Chapter Twenty-Four
Sloan
“What is that man talking about?” I said to Victoria the moment we were safe inside the apartment.
“I have no idea. Look, you know what these guys are like. They’re sharks. They just want a story out of you, and if they can’t find one, then they’ll probably just try and make one up. I wouldn’t worry. What’s wrong? You look so pale.”
“It just took me by surprise, that’s all.”
She nodded. “I know. That guy was a bit of a creep, too. But seriously, these things happen all the time. Remember when they tried to make out that you and I were a couple?”
I laughed. “Oh yeah, I’d forgotten about that. Okay, you’re right, that does actually make me feel better. He’s probably just doing really badly at this job at the moment and he’s trying to find a story where there’s nothing. Idiot!”
Victoria stayed a little while longer, and we tried to forget about what had happened by trying on all the clothes that we had bought that day in our shopping spree. I wasn’t really feeling it, but I was glad for the distraction at least. When she left, she turned to look at me.
“Are you going to be okay?”
“Yeah,” I lied. “I’m fine. The fact that I have people running around making up stories about me can only mean that I’ve made it in the acting world.”
She laughed. “Now that’s the right kind of attitude to have! Well, call me if the creep shows up again. But I highly doubt it. You’ll wake up tomorrow and see that he’s moved his attention on to someone else.”
“I hope so,” I said.
But that wasn’t what happened. I woke up the next day to an angry message from my agent, telling me to be at her office early Monday morning. I thought about checking the internet, but I couldn’t bear to see what people were saying. Instead, I spent the entire day in bed and didn’t leave my apartment even once. I watched endless stupid movies and did everything in my power to prevent myself from looking at the internet, or calling Dorothy. I was still hoping that I’d wake up the next day to an apology from her.
But on Monday morning there was no apology on my phone, and I knew that I had to go and see her. Hopefully she’d be able to clear things up for me, and hopefully I’d be able to calm her down. I knew that Dorothy was tough, but so far she’d been nothing but kind to me. That voice message was the first time I’d even seen that side of her.
I got the driver to get me from the back door, just in case there were reporters up front. I climbed in and told him to take me to Dorothy’s office. I liked my driver. He was probably the only person that never asked me any questions about my life. I was grateful for the half hour of silence as he took me to her office. When I arrived, I thanked him and quickly made myself to her office with my head down.
The moment I arrived, I knew that something was terribly wrong. The receptionist barely looked at me, and when she took me to Dorothy’s office, she quickly closed the door behind her without offering me anything to drink.
“Dorothy, what’s going on? You sounded so angry on that message. I was going to call you back but thought it would be better to talk face to face.”
She glared at me. Her eyes flashed with so much anger that I immediately recoiled and sat back in my chair as if I’d been stung.
“Sloan, when I agreed to take you on as my client, I believed that you were who you said you were.”
“I—
“But,” she said without letting me speak. “Clearly, you’ve been keeping things from me. And I don’t appreciate that. Let me tell you why. You see, when I take on a client, I go out of my way to make sure that they get everything from me. I give them my complete undivided attention. And in return, I expect them to be honest with me and to give me the respect that I deserve. But you have not done that. Everyone knows that I’m your agent. It was something that I was very proud of. And perhaps I told a bit too many people about it. But now you’ve just gone and made me look like a complete fool. Why would you do this?”
I could feel the anger rise up inside me. How dare she speak to me like this? “Maybe if you told me what’s going on, I’d be able to answer you.”
“How can you not know? It’s been all over the papers.”
“I haven’t looked.”
She raised one perfectly plucked eyebrow at me. “You haven’t looked? What have you been doing?”
“I haven’t looked. So just tell me.”
“I thought you went to Yale,” she said. “I mean, that’s what you told me, right? Actually, I have the forms right here. Ah yes, Sloan Hill, attended Yale University.”
Shit. “Why does that matter? I mean, surely the only thing that matters is that I’m a good actress and that I work damn hard. I don’t see whether I studied at Yale or not makes any difference.”
“Oh darling, it makes all the difference in the world. Because now you’re viewed as a liar. Someone that lied their way to the top. You should’ve just told the truth.”
“Okay, I should’ve. I’m sorry. It’s hard to get people’s attention when you’re just starting out, you know. I had to make myself look better than I was. It really shouldn’t matter.”
“And when were you going to tell me about the porn?”
My blood went cold. “What?”
She smiled at me and leaned back in her chair, clicking her pen on and off. The sound was driving me crazy.
“Oh, I know everything now, Sloan. The whole world knows everything. And you were stupid if you really thought we weren’t going to find out about it.”
I stood up.
“Where do you think you’re going?”
“I don’t need to answer these questions. I’m a good actress, and that is all that matters.”
She shook her head and laughed. “No, Sloan. That’s not all that matters in this business.”
“But that’s all that should matter,” I insisted.
“That’s beside the point. You should know that being famous has only a little bit to do with the movies you’re in. It’s about who you are to the rest of the world.”
“I had a man show up at my apartment asking me questions, and I felt completely insulted by his lack of care for my personal space. And now here you are doing the same. I thought we were friends?”
“No, Sloan. We’re not friends. And this is the business. Get over it.”
“I’m leaving,” I said.
“Go right ahead. And while you’re at it, find yourself another agent. I’m sorry, but I have to look after my own reputation, too.”
“Fine by me,” I said and stormed out.
The driver was waiting for me when I got out. He didn’t say a word to me as he took me home, and when I arrived, I ran inside before anyone could stop me. When I opened the door to my apartment, I almost screamed. Victoria was sitting on my bed.
“How did you get here? You gave me such a fright.”
“Sorry. Well, I told the guy downstairs that I wanted to surprise you and he let me right in.”
I stared at her in surprise. “Seriously? I mean, I know he knows we’re friends, but to just let you in like that? So much for security.”
“Yeah, you really need to talk to him about that. Tell him that he could lose his job. So, what’s going on? Where’ve you been? I thought you’d be holed up in here with all the media stuff happening? I tried to call you, but you didn’t answer.”
“Sorry about that. I was at Dorothy’s office. She called me yesterday and told me to come in immediately to see her.”
“Uh oh. That doesn’t sound good.”
“It’s not. She’s not my agent anymore.”
“What? Are you serious? But why?”
“She wouldn’t listen to a thing I had to say. She was just mad at me for ruining her reputation. Damn, I should’ve told her that she didn’t have a very good reputation to begin with. Why do I only think of these things now? Anyway, I just wanted to get out of there as quickly as possible.”
“Oh, Sloan—I’m so sorry. Don’t worry. You don’t need her. There are plenty other agents out there who will snap you up. I promise you.”
“You know, I don’t even care right now,” I said as I sat down on the bed.
“Do you want to tell me what’s been going on? The newspapers are saying you didn’t go to Yale and that you were involved in porn before getting into the business. Is that true? Or are they just talking a whole bunch of hogwash like they normally do? You can talk to me Sloan; I’m your best friend.”
I looked at her and smiled sadly. She was a good friend to me even though she felt so different from me most of the time. But I didn’t feel like talking about it. I shook my head.
“I guess you could call it a lapse in judgment,” I said.
“What do you mean?”
“Vic, thank you so much for coming to see me, and thank you so much for caring about how I am. That’s more than I could say for most of the people out there who pretend to care about me. But I really just don’t feel like talking about anything right now.”
“I understand. Why don’t we just watch a movie then? We don’t have to talk.”
“I appreciate that, Vic. But I think I just want to be alone for a while. You know, maybe I’ll just get away from all of this until it dies down.”
“Go away? Where?”
I shrugged. “I don’t know. The idea just came to me, so it’s still formulating in my head. But right now, I can’t even go downstairs without everyone shoving a camera in my face. I just want to . . . go away.”
“I’ll come with you.”
“Thanks, Vic, but I just need to be alone.”
“Okay, I totally understand. Sometimes getting away is the best thing. And you know what these guys are like; the whole thing will just die down. These scandals never last as long as you think they’re going to. They’ll get bored of you soon enough.”
“I hope so,” I said.
“Trust me. Well, you promise to call me if you need me? I’ll come over immediately. And if you want to just stay here I’ll sneak you up food, so you don’t have to go out.”
I smiled at her. “Thanks, Vic. I’ll definitely let you know.”
She gave me a big hug and left. I locked the door behind her and lay face down on the bed. For the first time since all of this had happened, I finally allowed myself to cry. I cried until there were no more tears left inside me. Then, when I thought it was over, I cried some more.
After a while, when I’d finally calmed down just a little, I picked up the phone and called Brady.
“Sloan?” he said. He seemed surprised to hear from me. I couldn’t believe how good it was to hear his voice.
“Brady,” I whispered.
“What’s wrong?”
“I need to get away. Please, can I come and stay with you?”