Chapter 4 – Dylan
“I thought that you’d to go out with your husband tonight? You said that he had some big award to get.”
“He does, but I told him that I’m not going. I don’t want to be with him, Dylan. I want to be with you.”
Her words were all that I needed to hear. All of the doubt that I’d been feeling was washed away. She was going to leave him. She had to, because she loved me. I knew that she did, but the doctor had me second-guessing everything. It was all going to be okay.
“I want to see you, Dylan. Are you still there?”
“Yes, I’m here, Maya. We can do whatever you want to do.”
I meant it, too. I would follow her anywhere. I didn’t think she knew how much power she had over me, but I was hers. All of me was Maya’s, and soon I was going to have all of her.
“Why don’t we meet at the restaurant? I’m starving, and I was hoping that we could share a dessert like we did last time.”
“We didn’t have dessert last time… Oh.”
She laughed on the other end, and the sound was like music to my ears. God, I loved this woman more than I’d loved anyone, and while Camilla was right about how wrong it was, I didn’t care. He didn’t love her the right way, and that left her open to being loved by another. I wasn’t going to make the same mistake of taking advantage of her. I knew what I had with Maya, and I was going to make sure that she knew every moment of every day how I felt.
“I’ll meet you there, Maya. I miss you.”
“It’s only been a day.”
“I know, but it feels like an eternity every time you’re not in my arms.”
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“Do you want to talk about it?”
Maya shook her head and smiled at me. “I don’t want to talk, Dylan. I want you to love me.”
I didn’t know what she was talking about and I told her that I already did. I didn’t realize that she was talking about physically until she started to unbutton the silk blouse that cost more than my whole wardrobe. Maya didn’t say it back, but she didn’t have to. I could see it in her eyes. I moved my view down lower, and my breath hitched when her upper body came into view. “God, you’re beautiful Maya.”
“You know that I love the way you look at me, Dylan. It’s like you’ve never seen another woman before.”
“Not like you.”
She looked down and I could see a pale of pink on her bronze face. “You always make me feel so special, Dylan.”
“Because you are special, Maya. I feel like the luckiest man in the world for you choosing me.”
I didn’t mention the husband who really had her. I didn’t want to think about him. He may have given her his name, but Maya was going to be mine in all ways. Tonight I was going to make sure that she never forgot me. Tonight I wanted her to feel how much I loved her and how I was never going to be able to be without her again. I just had to make her feel the same way.
Moving the last few feet to her, I started to unzip the dress that was still in my way. She didn’t help me, but she didn’t fight me either. Watching the pale cream colored fabric move down her thighs, I bit my lip to stifle the sound that threatened to come out. She really was perfect. The long legs kept my attention until I could drag my gaze back up her body.
“I love you, Maya.”
Our eyes met and she smiled up at me. “I love you too, Dylan. You’re the one thing in my life that isn’t crazy, and I don’t know what I would do without you. I’m so glad that we found each other.”
I bent down and kissed her, pulling her to me before I could stop myself. We’d only made love that one night, and I’d been gentle. I didn’t think that I could be gentle this time. I needed her. I needed to be inside of her, and more than that, I needed to possess her in a way that I hadn’t been able to before. She was mine, and I wanted nothing more than to claim her once and for all. I was going to make it so that she didn’t even remember her own husband’s name.
Not taking the time to bring her up the stairs to my loft, I set her bottom on a nearby table and struggled to get my own pants off. My hands were shaking with anticipation, and I was thrusting into her as soon as I felt her thighs pulling me in. It wasn’t at all like before. This time she was grunting as I slammed into her, calling out my name as her head shook side to side from pleasure. I made her come over and over again, begging me to stop before I finally filled her with my seed.
We stayed like that for some time, connected in the most intimate way as we panted. Maya was enough to send me to a whole other level of need. I loved her too much, and as I moved to kiss her, I felt a gut-wrenching pull on my insides. I couldn’t lose her, not ever.
“What’s wrong, Dylan?”
“Nothing, Maya, I just love you so much.”
She had the barest smile on her face as she put her head down on my shoulder. “I love you too, Dylan. I didn’t think I would ever feel like this again. I wish it could be like this all of the time.”
“Why can’t it?”
Maya’s smile was gone. I could tell that my words bothered her. She pushed up against my chest and I knew that she wanted to get down. I was slow in moving. I wished again that I’d just shut my mouth. Everything was going perfectly until I just had to say something.
“It’s not that easy, Dylan.”
“Why can’t it be? Why does it have to be so complicated? You love me and I love you.”
“Because I’m married.”
“You don’t have to be.”
I watched her get dressed. Everything in me wanted to beg her to stay. I wasn’t letting her go, but I knew that she needed some time and some space. I didn’t blame her. I needed some as well. I had to work this all out in my head. Camilla was in my mind and I was questioning everything. Maybe I should just be happy with it how it was. I didn’t like to even think about the alternative.
“I’ll call you, Dylan, okay?”
She was leaving, and I was left shaking my head like an idiot. But when Maya turned back around and kissed me, I was left with a small bud of hope. It was enough for me.