Chapter 9
Steven
Allie was still curled up against me in the morning. I could smell her coconut shampoo, and her hair was tickling my nose. I had one arm tucked beneath her, and it was completely numb. She was facing away from me, and the blanket was draped over her hips. Her body from this angle was a dramatic curve. I kissed her bare shoulder. She didn’t stir. I proceeded to lightly trace my finger down her arm. Goosebumps rose on her skin, but she still didn’t wake. I enjoyed lying with her in the stillness of the morning.
Her breathing was deep and calm. She was sleeping soundly. I stole a glance at my clock. It was nearly nine in the morning. We had earned our sleep-in, that was for sure.
Turning back to Allie, I admired the view. I reached down and pulled the blanket off her hips and stared at her ass. Seeing the line down her spine and the two dimples at her lower back made me smile. Her shape was out of this world. I had always thought that about her and wondered why she opted to hide it beneath loose sweaters. Sometimes, when her shirts would inch upward, I would steal a glance at her hips and ass. It always surprised me. She had clearly worked for her body but wasn’t the type of woman who needed to show the world her accomplishment.
I was hard again. I wanted to put my cock inside her. I inched closer to her and pressed the tip of my dick against her lower back, urging her to wake up. She moaned softly and shifted in her sleep.
“Allie,” I whispered in her ear, squeezing her shoulder gently. “Time to wake up.”
She didn’t stir at first. I shook her lightly, just enough to warrant a small sigh followed by a yawn.
“I’m awake,” she muttered, looking over her shoulder at me with half-open eyes.
“Good,” I said, slipping my cock into that delightful space between her legs. She let out a soft, sleepy chuckle. The sound did things to me that made it impossible to think straight.
She arched her back as she stretched. Her ass pressed against my stomach. I grabbed hold of it and then ran my hands over her hips. Her skin was so soft.
“Can I fuck you again?” I asked, my cock growing harder between her thighs.
That laugh of hers flooded the room. I waited, terribly impatient, as she lifted her leg for me, inviting me to put my cock inside her.
I held her leg up for her and edged closer behind her. She looked over her shoulder at me, and then down at my cock. Her eyes were still heavy with sleep, but I saw the desire there that turned me on so much.
The tip of my cock found her pussy. She was dripping wet. Her fingers reached for me, and she grabbed my shaft while I rubbed myself against her. She moaned softly as she began jerking me off. Fuck, she was so sexy.
When she couldn’t stand it any longer, she held my dick against her and eased me inside her. Her pussy in the morning felt better than ever. I entered her slowly, enjoying the way the walls of her pussy hugged me.
Her hand was still between her legs. I realized she was rubbing herself. A little moan escaped her lips once I had fully entered her. I pulled myself almost all the way out and slid back in slowly. I repeated this until her hips began gyrating against me.
Then I fucked her as hard and as fast as I could. She was breathless almost immediately. She continued to rub herself, and her pussy tightened around my cock. She came quickly and stifled her cry in a pillow. I followed suit seconds later, pumping her full of my cum. She took it all and held it all, even when I pulled out of her.
I left her on the bed while I went to shower. I thought again of her diary entry about me fucking her in the shower. Maybe next time I would bring her in here and tease her with the shower head. I would hold her against the glass walls like she had written, and fuck the life out of her while the shower stall filled with steam.
When I returned to the bedroom, she was asleep again. She was still naked and lying on top of the blankets. I covered her up after staring at her for a minute, kissed her forehead, and made my way into the kitchen to fix us some breakfast.
Allie had always loved the pancakes I made. It was a recipe I had grown up with, and every time I made them, Allie would eat to the point of death. She would complain for hours afterward about how full she was while rubbing her stomach and pushing it out as far as she could. We would then proceed to make pregnancy jokes, which sometimes ended with Allie going a little quiet. I had avoided those jokes the last couple times she ate my pancakes, suspecting it was a sore spot for some reason. I had never gathered the nerve to ask her what it was.
I added the best ingredient, cinnamon, to the pancake batter. As I was pouring it on to the pan, Allie emerged from my bedroom. Her hair was up, and she was dressed in her clothes from the night before. She looked sleepy, but cute as ever as she sat down at the counter.
“Pancakes?” she asked, smiling up at me. “I’m so spoiled.”
“You know it. Your favorite.”
We were quiet for a while. I flipped the pancakes, and Allie watched me contently.
“Steven,” she said abruptly. “You need to give me my diary back.”
“Awh, come on, Allie. It’s too good. We never would have done any of this had I not read it.”
“I want you to stop reading it.”
“Why?” I asked, unable to stop myself. I knew it was private for her, but I was sure she had enjoyed the sex as much as I had. I had fulfilled her fantasies. What was the downside to that?
“Because it’s not fair. At the moment, the sex is great. But afterward, I feel confused. I know you said no labels, and that this can be just a friends with benefits kind of thing. But Steven, I don’t know if I can do that. I need to know. I need to know how you feel about me. Please. I need the truth.”
Deep down, I had always known how I felt about Allie Wright. It was a no-brainer. She was the one person on the planet I couldn’t live without; she was the only one who knew who I really was.
“I’m in love with you, Allie Wright. I think I always have been,” I said, holding her stare. She wanted the truth. There it was. Plain and simple and out in the open.
She blinked. At first, I thought it was because she was so shocked by my answer. Then, as her eyes grew glassy and wet, I realized she was trying not to cry.
“Allie,” I said hurriedly, “please, don’t cry. It’s okay. We don’t have to let this ruin anything. Forget I said it.”
“Shut up, Steven,” she said, tears clinging to her bottom lashes now. “I love you, too.” She dabbed at her eyes and sniffed in a not so ladylike fashion. I had for force myself not to laugh at her. She looked so damn cute.
“These are good tears, right?” I asked.
She nodded, still dabbing her eyes. “Yes. Now give me my diary back. You know my deepest darkest secret now. There’s nothing else for you to read in there.”
“That’s your biggest secret? That you love me?”
“Yes,” she said, nodding once.
“Alright,” I said, pointing at the pancakes. “Make sure these don’t burn. I’ll get your diary.”
I returned to the bedroom and grabbed her diary while mulling over her words. She loved me too. How had I been so oblivious all these years? How long had she felt this way? As long as me?
I brought it back to her, telling myself that if I ever really wanted to read it again, I would be able to find it. She had always been bad at hiding things. In high school, she had written a book of poetry and had been horrified when I found it stashed in a basket on top of her parents’ fridge. Being a tall guy, I had spotted it from across the room. I figured it hadn’t occurred to her since she was so short.
Back in the kitchen, I handed her the diary.
“Thank you,” she said, clutching it to her chest the way a toddler might a teddy bear.
I shrugged and transferred the pancakes to a plate. I set out the maple syrup and butter, and we sat and enjoyed our meal together. Allie’s diary never strayed more than a couple feet from her side. Me having it must have really been bothering her. This only made me more curious about what the other entries said.
“Want to spend the day together?” I asked, popping a bite into my mouth.
“I would love to,” Allie said, looking up at me apologetically. “But Melissa and I have plans to go shopping together this afternoon. She needs new business clothes for work.”
“Business clothes,” I said dryly, “that sure sounds fun. Staying here with me would be worth your while, I assure you. We could watch movies all day. I could go get us snacks while you shower. Then, you know, we could take a break every hour or so and just fuck around.” I winked.
“Steven, I can’t. Melissa needs my help. She has clothing commitment issues.”
I arched an eyebrow. “You’re going to say no to all of this?” I laughed, gesturing at myself.
“Believe it or not, yes, I am.”
“Is this punishment for stealing your diary?”
“If you want to look at it that way, you can,” she said.
“Are you upset with me?” I asked, starting to feel a little worried that maybe I had taken things too far.
“No, Steven, don’t worry about it. Everything is fine. You gave it back. No harm done. I don’t like backing out of plans. You know that about me. Especially with Melissa.”
“Alright, alright,” I conceded, trying not to let her see how disappointed I was. “Another time then, I guess.”
She smiled at me, and the warmth in her eyes chased away some of the worry in my gut. We continued eating our pancakes, and soon, Allie was joking about that state of my disastrous kitchen. Things felt normal, despite the now ever-present sexual tension between us.
Try as I might, I couldn’t think of anything besides fucking her again.