Chapter 18
Farrah
By Wednesday afternoon, I was finally on my way back to Packwood. I had left on Monday morning seeking additional medical opinions, and since I’d gone from doctor to doctor, I’d had what seemed like a battery of tests run on me.
There was nothing more invasive than tests that prodded and poked at my most intimate parts. I hated going through that once a year, never mind going through it again and again. But it had to be done. I wanted answers and I would go through whatever I needed to, to find out if I was really pregnant, and if this baby was something I could hope for.
By the time the doctors were done with me on Tuesday, it was too late to drive back to Packwood. I had phoned Lee and explained it to him, and he had been more than understanding. The nearly three hour trip wasn’t something he wanted me to do alone in the dark, especially after a long day.
“Will you come back tomorrow?” Lee had asked, after he made sure I was okay to stay at home for a night. There had been an urgency to have me back and I had told him that I would drive through as soon as I was able.
I really liked the idea of being wanted, and I hadn’t felt that way in a long time. I hadn’t even felt wanted when I’d been with Jim, especially toward the end. All I remembered feeling with Jim was like a failure.
Everything about Lee made me feel fresh and alive. He wanted me and I wanted him, and I liked it. The contrast was stark, compared to what my life used to be like. Things were all very unsure between us, with a future that was filled with question marks, but when it came down to what passed between us, I’d already experienced more good with Lee than I’d ever had with Jim.
I couldn’t believe I’d thought Jim was the be-all and end-all of my universe once upon a time. It seemed strange now that I’d thought myself so hopelessly in love with that man; when what I felt with Lee in such a short time was so much stronger than what I had felt in the entire five years Jim and I had been together. But this was how I grew.
When I met Jim, I’d been younger, and foolish. I thought I knew everything about the world, and the promises and dangers it held. I also thought I knew everything about love.
Today, I was more mature, and I’d learned that not every ending was a happy one. And that some stories were more nightmares than fairy tales.
Lee didn’t seem like the kind of man that would hurt me. Even though I’d thought the same about Jim at first, but this was different.
I was willing to take a chance with Lee. Not only because I was having his baby, but because somehow, I was drawn to him. He had unlocked a side of me I hadn’t known existed. Something worth exploring.
When I finally arrived in Packwood it was almost three in the afternoon. Even on the days Lee had the early shift I knew he only ended at four. So, unless he was out on his ATV, he would likely be at the ranger office.
I drove straight there, thinking how different I felt today, compared to when I had come here on Sunday. I’d had such a huge burden to bear, and had been terrified that Lee would be angry with me, that he would reject me, and think I had set him up. Telling him about the pregnancy, however right it had been to do it, was terrifying. But now, I drove to him with excitement. I was going to see Lee without trepidation. I didn’t know what we were, but I was very attracted to him, and thankfully had received all good news from the doctors after the tests. I was in a good space and things were starting to turn out right for me.
What a contrast to how I had felt before.
I parked in front of the ranger’s office and climbed out, walking to the front door. I knew there was another office but the door was shut. When I knocked on Lee’s door and walked in, he looked up and a smile crossed his face.
“You’re back,” he said.
I nodded and walked toward the desk. A look of hunger crossed Lee’s face and my stomach tightened. When he looked at me like this, I melted. He had obviously missed me. He moved toward me, sliding his hands into my hair around my neck and kissed me. The kiss was urgent immediately and I knew exactly what he wanted. The bulge in his pants when he ground himself against me only confirmed it.
“Where’s your partner?” I asked, through our kisses.
“He’s out on the ATV checking trails. He won’t be back for another hour.” Lee took half a step toward me and kicked the door closed, then reached over and locked it. His lips were on mine again. He walked me to the side of the room and pushed me against the wall, pinning me with his body. He was fully in control. He ground his body against me, lips mashing against mine and his tongue in my mouth. He lifted his hand and pulled the string to close the blinds.
I didn’t know men could multitask.
When we were shielded from prying eyes, Lee slid his hands down to my breasts and massaged them. I gasped into his mouth. He made me feel beautiful every time he touched me.
“I missed you,” Lee mumbled against my lips.
I didn’t have a chance to respond with anything more than a moan. He slid his hands down my arms, then lifted them above my head, pinning my wrists against the wall with one large hand. The other, he slid down my body and into my pants. I gasped when his fingers found my clit and for a while I was balanced between the hand on my wrists and the hand between my legs that had me teetering on the edge.
Before I orgasmed, Lee retrieved his hand and undid my pants. He slid them down so he had more space to work with. He let go of my arms and dropped my pants to my ankles. I lifted one foot out so I could spread my legs wider and Lee kneeled in front of me. He closed his mouth on my pussy and I cried out as he started sucking at my clit, increasing the wetness that as already between my legs. He was making sure I was ready for him, but he hadn’t needed to do much. From the moment he’d looked at me like I was something he desired, I’d instantly been wet for him.
Lee didn’t stop the onslaught on my clit until I orgasmed, which didn’t take very long. He seemed to know exactly how to push me to the edge in no time at all. He knew how to push all my buttons.
After the first orgasm I was trembling, my body wired. Lee stood up and unzipped his pants. He dropped them far enough to pull out his dick. He kissed me again and I could faintly taste myself on his lips which woke something primal in me.
Lee didn’t give me much time to think about it. He put his hand on my thigh and lifted my leg. Following his lead, I hiked it up. Lee held onto it, holding it against his side so I was splayed open, then guided himself with his other hand until he pushed against my entrance. I gasped and tipped my hips, giving him more access. Lee slid into me and I cried out. I tried to be quiet but it was hard when he was so good at fucking me.
Without hesitating, Lee starting sliding in and out of me. The feeling was amazing and I closed my eyes, letting him take me. He pushed into me, fucking me against the wall and it was the best sex I’d ever had. It was rough and urgent, quick and amazing.
After only a short while, I orgasmed again. Lee pressed his lips against mine to muffle my cries, since we were still in a semi-public place. Anyone could be right outside the office.
When my orgasm subsided, Lee pulled out of me. He wasn’t done with me yet but I was glad when he spun me toward the desk. My legs were starting to give out and I struggled to keep myself up.
After Lee spun me around, I was facing the desk. I knew what he wanted and I was more than happy to give it to him. This was every man’s fantasy in one way or another and right now it was mine, too. I leaned over onto the desk, offering myself to him. With a low sound from the back of his throat, Lee put his hands on my hips and pushed into me again from behind. I braced myself on my desk as he started fucking me. I moaned and gasped, struggling not to cry out as he pounded into me from behind. The feeling of ecstasy built inside of me again and before long, another orgasm racked my body.
Lee came at the same time, releasing into me with a deep thrust and a short cry. He pumped into me and I shuddered, and lost myself on his desk. My body contracted, my insides clamped down on Lee’s pulsating dick and we both groaned.
And then it was over. Lee slid out of me because this wasn’t the place to lie together and revel in the aftermath. We had to get dressed.
Lee offered me a box of tissues to clean up—tissues he must have acquired since I had sniveled in his office the last time—and I realized how much I needed them. I was a mess between my legs, so slick with our sex, but I loved it.
Turning his back to give me a bit of privacy while I cleaned up, Lee got himself back together, too. When I was decent, I turned, and when he looked at me I saw such affection in his eyes, a lump rose in my throat.
I bit back tears, thinking I wasn’t going to be that woman. I wasn’t going to be the one to cry after sex. But being wanted was a feeling I wasn’t used to, and the way Lee looked at me now wasn’t about the sex we’d just had.
“Are you okay?” Lee asked.
I nodded. I didn’t know how to explain it to him without sounding like an idiot.
“Let me take care of the last few things here, and then we can head home,” Lee said.
Home. I liked the sound of that.
Lee opened the blinds again and unlocked the door so that someone could come in to talk to him if they needed to. I sat down in the extra chair and watched Lee sit behind his desk, doing paperwork. He was hot when he was trying to concentrate. Finally, he gave up.
“I can always do this some other time,” he said. “You’re too beautiful for me to think about work right now.”
I blushed when he said it. He stood and took my hand and we walked out of the office together.