Chapter 34
Sherry
“Something is different about you Sherry. What is going on with you? It seems like every time I see you, it has been months in between. You have this look to you now. Explain yourself.”
I laughed and the nosiness of my mother. I really don’t think she could help it and in one way, I was glad that someone noticed the differences. I felt like I had been forever changed and it just seemed right that it would have been changed on the outside as well.
“Nothing much. I have been working a lot and am just tired.”
“You look like you are sick. Are you not feeling good? I swear the city is where everyone is overworked and sickly. What would possess someone to want that as a life choice, I will never understand.”
Well, she wasn’t being subtle.
“The city is exciting. I have just been off a little bit lately. I am sure it is all the changes and excitement. I wouldn’t worry about it too much.”
“You are feeling off, huh?”
She checked my temperature with her hand as if it was the thermometer herself and she would be instantly able to see if I was too hot or not. I didn’t know what to say to her about all of it. All I knew was that if I didn’t say something soon, she was going to guess right.
Rosalyn looked at me and narrowed her eyes, finally coming back with a smile that made me nervous.
“It is because of that boy you said was coming, Dennis, right?”
“Me and Dennis broke up mom, so I don’t think it has anything to do with him.”
“Well you never know. Sometimes life has a way of making us miss the one that we are supposed to be with.”
“Trust me, I don’t miss Dennis. He was ice, don’t get me wrong, but he wasn’t what I was really looking for.”
Mom gave me this look that I couldn’t hold for long. “Well then who is it that you are looking for? Are you looking for the perfect man child? I promise you he doesn’t exist.”
“No, not perfect, just perfect for me.”
She sighed and I could tell that she wanted me settled and ready to give her grandchildren. It was almost impossible to keep it from her because I knew that she was going to be ecstatic. I also knew that the first thing after I told her that she was going to ask me was who the father was. It would literally be the next thig out of her mouth.
“So, have you found this perfect for you man yet?”
I had and I was bursting to tell her, but it wasn’t all what it appeared. I was stuck in a sore position and I didn’t know what to do about it. Charlie still wasn’t even really talking to me because he had found out about it. It was still too fresh and I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to do about it all. I felt like a crap and I knew it was because I didn’t have an easy answer for any of it. I wanted to tell the world, but I was still afraid of what was going to happen when I did. Charlie had made it clear that the last thing that he wanted was for us to end.
“I don’t know.”
“You don’t know? Well that is a step up isn’t it? Does that mean that you are dating finally?”
“I wouldn’t say dating, but I have seen one guy more than a few times and I am starting to think that I have fallen for him. He is great, nice to me and everything that I imagined.”
“But?”
“Well I don’t know if it is really meant to be. I mean, how do you know? I don’t want to fall in love and then get my heart broken. I have seen too many women go through it and I don’t want to be like that. I want to be able to travel and only come home when I have to. This is what I think about anyways.”
“Being with someone isn’t going to take that away, as long as you pick the right man. I wish that you would find happiness. You and your brother seem to run away from it. I am never going to get grandchildren this way.”
I was trying hard not to let it out, but it wasn’t the first time I had heard of her woes about grandchildren. She was convinced that it was never going to happen and I wanted to desperately tell her that she had one on the way.
“It may not be such a long wait mom. You never know. I have a feeling that it is going to turn around. I have faith that it will.”
She eyed me. “What are you saying? Have you found a man to marry and share your life with?”
We weren’t from kids to marriage and the latter I knew nothing about. I hadn’t even told Rex of my predicament and I wasn’t ready to, not yet. I didn’t want mom thinking along those lines because she may very well be disappointed.
“I wouldn’t go that far, but having grandchildren doesn’t always include that.”
Rosalyn turned and looked at me with those big eyes of hers. “So tell me Sherry, is this how this is supposed to be? Do you have something to tell me…”
She had this look in her eyes of suspicion and I knew that she had put it together. About time because this ring around the rosy was tiresome at best.
“You are pregnant?!”
About that time the men walked in from outside, my dad included and suddenly I was horrified. This is not how I wanted it all to go. I couldn’t even meet Rex’s eyes, even though I could feel them on me.