RIA

 

Taking the note from Nate feels surreal. I have no idea what it’s going to say or if it’s even going to be legible, but the fact that he’s trying is amazing to me. Taking a deep breath and with slightly shaking fingers, I unfold it and look down with the biggest grin. The writing is messy but definitely legible.

 

 

“It’s not much, but it took me ages to get helping right. But I got it right… right?”

I jump up, race over and fall into Nate’s lap embracing him tightly snuggling my nose into his neck. I’m so honored and extremely happy he did this, so much so I can’t even describe how I’m feeling. I guess if I tried to put it into words the feeling would be undeniably proud. He even drew his usual dove on the note paper for me. It’s one of the best letters I’ve ever received, and I’ve received a lot of fan mail over the years, but this is way above anything I can describe.

I pull back looking into his eyes and instantly feel that spark, the same intensity that’s always here. The pull toward him is immense as our eyes connect.

“Have you ever written a note to anyone before?”

He sighs. “I’ve never written anything to anyone before.” He chuckles. “You’re my first… sorry if it’s really fucking messy, though.”

Shaking my head, I fight back the tears feeling nothing but complete awe. I’m overwhelmed and the emotion envelops me as I lean in pressing my lips to his. Sparks shoot off all around me and my lips tingle like popping candy as I kiss him for the second time. My hands move either side of his face holding him to me as Nate’s run up the back of my shirt holding me to him. Our tongues dance feverishly in a tango of passion and want. I lean against him further in his lap and immediately feel his cock harden beneath me.

For a second, a split second, I want to take advantage of it. Then he shifts slightly and it presses into me and that’s enough to snap me back to reality. I pull back gasping for air breaking the kiss as I jump off his lap. My hand sweeps up to my mouth in shock that I’ve done it again.

“Shit, sorry. I got caught in the moment. I was so proud of you that I lost myself for a moment… I’m so sorry.”

He exhales, swallows hard and frowns. “Is it so bad kissing me, Ria?”

My stomach sinks and I hate that I’m hurting him, so I turn and start pacing next to the pool. “No, it’s just this…” she moves her finger back and forth, “… us, it can’t happen. I don’t do rockers—”

“Because of Kade?” I interrupt. “I’m not like him, Ria. I don’t cheat, I never would. I’m not that guy.”

“Kade said that, too,” I say with a scoff.

Nate exhales loudly. “Maybe I should go?”

Even though I really want him to stay, I take a deep breath and nod. It’s quite apparent that I’ve upset him and he probably needs space, so I agree to let him leave.

“I’ll walk you out.”

We both head inside and to the front door with enough space between us to drive a car through. The silence surrounding us is deafening and all I want to do is tell him I’m sorry again, but what would that achieve? I feel terrible, but all I can think about is his cock pressed against my leg.

“Well, see ya round,” he says opening the door and taking that first step to walk away.

My breaths become quick and I start to panic—I don’t want him to leave like this.

So I reach out grabbing his arm effectively stopping him.

He turns to look at me and I swallow hard.

“Thank you for the note. It means so much, you have no idea.”

He nods and blinks quickly looking completely broken. The sadness in his eyes, the way his chest is heaving lets me know how much he wants me. My mind goes back to his cock and my clit starts to throb. I draw my bottom lip in and trap it with my teeth and shake my head slightly.

“Fuck it!” I say.

Leaning forward I grab his head and pull his lips to mine kissing him hard. I slam the door shut with my foot and push him up against it smothering myself in him. He’s hesitant, but as I get more aggressive he slowly wraps himself around me. I hoist myself up, wrapping my legs around his waist and he starts walking while we kiss frantically.

Nate leads us back outside and into the pool house. He makes it to the edge of the bed before he breaks the kiss and throws me down onto the mattress.

Giggling as I land, I glance up at him to see his eyes hooded and smoldering with lust.

Lust for me.

Edging my way up the bed as he pulls off his shirt, I take in his abs and shudder at the amazing body he has, right down to that sculptured V leading down inside his pants. Swallowing hard as I admire him, I sit up and pull off my shirt throwing it on the floor with his. Nate’s eyes widen as he takes in my chest which is covered by a barely there bra. It’s extremely lacy and very see-through.

“Jesus woman, are you trying to kill me?” he asks with the biggest of grins.

I let out a small giggle as he kneels on the bed edging toward me. Licking my lips while he moves between my legs, I spread them further as he shifts up toward me. My back falls down on the bed as he positions himself over me and my hands run up his muscular back as he angles his body over mine.

It feels good having not only a man touching me again but that man being Nate.

His lips move lower gently caressing my collarbone and my head arches back enjoying his touch. Nate’s lips trail up my neck leaving firmer kisses as he nips and grazes his teeth along my skin sending a shiver down my spine. His teeth draw my earlobe through into his mouth and I shudder in delight as a slight moan leaves my throat. He chuckles, moving from my ear across my cheek and finally takes my lips with his.

Nate’s kiss is strong, passionate and full of need.

A need for me.

And this time I need him too.

My hands move up running my fingers through his hair, holding him to me as his hips press down between my legs. His cock grows hard against my pussy, and instead of freaking me out like last time it only turns me on more.

I want him—all of him.

I’m not stopping this time.

He presses his hips into me rubbing his cock against the seam of my pants, and I moan into his mouth wrapping my legs around his waist needing him closer. While pressing harder he groans as we move together, our clothes the only barrier between us now.

He pulls back from the kiss and looks into my eyes panting for breath. “Can I take your pants off?”

I give him a smile, loving the fact that he asked and didn’t just assume.

He’s such a gentleman.

I nod as I breathe heavily. “Only if you take yours off, too.”

He lets out a small satisfied moan and backs down the bed. Nate grabs the hem of my pants in his hands. I lift my ass to help him, while he continues to pull them with my panties down at the same time. He wastes no time as he throws them onto the floor.

Looking down at my pussy he shakes his head with a smirk and stands up undoing his jeans. I lean up and unclip my bra, flinging it to the ground as he pulls his jeans down. And as he does, I look back up in time to watch his cock springing free and I let out a small gasp while taking in his size.

He’s huge, way bigger than Kade ever was.

Taking a deep breath, I chew on my bottom lip trying to hide my smile as he moves back to the end of the bed. Stalking up between my legs, he picks up my left leg and trails kisses from my ankle all the way up. I’m panting as I lay back watching him move higher and higher toward my center.

Nate kisses my inner thigh and runs his nose from my thigh across to my pussy. My chest is heaving, my clit’s already throbbing and he’s barely touched me yet. His tongue delicately darts out and flicks my clit and I jolt when he blows on it sending a wave of coldness over me. I gasp as his tongue comes back quickly sending it from cold to warm, the sensation causes goosebumps to litter my skin instantly.

He twirls his tongue in just the perfect way, making all my senses come alive. My chest heaves as I clench my eyes shut just relishing in the pleasure he’s giving me. Nate’s hand skims my thigh, moving toward my pussy. As his fingers reach my opening, he slides them up and down, teasing me. I moan half in frustration, half in pleasure as he flicks his tongue on my clit and then slides his fingers inside me.

My hands fist the bedsheets while my back arches off the mattress in reaction. My head falls to the side as I gasp out. As he works me up he moves his fingers in and out at a steady rhythm, all the while his tongue continues its demanding tempo.

Moaning as he pushes in further, he hits just the right spot forcing me to gasp out in pure bliss. Flashes of light strike behind my eyes while my body quivers. My back arches off the bed and my body tightens. I flame red hot and shudder intensely feeling the pressure building. Everything pulls taut then it hits, and I explode as my body twitches and shakes, then gradually calms to flutters before my whole being relaxes.

Nate eases his fingers out of me and kisses my thigh while I unclench my fists and slowly open my eyes. He moves up over the top of me and I smile lazily as he grins at me.

“I think you’re the one trying to kill me,” I say.

He chuckles before swiping his hand over his mouth and then leaning in to kiss me.

His body presses against mine and the feeling of skin on skin is way too hot. It’s turning me on so much more. I need him. I need him so badly.

My kiss deepens and I wrap my legs around his waist drawing us closer together. His cock feels like stone against me and it’s driving me mad as we kiss so passionately I feel almost light-headed.

My hands run up his tense back muscles as our hips begin to rock together. My clit is still throbbing from his tongue lashing and I can’t wait anymore. I need all of him and I need him now, so I move my hand in between us and grasp his cock. He moans as I position it at my entrance.

Nate stills, but I don’t hesitate as I move up so his tip slides inside of me slightly. We both groan at the feeling and he seems to stop his hesitation, losing control while kissing me deeper and sliding inside me fully. We both breathe heavily into each other’s mouths as he stretches me.

It feels like he only just fits as he seats himself inside me fully, but it’s a welcomed feeling. My fingers dig into his back feeling his muscles stretch as they move and contract when he starts to draw back and then thrust forward inside me. He feels so good, and even though this is missionary it’s anything but vanilla.

His hips thrust and he rotates a little then pulls back and repeats. The rhythm is new to me but fuck it’s incredible. Nate knows what he’s doing and he knows how to get me to where we need to be. We both pant for breath as he grabs my wrist and pins it next to my head in a show of dominance. Nate’s a giver in all aspects, but I like that he takes what he wants in the bedroom. It’s turning me on even more as we work together toward our climax.

He thrusts in deeply, his pelvis hitting my clit at just the right angle to push me further and further toward the peak. My body starts to shake as my back arches off the bed. My eyes clench tightly shut as my breathing hitches. Everything and I mean everything, clenches as my body shudders, and I explode in another mind blowing orgasm much stronger than the first one as he mercilessly pounds into me.

I cry out into his mouth as he helps me ride the wave up and over the summit. Needing to break the kiss to pull in some air, his mouth moves to my neck, nipping and sucking as he lets me come down from my high. But he’s still moving inside me keeping us both in pleasure, letting us ride it out.

It begins to feel really good again, and he grabs my hips and rolls us over making me squeal in surprise as he flips me on top. I giggle as I sit up on top of his body and start to ride him as he shifts one hand to my hip to help me move the way he likes, while his other hand massages my breast.

“Fuck, you look good riding my cock,” he groans and then gnaws on his bottom lip.

My nails dig into his chest as his cock fills me completely while I bob up and down on him. “You look good beneath me,” I answer on a whisper.

He groans again and keeps moving with me as I work hard to get him to where I want him. His hand from my hip slides across and his thumb moves in circles on my clit. My head falls back and I moan as I continue to ride him. My body tenses quickly this time and I know another orgasm is about to rip through me. My muscles clench, tightening around his cock, and he groans thrusting up deeper and faster. His movements start to become jolts and I know he’s close as we both begin to pant heavily. My body quivers slightly before everything tightens and contracts just as he jolts up with a long drawn out moan as we come together. I can feel him emptying inside of me, his climax is that strong.

As I slow my rhythm down and bring my head back upright. I open my hooded eyes and look at him. His eyes are hooded too, and he has the laziest smile on his face. I lean down pressing my chest to his as I rest my head in the crook of his shoulder and neck and kiss his skin. He rubs my back gently trailing his fingertips delicately up my sensitive skin.

“That was amazing, Ria.”

Turning my head, I kiss his jaw. “That was breathtaking,” I reply and lean up kissing him once more with passion.

 

NATE

 

I’ve slept the best I have in years next to Ria. And as I lay here with her lying on my chest sleeping, I gently stroke her hair feeling calm and at peace—something I haven’t felt for a long time. Things are finally working out for me for once. She’s even more beautiful when she looks natural and I couldn’t be happier than when I’m with her.

Leaning down, I gently kiss her forehead and she stirs. I didn’t mean to wake her, but she yawns then looks up at me, opening her eyes wide like she’s shocked to see me. Ria sits up in the bed then backs away from me while covering herself with the sheet. I furrow my brows watching her act like I’m some sort of stranger.

This is NOT a good sign.

“Are you okay?”

She looks around the pool house and swallows hard. “Umm… yes, but you? You should go.”

I exhale, sitting up on the bed. “Do you regret last night?”

She softens and slumps her body. “Regret? No. But it can’t happen again, Nate. I mean it when I said we couldn’t be a thing. I’m sorry I got lost in the moment… again. I just…” she pauses and I exhale and nod feeling disappointment seep over me yet again.

It’s like whiplash, she gives me whiplash.

“You don’t do rockers… yeah okay,” I say getting up and pulling on my jeans with my back to her so she doesn’t see the hurt that must be written all over my face. I can hear her breathing heavily and I know she’s watching me as I continue to get dressed.

“We’re still friends, right?” she asks, and I turn to look at her as I wince.

“Yeah… friends.”

“Nate—”

“It’s fine, Ria… but I gotta go. I’ll see you at the filming.”

“Nate—”

“See ya, Ria.”

I tug on my shoes and walk out feeling completely used. Now I know what that feels like, I realize just how crap it really is, so I take a mental note to never use a woman again.