Chapter 4

Dra

I wake up and feel Sunshine curled up to my back. I don’t know why this woman doesn’t get the message that we are over. I don’t want to be an asshole to her. Sunshine has been good to me in her own way. To tell the truth, I only let this thing between us happen because I had a weak night. A night of conflict and pain that Sunshine’s touch took away. For a little while anyway. To tell the truth I have been lost for a while now. I was, or maybe still am, in love with Callie and the hell of it is, I had her but the loyalty to the Troubled Fathoms MC took her away from me. Then there is her sister Maddie. So young and so sweet. I took her innocence away because she is so much like Callie that it was like having a piece of Callie with me. I am a twisted damned to hell soul. She haunts my dreams. When I am asleep and awake and now this.

The minute I saw Betsy, I knew she was my daughter. No, I felt it. It hit me center point in my chest. Devil thinks I reacted in a bad way, but I think I held my shit together damn good. I should have stayed and taken care of things then and there, instead I listened to everyone and got Sunshine out of there. I don’t know what I was doing taking Sunshine to meet Callie. I know it was petty. I wanted Callie to see I had moved on and had no intention of going after Maddie. I still don’t know if I believe what Callie and Devil said about Callie thinking I knew about Betsy. Maddie never struck me as the type of person to lie or to be so devious. It goes to show how much we didn’t know each other.

Maddie has been on the run for over nine months now. I have called in favor after favor trying to get eyes on her and Betsy. I have hired private detectives and there is nothing. Every time she is in our grasp she takes off again before we get there. It’s been months since we have heard anything. The last lead was in New York and no one knows why she would be there. She has no ties there and she was using an alias and when she left New York the alias disappeared. I have someone watching her Aunt Deb’s and Micah’s bank accounts and there is nothing unaccounted for. I don’t think Callie would help Maddie financially because of the paper trail and if I put a trace on the Feral Steel MC accounts then Oz or Tito will find it. The Troubled Fathoms MC cannot afford to cut ties with the Feral Steel MC but if we don’t get a lead soon on Betsy I may be forced to approach Krill about it. I know my brother will back me on this. He was ready to go to war when he found out about Betsy. He’s as obsessed with finding her as I am. We both lost our Dad and Grams in an explosion from a dispute over land and we both value family. Hell, the whole Troubled Fathoms MC felt our loss and they want Betsy here where she belongs, with her family. It will happen, and as soon as I find Maddie, I will put my plan into motion. I have contacted an attorney and I know I am in for a long fight but anything worth having is worth a hard fight and my daughter is worth it all. I will be bringing her home and she will be staying.

“You ready for another round this morning? You were insatiable last night. I told you we could be good together if you would just chill out about this Maddie thing. Just because she has your kid doesn’t mean we can’t be together. I’ll be a good mom to your kid. We can hire one of those nannies. I have some friends who can help out until then,” Sunshine says in a sleepy voice. I knew last night would come back and bite me in the ass. Sunshine and I had been apart for the last two months but last night I hit the bottle and she was available and willing.

“Not happening. Last night changed nothing. You are not moving back into my room and we are not together. Last night was nice, but all it was is sex. You got yours and I got mine and today we go our separate ways.” I know I need to be straight with Sunshine and if I ever want Betsy here with me then this needs to stop. No more club girls for now.

“You don’t mean that. You know how good we are together Dra. I’m still your ol’ lady. I have been giving you time and space to miss me. I can’t take it anymore. I can’t stand seeing you with the other women here at the club. We can make a family. Just give us a chance,” Sunshine whines. “I still have the cut you gave me, so we are still official.”

“No, we aren’t anything and I have made this very clear. I want the cut back, but you conveniently never have it with you. If you mean trying to get Krill and the rest of my brothers to fuck you is giving me space, then you have never understood what this club is about. If I had not already made it very clear that we were over then none of my brothers would have given you any attention.” I look at Sunshine and I see what I am saying is not getting through. “When I find Maddie and Betsy then I am bringing them back to Colorado and that leaves no room for you in my life. What we had was good while it lasted but it has run its course. I never promised you forever.” I can see the pissed off look in her eyes. I won’t make this situation something that it isn’t. I also am not lying to her and giving her false hopes.

“Maddie does not have what it takes to be an ol’ lady. That meek little girl cannot give you what I can. You know it, she knows it and I know it. I know exactly how to satisfy you Dra. If Maddie had been what you wanted and needed you would have made her yours already.” Sunshine is pushing her tits up and trying to look sexy, but today it is not working. “Set me up in an apartment and you can come and see me when you need me. I’m not selfish, I’ll share. Your daughter needs you. I will be there when you need me. You can have Maddie and your kid living somewhere else. I know you are not going to separate your daughter from her mom. I understand you need to set them up close.” I know I should nip this in the bud right now. This is only going to be trouble, but Sunshine is right, I don’t know when I will find Maddie. Maybe I’ll keep Sunshine around until I can get Maddie back here. There’s no need in denying myself what I need. Maddie is the one that is in the wrong here.

“Sunshine, I will set you up in an apartment, but I want that cut back. You are not my ol’ lady, I’ll give you a place to stay and bankroll the bills. I am not making any promises past that.” Sunshine smiles like the cat that just ate the fucking canary. Trouble just like I said. I know this is going to come back and bite me in the ass. What if I never get my daughter? What if I can’t track Maddie down? She seems to be two steps ahead of me. I underestimated her once and I won’t make that same mistake again. When I find her, because I won’t stop until I do, then I will take the steps to insure my rights to my daughter. Maddie may have gotten under my skin, but she went too far keeping my daughter away from me and it is time for her to face the consequences and feel my wrath. I have my plan. I’ve spoken to an attorney and I know exactly how I am going to proceed when I have Maddie within my grasp. She just better be ready for what is coming.