Chapter Twelve
Artimus
Seeing her only made things worse. The scent of her honeysuckle shampoo still lingered in my nose. Nina had a way of consuming my every thought, no matter how hard I tried not to let her do that to me.
I closed and locked my office door behind me. Then I pulled out my cell and tapped in a text to Artimus, letting him know that it wasn’t cool, what he and Nina had tried to pull.
Tossing the phone onto my desk, I went to lie on the sofa next to the window. Staring out at the clouds above the city, rather than at the busy streets below, I tried to forget about Nina.
The woman had plagued my dreams since the night I got back home. Every time I closed my eyes, there she was. Most people wouldn’t think that would be such a bad thing.
It was bad to me. Because Nina had knocked Natalia right out of my mind. No dreams of Natalia came at all. I’d lived with those dreams—which more often than not turned into nightmares—for four years. How had she suddenly made them all go away?
How had Nina embedded herself into my brain so much that I’d forgotten the anniversary of Natalia’s death?
It wasn’t right.
I couldn’t just go on and forget about the woman I’d loved. The woman I had planned to marry—to make a family with and spend my whole life with.
But Nina had come along and so easily pushed Natalia all the way out. And I couldn’t allow that to happen.
It wouldn’t be fair to Natalia.
Closing my eyes, I felt the familiar feeling of exhaustion creeping up on me. I wouldn’t let myself sleep that much. Not when every one of my dreams this last week had been erotic—and Nina the star of them all.
The guilt I felt was overwhelming. I was a wreck. A shell of the man I had managed to become after my fiancée’s death. And there was no one to blame for that but Nina.
As I lay there, berating myself for forgetting Natalia, I thought about Artimus and Duke.
They must’ve kept what happened to themselves. If they’d told Nina, then she would have led with that.
I knew it wasn’t Nina’s fault that I had let Natalia slip out of my head. But I did know that if I kept seeing Nina, then I would lose Natalia completely. And I didn’t want that.
My head ached with yet another headache. I had gotten one or two each day since the weekend had ended. Pulling the bottle of pills out of my pocket, I sat up and popped a couple into my mouth, swallowing them down.
Lying back on the sofa, I let the ibuprofen work on my aching head. With my eyes closed, it didn’t take long at all for sleep to take me. And then the dream began.
I went to Nina’s apartment, finding her there alone, her roommates out for the night. She wiggled her finger at me, beckoning me to her bedroom. “Follow me, Ashton.”
“Right behind you, baby.” I followed her like a lamb to the slaughter, unafraid, and without remorse.
My hands settled on round hips that were covered in dark green silk. She had on a skimpy nightgown that I couldn’t wait to rid her of. After I kicked the door shut, Nina turned around to face me.
The smile on her face told me she had something in mind. Her hands moved to my chest, stopping me from moving forward. She moved them down my body slowly, going to her knees in front of me.
Licking her lips, she undid my jeans, then released my cock. Her soft hands moved up and down me as she kissed the tip. My entire body shuddered with desire. I ran my hands through her hair. “Oh, baby.”
Her lips flowed over the head of my erect cock a few times as her hands stroked the shaft. Giving her head a little push had her mouth opening wide as she took me all the way in. She moaned with pleasure, her tongue running up the underside of my cock as she sucked gently.
I had to lean back on the door to steady myself as she sucked me off. Watching her as her head moved up and down with her long even strokes, I saw her in a glowing light.
Her mouth felt so hot, it seemed impossible. And all I could think about was how it would feel to finally put my cock into an even hotter place on her gorgeous body. My cock jerked as my cum spurted down her throat.
She drank it up then looked up at me, a bit of my seed dangling from her lower lip before she licked it off. I pulled her up, then stepped out of jeans that had fallen to my ankles. Her hands moved under my T-shirt, lifting it off me.
I took the hem of her gown and pulled it off over her head, leaving her gloriously naked in front of me. Her tits were huge, the nipples hard as rocks. Pushing her back onto the bed, I moved my body over hers, straddling her.
Playing with her nipples, I watched them grow even harder. “Shit, you’re beautiful, Nina.”
She didn’t say a word back to me, but her hands moved to cover both of mine as she helped me massage her big, juicy tits. I leaned over and took one taut nipple into my mouth.
Once I sank my teeth into it, she let out a growl. “Suck it.”
I sucked on her swollen nipple as I squeezed her other tit. All the while, she moaned and bucked underneath me. All the wiggling she did was making me lose focus. I pinned her shoulders to the bed, holding her still so I could continue biting and sucking her sweet tit.
She whined a bit, then screamed as she arched up to me. “I’m coming!”
I moved quickly, pushing her legs apart so I could stick my hard and aching cock into her pulsing pussy. She wrapped her legs around me, holding me tight. It was obvious that she didn’t want me to pull out of her for even a second as she screamed my name over and over.
Her nails dug into my back as her body was racked with pleasure. Her cunt was tight around my cock, and the way it convulsed as her juices flowed freely had me fucking her hard and fast.
Pounding her hot cunt with a ruthlessness that defied imagination, I took Nina exactly the way I wanted to. With unadulterated passion.
I owned her body. No one could ever make her feel the way I could.
“Open your eyes, baby,” I ordered her. I wanted to stare into those green depths as I made her mine.
She held tightly to my shoulders as she opened her eyes and stared into mine. I could see her giving it all to me. Her body, her heart, her soul. It was all mine now. I had earned her love, her worship.
And as I looked into her eyes, my body began to shake. It was all too real. She was under me; I was inside of her. And only then did I realize that I didn’t own her. She owned me.
And I gave myself to her without her ever asking me to. “I’m yours, Nina.”
With one nod of her pretty head, she had me. “I know, baby. Now take me in the ass.”
With a smile, I pulled out of her then turned her onto her stomach. I kept her body flat on the bed, took one of her hands and pulled it up above her head as I slid my body over hers until my cock was on the cusp of her asshole.
She pushed her ass up, and I used my fingertip to prepare her before plunging inside of her even tighter hole. With a gasp from her, I put my lips on the side of her neck. “Hush. It’ll be okay.” I kissed her neck as I fucked her in the ass. Her whimpers became moans, and she moved with me to get my dick into her as deep as it would go.
Grinding hard against her ass, I didn’t stop until she was crying out her pleasure. “I’m coming again!”
I let her body climax then pulled out of her. Turning her over, I spread her legs apart as her body shook with the strong orgasm. Juices poured from her cunt, and I ran my tongue over her before pushing into her pussy to eat her. I played with her clit to get her to keep producing the sweet nectar she gave me.
My cock was straining with the need to release, so I kissed my way up her body, then shoved my cock into her. With hard, demanding thrusts, I finally found my end, filling her with my hot seed.
We both groaned as I shot my load into her. Her hands moved through my hair as she whispered in my ear. “I want your baby, Ashton. I want us to be a family. Give it to me.”
I bit her neck, making her scream with delight. “I’ll give it to you, Nina. I won’t stop until your belly is round with my baby.” I began to move against her again as my cock got hard once more. “I’ll fuck you all night long and into the next day.”
Her breathing was ragged as she said in a quiet voice, “Please, Ashton, please fuck me all night long. I need you inside of me.”
“You’re damn right, you do.” I kissed her sweet lips and off we went again into the bliss of the best sex either of us had ever had.
The sound of my phone beeping had my eyes springing open. It took me a few minutes to pull myself completely out of sleep and the dream I’d been in.
“Shit!”
I sat up, holding my head in my hands. The dream had felt so real; my cock was at full attention. I had to give myself a minute for it to go back to a normal state before I stood up.
Taking a deep breath, I finally got up and went to my desk to see who had texted me. Artimus had sent me a message.
-I wouldn’t be a good friend if I let this go on and did nothing about it. This therapist comes highly recommended. You need to set up an appointment with Jasmine Patel. I’ve sent you an email with a link to her website. Read the reviews and her mission. I think you’ll like what you see, Ashton. Enough is enough. Stop missing out on a future because you’re stuck in the past.-
I fell into my chair and stared at the message. No one had any idea how I felt. No one knew the guilt I was plagued with. No one could ever understand what it meant to be a man who’d killed the woman he loved.
I didn’t need a therapist. I needed to get Nina out of my head so that Natalia could come back.
I knew any therapist would think that the only way I could live a normal life would be to put Natalia out of my mind.
Only I didn’t want to lose my fiancée.
I’ve got to do what’s right for me, not what others think is best. And that’s that.