Molly

“Why do you keep looking at me like that Molly?”

“Because I know that you’re up to something. You’re always up to something and I don’t know what it is. It makes me nervous.”

He grinned at me and told me that he was glad that he made me nervous.

I wasn’t. I didn’t want to feel this way, not again. I knew that as soon as he got what he wanted, Chris would be gone again. He wanted me to come with him. He mentioned it so long ago and then again when we were at the restaurant. He doesn’t get that this is my home. It’s been my home for a long time and it’s the only place that I feel like I can be myself.

“I’ve missed the way you bite your lip when you get this way. Nothing has changed with you Molly. You are still just as hot as I remember you being.”

“You are flattering me again. That must mean that you want something from me.”

“And you know what I want. I’ve missed us being together Molly and the way you felt inside, I’m inclined to believe that you aren’t nearly as taken care of as you should be. You came so quickly earlier, it must mean that no one is giving what you need. Word around town is that you haven’t been with anyone in a long time.”

“Bill is the town now?”

He shrugged and I promised myself that next time I saw Bill I was going to throttle him for saying that. I know that they were good friends for a long time, but that didn’t mean that we hadn’t been friends longer. He shouldn’t have told him that because now Chris was looking at me as if he was ready to claim me.

I moved back, physically to put some distance between us. He had powerful hands, magical fingers and the rest of him was just as talented. It was impossible for me not to want to do the same thing that we had done so many times before. We weren’t good at many things when it came to relationships, but me and Chris were damn good making love. I wanted him to stay in Nome, but Chris still scared the crap out of me. I didn’t want to be taking the chance of being with him again until I knew that he was actually going to stay around for a while.

“You just got back Chris. I don’t think we should be doing this. We’ve already went too far. I don’t want to be a little fling that you have while you are back home for a while. I didn’t like being left last time and I really don’t want to do it again.”

“I’m not promising that I will stay, but it is never a fling with you Molly. You’ve always been more to me.”

He was getting closer and I still wasn’t sure that I could ward off the feelings that I felt rising up in me. He said things that were so sweet, but I still didn’t know if they were real or made up because they sounded too good. He never did promise anything. It was something he said a lot and it should have been the reminder that nothing was how it was supposed to be. Chris was the sort of man that would take off at the drop of the hat and I would never see him again. It was hard to get close, knowing that I was just going to hurt myself another time. This time it would be worse because I was walking into it with my eyes wide open.

I put my hand up like it was supposed to stop him and I tried to figure out what I was going to say. I can’t think when he is looking at me like that and I needed to be able to think. It was one of those moments when it was rather necessary.

“I had my drink, now I’m going to bed Chris. Let’s get a good night sleep so that we can tackle the work we have tomorrow.”

“I don’t need much sleep Molly.”

“Well I do and if you get close to me, I’m not going to get any.”

“So you admit that there is something between us?”

He sounded like he was happy about it. That was the last emotion that I was and I was more confused than anything else. I wanted him here and with me, but at the same time I wish he hadn’t come back to mess with my head. The fact that all of this was because of some money, a sell out and an inheritance just made it all the more complicated. I needed to get away from Chris before he made it ten times as bad.

Chris didn’t come any closer and of that I was thankful. He had a way of pinning me with his eyes, but I relented and went up the stairs. I should have run, but I wanted to have some dignity left. All that changed when I had to take a bath later to get the raw feeling of need out of my body. He made me crazy, it was that simple.

I got upstairs and I was able to breathe a little bit. He wasn’t following me up and I was able to have a few moments to myself. I went to take a shower, thinking that it would help me clear my mind, but instead it only made things worse.

The hot water felt like good as it fell on my erect nipples and it wasn’t long before I was just as needy as when I started out this day. My mind went to his fingers and hands touching me, his lips on mine and it didn’t take much to push me to touch myself. With my eyes closed, it felt like it was Chris, though my fingers weren’t as talented as his were. He had a way of making me feel like I was going to explode and turn into an inferno at any moment. It wasn’t that good, but I came just the same and started to feel a little better after my temperature went back down.

I left the bathroom feeling a little guilty and the more I thought about what I was made to do, the more nervous I got about it all. What the hell had I been thinking bringing him to my house? I should have known better. At the time, it made all of the sense in the world, but now I wasn’t sure what in the world I was going to do. Maybe by the end of the week I would be happy that he was gone. I would have failed his parents, but I can only do so much. I can only take so much rather.