as I threw open the studio doors.
“Hey there, lover girl,” the security guard said.
“He-hi?” I asked.
“Way to go, Sarah!” someone called out.
“Thanks?”
“Here comes the hottie train, pulling into the station!”
I looked down at my clothes and wondered what the fuck was going on. Everyone in the studio was giving me these looks. Raking their eyes up and down my body while some people slapped me with high fives. I wasn’t wearing anything outstanding. If anything, I’d slept in too late and had to bring my outfit with me. I put my sunglasses on top of my head and walked around, seeing everyone eyeing me and gossiping with other people.
Maybe someone had taken pictures of the three of us out Wednesday night.
I didn’t know how that would spark some of the comments being thrown my way, but it was the only thing I could think of.
I walked into my dressing room and dumped everything onto the couch. I tossed my sunglasses down onto the coffee table before I took a good look at myself in the mirror. I looked refreshed, especially after the wonderful fuck I had a couple days ago. I planned on having many more this weekend before I came back to work on Monday.
It seemed that Mason Baker was good for my skin.
A rapid-fire knock came at the door, and I opened it up. My boss was smiling at me, his cheeks reddened from the exertion as he leaned up against my door.
“Took my advice, I see,” he said.
“What are you talking about?” I asked.
“The advice about Mason. That’s why your dressing room smelled the way it did after the two of you left here last week, wasn’t it?”
I felt myself grow weak in my knees. My eyes rose to a bunch of people huddled around a computer, and I ran toward all of them. I pushed them out of the way, earning comments and grumbles as I pushed some of them to the floor. Then, as my eyes settled on the screen, my heart fell to my toes.
There was that damn picture of Mason and I almost kissing at his fucking car after lunch that day.
“How the hell did that man still have that picture?” I asked breathlessly.
“Way to go, Sarah. You snagged a good one. People are going to be tuning in for fucking weeks,” my boss said.
“Get it, Sarah. Only you could snag that type of playboy and put him in his place,” someone said.
“No, no, no, no. You don’t get it. This is bad. Very, very bad,” I said.
“Probably not the best publicity, no. People on Twitter are already ripping you to shreds, calling you a hypocrite and mess. But, you’ve grown your followers by five-hundred thousand since this picture landed this morning.”
“This morning?” I asked.
“I can’t wait to see the ratings after this interview today,” my boss said.
“Do you care about anything else?” I asked. “I worked my ass off to gain the reputation I had, and now it’s all been shot to shit, and all you care about is how many people tune in?”
“Sarah, people tuning in is why you have a job. Scandal always draws in more viewers. If you want, you can make a formal statement, get all over your social media and spin it the way you spun your ex-boyfriend shit a month ago. It’ll be fine. You’ll bounce back. You always do,” my boss said.
I had no idea what to do. If this picture dropped this morning, Emma had already seen it. She may not tune into the show, but she was a pop culture junkie. This was going to be everywhere, and it was going to anger her in ways I’d never seen before.
Holy fuck, I was going to kill Mason.
“Hey, listen. I gotta get back to my office,” my boss said. “The media frenzy is stifling. Prepare a formal statement if you want to, but start getting ready for your interview. I have a feeling the person’s gonna want to interview early and get out of here. Paparazzi and news stations are gathering outside.”
“Are you fucking kidding me?” I asked, groaning.
I went back into my office and immediately called Mason. He picked up before the first ring was even through, and I didn’t even give him a chance to speak.
“This is exactly why I didn’t want to do this bullshit with you,” I said.
“How the fuck did that guy still have that photo?” he asked.
“I don’t know. You tell me.”
“What the hell does that mean?” he asked.
“It’s been painfully obvious that you wanted to leak this to the media. I saw your face when we destroyed that SIM card. You didn’t want to do it. I knew that look. You wanted to be seen with a powerful woman like me, so you could rehabilitate your image or look like a bigger playboy for bringing down the girl with morals or some shit.”
“I don’t know what the hell kind of shit you’re talking, but that’s not the case. And anyway, if I wanted to date a woman with influence, I’d pick one who was known outside of her own fucking home state.”
“We’re not dating, Mason. We never were!” I exclaimed.
“Listen, I’m dealing with a media frenzy right now—”
“Oh, and I’m not? Look at me, I’m Mason Baker, I have a dick, so the media only wants me?”
“Sarah, take a deep breath—”
“I’m done taking deep breaths with you,” I said. “This is what I was talking about. They’re slaughtering me all over social media for abandoning my morals and sinking to the low of dating you, and I guarantee you they’ll do nothing but pump up your image. And it’ll be because I’m the one in that picture. Let’s get that straight right fucking now.”
“Why the hell are you so mad at me?” he asked. “I’m not the one who leaked the photo.”
“I don’t fucking believe you, but even if I did, you’re the one who wouldn’t stop, who wouldn’t take no for an answer. You were the one who got my assistant fired by lying to her to get my information. You were the one who sent my boss shit, so you could get into this studio. You used your influence and your money and your power and your name to get close to me when I told you no time and time again. This is all on you!”
“Then take responsibility for finally caving on your morals and saying yes, Sarah Williams. You didn’t have to say yes. You could’ve blocked my number and had me escorted off the premises of your studio, but you didn’t. You could’ve kicked me out of your dressing room, but instead, you spread those beautiful thighs for me and allowed me to do what we both wanted.”
“You’re a disgusting pig,” I said.
“And you’re a misguided little girl.”
“I have to go,” I said.
“Why?” he asked.
“Because I hate you, and I have to call Emma.”
“Sarah, wait.”
“What? You gonna call me a scared little bitch for listening to what you have to say?” I asked.
“I like spending time with you.”
“Shut the fuck up.”
“I like seeing you, Sarah.”
“I’m hanging up now, Mason.”
“I enjoy every second we spend together, and I need you to understand that. I didn’t leak this photo, and you’re right. My reputation will skyrocket because it’s you, and yours will drop because it’s me. I get that.”
“I can’t handle you anymore. Please go away.”
I hung up the phone as tears poured down my face. My life was falling apart. One stupid little word and my entire reputation was tarnished. Emma was going to hate me, and I had no idea how I was going to fix that friendship. My boss was all over us dating, and I had no idea how I was going to get it through to him that we were never dating. I sniffled, wiping the tears from my cheeks as a knock came at my door.
And when I opened it up, my boss was standing there with a smile on his face.
“Can I come in?”
“No. And for once, you better listen.”
“Fine, but we do need to talk,” he said.
“About what?” I asked.
“Our interview today does want to go early, so we had the station announce it. They’ve pushed the lunchtime talk show back an hour, and they’re filling it with your interview.”
“What?” I asked.
“You need to get ready. You’re live during the most high-traffic hour of the day. And it’s all thanks to that strategically-leaked photo of you and Mason.”
“Not because of my hard work, my dedication, and my purpose?” I asked.
“Sarah, get over it. You’re a talk show host in Dallas, Texas. And a woman. This is how women rise the ranks. Scandal. Get over it, get ready, and get out there. Get us the ratings we need to put this show where we all know it needs to be.”
Any little string of hope I clung to snapped at that moment. He was right. I was never going to climb to where I wanted to be without linking myself with powerful men. I had elevated myself as far as I was going to go on my own, and it was going to take a man on my arm that the public wanted to digest fully for me to go any further.
“I’m not happy about this,” I said.
“I know that,” my boss said.
“I’m not making a statement on the picture, either. I’m just doing the interview.”
“Just do your normal thing. That’s all I’m asking.”
“Mac?”
“Yeah, Sarah?”
“Did you ever believe in me? In what I could accomplish with this show?”
In that very moment, I watched my boss of three years drop every single wall he’d ever thrown up. I saw him become human for a split second, and he finally realized what he was looking at. A scared little girl who wanted to make a difference who was realizing that maybe she didn’t.
Maybe this scared little girl didn’t make a difference after all.
“I’ve always believed in your show. It’s why I took a pay cut in order to work it.”
“You what?” I asked.
“We’ll talk about it later. Right now, I heard Angie running down the hallway to get you ready. You’re on in forty-five.”
“Come on, girl,” Angie said. “Let’s get you ready for your lunchtime debut.”
But all I wanted to do was climb under a rock and cry. I’d never felt so helpless in my entire life. The thing I’d been striving toward since I was moved to the three o’clock hour was getting my show moved to lunchtime, and it was happening.
But it was happening because of that picture, and not because of my hard work.
“You ready?” Angie asked.
I stared at myself in the mirror and sighed. I sighed for the revelation I’d just come across. I sighed for the argument I’d just had with Mason. I sighed for the argument to come with Emma. But most of all? I sighed for my show.
I didn’t know if I believed in it anymore.
“Sure,” I said, shrugging. “I’m ready.”