Chapter Thirty-Eight
Lindsey
Same day
“You…you love me?” I stammered in shock. “Really?” My hand clutched to my chest, I could hardly believe it. I knew how I felt about him, but I wasn’t sure he felt the same way and I sure as hell didn’t think he was in a position to vocalize that. Not while he was so emotional, and certainly not after I just intervened in his family stuff again. “That’s amazing.”
He gave me a loving look, and I fell into that for a moment, I swam in his eyes loving the way they enveloped me in an intense warmth. My arms wrapped around me, and I twirled my hips from side to side in a playfully manner. I felt free and excitable.
“I love you, too, you know,” I whispered back. “I’ve loved you for a very long time.”
Adam put down his glass, so I did the same thing, and the next thing we were in one another’s arms. This was a place that once held so much risk, it scared me and made me question absolutely everything that I was doing, but now it was safe, it was my home. I loved being next to him. He had very rapidly become absolutely everything to me.
“That isn’t it, you know,” he murmured above my head. “I have something else that I want to ask you.” My back stiffened and I tilted my eyes up to look at him. “I don’t mean now, I mean whenever you want, but just know that I’m ready whenever you are…”
“What’s going on?” I demanded as his face turned into a weird white shade of fear. I gripped onto him tighter and stared intently at him. “Is everything alright, Adam?”
“I just…” He took his arms away from me and made a sweeping gesture with them, indicating around his house. “I want you here. All the time.”
“I am here all the time.” I didn’t understand, and I wasn’t sure if I was being dumb or not. Maybe it was obvious, and I was just blind to it for some reason.
“Yes, I know. But not officially. I want you to live here, but like I said, whenever you’re ready. I know you already have a home and a roommate and that you’re probably quite happy with how things are…” His nervous chatter almost made me want to laugh. “I’m sorry, have I overstepped some boundary there? I didn’t mean to make things weird or anything.”
It had come as a big surprise, first love then an offer to move in, but I liked it. Adam was diving in with both feet first. It showed that he was truly committed to me. “I think I would like that – it sounds pretty nice.”
With that, Adam grabbed me around the waist and spun me around with joy. Yes, it was a huge step and to the rest of the world it probably looked like we were moving too quickly, but we had fought hard to be where we were. We deserved to finally be happy. This would just be the first step of that. I wasn’t sure that I would move fully in right away, but the finer details didn’t need to be hashed out right now.
“Oh my goodness, I feel like we should go out for a drink to celebrate, don’t you?”
As he lowered me to the ground, I pressed my lips against his. “I do want to celebrate, but don’t want to go out to do so.” I winked, but somehow Adam didn’t seem to get it.
“Okay, so what did you want to do? Take out and a bottle of champagne?”
“No.” I grabbed his hand and tugged him along with me. At first he seemed unsure, but as I walked up the stairs towards the bedroom finally he clicked on. As soon as he did, his steps quickened and a big beaming smile finally reached his cheeks. He looked as excited as I felt.
“Oh I see, you want an adult celebration with just the two of us? I see.”
The steps quickened and soon he overtook me completely. In the end he was pulling me, so by the time we actually reached his room, a place that I would soon be able to call our room, I was giggling like a crazy person. His eagerness to be with me always made me feel like a sexual goddess, bringing out a confidence in me that I didn’t have before.
And now, on top of that, he’d said that he loved me. We declared our feelings for one another so everything was even better. He was mine and I was his.
“I love you,” he murmured again as he leaned in to kiss me. “So damn much.”
With that, Adam claimed me with his mouth. His lips crashed against mine and he gave me a deep and passionate kiss that was absolutely filled with love. I could feel it running through me, which was far more powerful than any words could have been.
I walked backwards until I tumbled back onto the bed, and Adam came with me. The weight of his body on top of mine was the most incredible feeling in the world, so I fixed my hands around his waist to keep him there while his tongue snaked between my lips.
I tucked my hands under his tee shirt and lifted it up slightly, so I could run my hands over his muscles and as I did I groaned loudly with glee. Even now after we’d been together for a while his body excited me in an intense and incredible way. He had my heart fluttering and the butterflies flapping wildly. He was off the scale gorgeous, and now he was mine.
“I love this nightdress on you,” Adam muttered breathlessly. “But I need it gone now.”
I lifted my butt off the bed so he could slide it off me, and as he did his eyes remained fixed on me the entire time. He was looking at me like I was his everything, like I meant the whole world to him, and I felt the exact same about him.
Once it was gone, and I lay there in my innocent-looking which lacy underwear, his mouth moved down to my collarbone where he kissed me rapidly. Every so often, his tongue would dart out of his mouth as he licked the perspiration off of my skin.
“Oh, Adam,” I moaned as a storm brewed inside me. “That feels so good.”
I gripped my hands into his hair and guided his head down my body. I moved him over to my breasts and rolled my hips into him as my back arched. He reached around behind me and unhooked my bra. He slid it away and tossed it to the ground where it fluttered like a bit of paper, then he concentrated all his mouth action on my nipples. I lolled my head to one side and closed my eyes so I could succumb only to the sensations.
Eventually I couldn’t take it anymore so I began to tug his clothes off too. I yanked his tee shirt up, I tugged his pants down, and I pulled his thick length free in a rapid amount of time.
As soon as he sprang out of his underwear, I wrapped my fingers around him and I held him close to my body. I moved my hand slowly up and down as his mouth explored the upper half of my body. It built a connection between us, and I could feel a deep bond that continued to grow with every passing second. My love expanded, my chest grew, my heart tightened around him.
Then he took my hand off of him and fixed it above my head, where he held it for just a few seconds, staring into my eyes with love. His eyes shone, which made me smile happily at him. Anything that made him happy made me feel good, too.
Adam took the opportunity while I was off balance to slip his fingers into me, changing the gear all over again. One moment we were soppily staring at each other, the next his fingers were massaging me, brushing my G spot, touching me so deeply and intimately that I could barely control myself. He used two fingers, then three, which made my walls clamp tightly around him. As his thumb moved over me and brushed over my clit, I could feel myself growing too close. I needed to stop things before I went wild.
“Oh fuck, Adam,” I gasped while arching my back. “Oh it’s too much.”
He didn’t stop, he seemed to like me breathless and desperate beneath him, he enjoyed having complete control over my body, and I did too…but I also liked to surprise him, which was why I shoved him off of me and climbed over him. He sat with his back pressed against his headboard as I straddled him with my breasts close to his face. While he sucked me, I angled myself over him and I hovered there for just a moment.
“Stop teasing me,” Adam begged. “Stop it, you’re driving me crazy.”
“I can’t do anything yet.” I wiggled my hips to drive him even more wild and giggled as he shuddered violently. “We need protection first.”
“Oh, of course we do.” He leaned across and gripped one from the nightstand. “Here.”
I tore it open with my teeth and rolled it down over him, touching him for much too long as I did. I just couldn’t resist sending him as close to the edge as I felt myself. I wanted him to be a mess. I loved that lustful, hazy look in his eyes. I could see myself through his eyes and liked the way I looked to him.
And then I pushed myself down onto him as I let out a desperate scream. He felt so fucking good inside me, it was too much. Even as I moved up and down, much slower and in a more sensual and loving way, the feelings were overwhelming. He was too much, too perfect, I loved him so much. As my head swam, I could hear the words falling out of my mouth over and over again. It was as if now that I’d finally said them I didn’t know how to stop.
“I love you, I love you, I love you.”
Adam’s mouth was all over me, he kissed me everywhere, showing me that he loved me as I told him. We had this connection, it was intense and powerful, and I loved every second of it.
As the orgasm shattered through me, shredding me of everything but an insane amount of pleasure, I clung tightly to Adam and held him tightly. The whole world vanished and it was just me and him. Me and the man that I loved, the man who once paid me to pretend to be his girlfriend. It was absolutely crazy, but it was my love story and I adored it.
As the bliss exploded from Adam, I kissed him to swallow up his screams. I held him near to my body so he could feel every inch of me, including the powerfully hammering of my heart that was all for him.
“Oh my God, you’re amazing,” he groaned once we fell apart breathlessly. “Honestly, Lindsey, you are.”
“You are, too,” I insisted. He seemed to think that I did everything for him, but he did a lot for me, too. He built me up and made me feel amazing. I needed him as much as he did me. “And, I’m glad that you’re mine.”