Chapter 25

One year later

 

 

Lying here in the sun is perfect. The Blue Sky was handled, and now we are back to running business as usual.

“We must have super sperm.” Ghost laughs as Devil walks over.

“What the fuck you say that for?” Tilting my head, I look at him funny.

“Look at all these little Hell’s Fires’ we’re producin’ around here.” Nodding at my son lying on my chest, I chuckle.

“You might be right.” Devil nods before taking off after his own little one.  We have turned this club into a baby making station. How the fuck could we not, with all these women looking sexy as fuck all the time?

“Don’t get any ideas for more. I think two is plenty.” Popping my eyes open, Ev smiles down at me.

“Bullshit. When he’s one, we’re goin’ again,” I say. Shaking her head, she slides onto the lounger next to me, wrapping her arm around the both of us.

“I don’t think so. Six, maybe.” Laughing, I shake my head.

“What’s my brother doing?” Haylee sits on the other side of the lounger.

“Sleepin’. He’s lazy.” Haylee laughs before laying on the other side.

“Dad, he’s not lazy. He’s a baby.” My heart swells with contentment. This is what I’ve always wanted out of my life.  Having Everleigh and Haylee just cements me on this earth. My family has always been strange. We were never an ordinary family. I miss aspects of that. This club has been a solid foundation for me, though.  Now I have my girl, and kids that I love, with everything I am.

“Are you happy?” Nudging, Everleigh, she lifts her head to look at me.

“I don’t think I could be any happier than I am right now.” Pressing a kiss to my lips, Haylee chimes in.

“Ewww. That’s gross!” I laugh. What else can I do?

“Get over here and give me one.” Haylee giggles before climbing up and kissing my cheek.

“You three are my world. I love you.” 

***

Watching my world as they sleep, is the most amazing feeling I’ve ever had. I never knew that I could feel this sort of contentment, but here it is. It’s the best feeling in the world. A part of me misses Emily, though. I know what I have in Ev and Haylee, but Emily was mine, too. I don’t know that you ever heal from something like that. The loss of a child is devastating. I never really got over losing her. I miss her every day but seeing the joy in Haylee’s eyes helps.  She may not be mine by blood, but she is mine in every sense of the word.

Killing Luke gave me great joy. I sometimes wonder what that will do to Haylee when she’s older, and wonders about it. She realizes that her dad isn’t around anymore but when will the questions start? She hasn’t said much about him, and for that I’m grateful. I don’t know that I could give her an answer right now if I had to. I run my hand through my hair as I let that all sink in. I’m not sure that I can handle the truth of what I’ve done. At least not when it comes to her.

She’s so smart, though that I don’t doubt as the years go on that she will have questions, and she’ll start to figure out what it is we do around here. As much as I’d like to keep that part of the world away from her, the truth is, I just drag her in deeper. Everleigh understands. She knows what I am, and she loves me regardless.

I can’t say that I’m proud of bringing any of them into this life, but I know in my heart that I could never let them go. That just isn’t an option.