CHAPTER 26
Aidan
I woke up tucked around Elsa’s body to the sound of my phone vibrating from my jeans. A Part of me wanted to ravage her, but I rolled over and gave my phone the obligatory check in case there was an emergency. I sighed when I saw that it was from a former friend in the Army berating me as he liked to do from time to time. I wasn’t the only one that had this cancer since I wasn’t the only one exposed to it. Dan had it as well as most of the other men that were present that day.
The difference was that he was looking into the radical treatment for it, something relatively new that they were still somewhat experimenting with. It was a more aggressive form of chemo and radiation that would take a toll on me when I didn’t have much life left to begin with. I’d damaged too many people and destroyed too many lives. Karma just wasn’t in my favor as it should be.
Besides, I’d seen my aunt go through breast cancer, and she’d been miserable and sick all through her treatment before she died. I didn’t want to put myself through something worse than that in my last days. This was a better option, enjoying my days and being here with Elsa as I said my goodbyes to those that meant the most to me.
Dan was livid that I hadn’t even looked into the option of treatment. He told me that I was still young with plenty of life left and that I should consider that as well as my family. I groaned inwardly and dropped the phone on the floor without responding.
I’d checked the clock first. It was past eight thirty, and I knew that we had some driving to do after we had breakfast with Melissa and her family. I was just going to leave town, but they’d roped me into it, and I figured why not? I was never coming back, and I owed her this.
I knew that I was awake for the day as I slowly moved out of the bed and stared down at Elsa. She’d been wild last night, giving me everything I demanded and more. I knew that it wasn’t necessarily fair to take my emotions out on her that way that I had, but her eager response and breathy sounds told me that she wanted that as much as I did. She was so innocent yet so willing with me, and I felt myself harden again. I couldn’t help but take her again after she went down on me either last night. Her mouth was the best thing I’d ever felt around my cock apart from her pussy, and I pressed my lips together.
I decided to get some coffee from the lobby and cool myself off with the fresh air I’d get during the short walk. She deserved to sleep a little more, and I watched her smile widely in her sleep as I shook my head. My beautiful Angl. I stood and pulled my jeans on from the night before and a clean T-shirt from my bag before I slid the key into my pocket and ambled across the parking lot that had a few cars left this morning. I had no recollection of anything last night except for driving here in a lust fueled rage and getting the room. I’d experienced emotions and mixed them with sex before but last night was downright explosive. I went at her like an animal, and she loved it.
It wasn’t a bad way to spend my final days. That thought made me face reality again and I pushed open the door of the lobby to see just a few couples eating and some others checking out. I made myself a cup of coffee quietly and poured Elsa some orAng juice before I left the building to go back to the room.
On the way, I noticed an older couple embracing by their car. They had to be in their sixties at least, but love radiated from them and I stopped to give them a moment and just soak it all in. Sure, I’d proposed to Melissa back in the old days, but it wasn’t like it seemed to be for them in my memory. I loved her and still did as a cherished friend, but I’d willingly ended it. Even the others didn’t seem to be the same as what I was witnessing, and I watched as they pulled away and separated their locked lips. The woman caught me watching them and smiled my direction before the man went over to the office. “Good morning,” she called across the lot as I grinned.
“Morning. I’m sorry I was staring but you don’t see that a lot these days. How long have you been married?” I asked as she smiled happily.
“Forty years. It feels like yesterday to me.” She confessed as I whistled in admiration. I felt it again that I’d never have that, and I told her to have a good day while I walked back into the room. The bed was empty, but I heard water running in the bathroom, and I set the drinks down before I went to crack the partially opened door a little wider.
Elsa was brushing her teeth wearing my shirt from the night before, and she looked beautiful as it hung on her small frame. Her face was bare of makeup too even though she’d been trying it out every day since we’d been on the road. I liked her without it; it reminded me of the first time that we met and her innocence. “Morning.”
“Hi,” she said as she smiled at me after rinsing out her mouth. “Coffee?”
“Yeah, I made us a cup and brought you some juice as well. We’ll be eating in an hour, so I figured that would tide us over.” My eyes wandered over her body as she walked over to me and shyly slid her arms around my neck. Elsa kissed me, and I found myself pulling her to me for a deeper kiss as she moaned. “Have I created a monster?” I teased as I claimed her lips again.
“I think you have,” Elsa agreed as she pressed herself closer to me. I lifted her, and she wrapped her legs around me as I made my way to the bed where I kissed her thoroughly. Flashes of the couple outside filled my mind, and I wondered if I could ever have that if my circumstances were different. I wondered if I could have that with Elsa.
Clothes were quickly removed, and I was sheathing myself from the box of condoms that I’d bought after meeting her. We had sex with her pressed to the mattress and her legs wrapped around me, and I knew that I didn’t have to hold back. She liked it the way that I did, and I listened to her moans and whimpers as I drove myself into her welcoming body again and again. I heard her voice rise into a keening sound and knew that she was coming, and I let myself go at the same time. “What are those things that you put on?” Elsa asked me after I’d cleaned up and she was getting ready to take a shower.
“It’s called a condom. They protect you from pregnancy and both of us from sexually transmitted diseases, should one partner have any.” The wide-eyed look that she gave me made me smile. “I don’t have any since I’m very careful. I doubt that you do as well.” That earned a giggle, and she disappeared into the bathroom with a pink tint to her face as I sipped the coffee that had cooled off. The last three times with her played through my mind, and I shook my head slowly.
I decided to join her in the shower to save some water and was happy to find that she’d left the door unlocked. Elsa loved showers and took one every chance she could when we were in a hotel room. She grinned at me and moved so I could join her as she used the tiny soap on her soft skin. She was so beautiful, and I kissed her wet hair as she smiled. We didn’t have sex again, but she did get me off with her hand as I directed her through the process. Everything this woman did was good, and I realized I didn’t think it would be this good.
They cleaned up the room and carried the bags to the car as he told her that they’d be driving for a while. She nodded, and he glanced at her before he went into the lobby to take care of the bill while she slipped into the front seat and pulled her hair into a messy bun. She claimed to love them.
We had enjoyed breakfast with Matt and Melissa and the amped up twins before we took off to leave Wisconsin and there were hugs all around. I felt tears in my eyes as I said goodbye to the kids and they asked me to bring Elsa back to see them since I knew that wasn’t possible.
Once we were driving, my mind moved into the future. I surprised myself when I found myself talking to Elsa about Angela and how she’d been my therapist after I ended things with Melissa. That event had thrown me into a worse place than I’d been in before and she watched me as I talked about it. A few glances her way showed me that the story was getting to her a bit, but I hoped it wasn’t too much as I explained how we started dating once I was released from her care. Elsa’s eyes widened as she heard that we’d gotten pregnant within three months of dating, and I could see the question on her lips. “Angela was on a form of birth control on her own. When you’re together with someone, you can have faith in that. It just failed us, and we had to grow up pretty quickly.”
“What happened? Where is your child?” Elsa asked me as I let out a sigh.
“She lost it a couple of months later. It’s called a miscarriage. I had already dealt with the military stuff and losing Melissa, and it broke me. She was used to being a therapist and tried to comfort me while she pushed her own sadness aside and it just exploded on us. We were both excited even though it happened so fast, which surprised me. I didn’t think I’d ever want that for myself.” Elsa moved closer to me, and I found myself holding her with one arm as I took in her warmth. “I ended up going back out into the field after that.”
I hoped that it wasn’t too much for her to handle and pulled her closer and I smiled at the thought that I needed her in part.