CHAPTER 18
Declan
Madeline kissed me hungrily as I tilted my face to deepen it. This was all I thought about during dinner and it seemed as though she wanted it as well. I felt differently from the time I slept casually with that other woman, wanting more from this even as guilt filled me. My wife hadn’t been gone that long in the eyes of some and I didn’t know the rules about moving on. I wasn’t even certain how far I wanted to take this, but her sweet mouth just made me come back for more. We both stripped in between long kisses and soon Madeline was bare before me. I pushed her legs open and moved my mouth between them, finding her wet and ready for me. I traced my tongue over her folds and listened to her moans as I got closer to her needy clit. Once I found that, she jerked and dropped back against the cushions. I loved that Madeline was a clit girl and planned to make her come a lot that way. I tongued her firmly as she writhed before me, finally drawing her into my mouth as she cried out my name. I looked up her body, taking in her firm nipples and tense face. She was so close, and I scraped my teeth over her skin as she let go, coming and filling my mouth with her juices. I drank them all on and moved to kick my boxers off and stroke my cock.
Madeline recovered and crawled over me, taking me into her hand before sliding down over me. Fuck, she felt good. Madeline was so tight and wet, and I felt myself deep inside with just one movement, making us both moan. She moved up and back down as I told her to touch herself, watching as her finger slipped down over her swollen nub. Madeline began to ride me harder as I started to rock with her, still stroking as she bit down on her lip. I felt her tighten around me before she flooded my cock with heat, coming a second after she did.
“I thought it was only like this in books and movies,” she told me as she rolled beside me, glancing down at the couch. “I had no idea. Maybe I waited too long.”
“You made the right decision for yourself,” I assured her as I hoped that it was true. I dropped back and breathed in deeply as the sounds of moans echoed through the room, making us both laugh. Madeline seemed to relax with that and sipped her wine as she pulled her legs up to shield her body.
We finished the movie and went to bed where I pulled out a vibrator, asking if I could use it on Madeline. She agreed and propped herself on some pillows and spread her legs open. I placed it against her, turning it to a low speed as she arched her back. Madeline moaned as I turned it up, moving it up and down over her as her nipples hardened. She gripped the sheets as I kept going, turning it higher as the sound filled the room. I leaned forward to suck a nipple into my mouth as I kept teasing her and she cried out my name. I was hard as a rock by now and once she came for me, trembling and screaming, I pulled away and slipped my cock inside of her again. I fucked her with hard jerks, aroused as fuck by what just happened. She pulled me against her and rocked with me, groaning as I filled her and moved deeper. I knew that I was going to come fast, and I let go, stilling as I filled her. Madeline clawed at my back, moaning incoherently as I dropped against her and pressed my face into her neck.
I was exhausted at this point and we both worked the following day, so I rolled over beside her and closed my eyes. I asked her what time she needed to get up and set the alarm for seven. I could hit the gym before work that way and make something of my day. I rolled to face her, wrapping my arm loosely around her as she settled under the covers.
The alarm sounded all too soon, and I hit it as she pressed against me. Madeline had curled up in her sleep and I slipped my hand between her legs to stroke her gently. She was damp, and I slipped a finger inside of her as she let out a whimper. I teased her until she was wet for me and told her to move to her stomach. I felt like a fucking teenager as I watched her, taking position behind her before sliding in. Madeline moaned as I buried myself inside of her and gripped the sheets beside her, rocking back against me. I loved morning sex and it had been a while, so I thrust harder until I came in her.
We both stayed on our stomachs for a while, resting. I didn’t need to get to the hospital until the afternoon, but Madeline’s shift started at ten. She got up to get dressed for the drive home, planning to shower and dress over there. I pulled on some sweats and walked her to the front door, sensing her need to leave. I kissed her softly before she walked out to her car and started the engine. I watched as she pulled out of the driveway, closing the door to go make some coffee.
I surfed the net for a while, feeling the silence heavy in the house. I liked having a woman here with me again, but I wasn’t sure how far I wanted to take it. I certainly wasn’t ready to ask her to move in but sleeping in bed with her was a comforting feeling. I knew that I needed to decide about this house before I moved on at all. It was too big for me and full of memories from Laura, and not all were good. I needed to make new memories elsewhere if I moved on with Madeline or anyone else.
I sighed and pushed the thought out of my mind. I could deal with that later and just keep getting through the days and weeks. The holidays were coming up and I could have my parents stay here comfortably for what might be the final Christmas here. Sadly, it would be the happiest one with my past of working on the holiday since Laura was. I went to visit my family sometimes on my own and that was nice, but it felt wrong. I allowed myself to picture Madeline here with us this year, brightening the room with her smile.
She was going to see her family, who I could see that she missed. We were no more than friends having sex at this point, though it was fun to take her out as well. She made me laugh and think and I appreciated that.
I went to the gym after coffee, working out for an hour before I went home to shower and change for work. I was working until midnight tonight and already felt a little tired after last night, but the memories of it made me feel alive again. I thought about it as I drove in, parking in the lot and heading into the main entrance. I glanced toward the ER, seeing a flash of a blonde braid as I smiled and walked to get my coat and look over today’s surgeries. It was going to be a busy day and I welcomed that as one of the other surgeons came up to ask me a question.
I was moving from one operating room to the other all night, grabbing a few minutes to grab some food in the cafe. I only had the time for a sandwich and coffee, but I lingered for a moment to see Madeline walk in with another nurse. She looked happy as she talked and laughed, and I felt myself on the edge of deciding what I wanted. She grabbed a salad and soda and walked in to find a table, pausing when she noticed me sitting alone. Madeline blushed and turned her head as the other woman called out to her, leading her to a table across the room as she continued their conversation. I finished eating and stood to throw the trash away, heading back to work. I glanced over towards the ER as I left, assuming that Madeline was already off and home, probably sleeping. I got into my car and drove to my house, parking in the garage and walking inside.
It was still big.
I walked upstairs to shower and fell into bed, still smelling Madeline. The room was dark and the house quiet as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I needed to sleep before my three o’clock shift and I rolled over to face the wall, ignoring the big house.