Chapter 6
Rico touched his lips in the back of the car. He hadn’t met to kiss her, but he couldn’t resist the urge had been far too strong. “She’s with another man, why did you do it?” Rico swore at himself.
This was his fault this time, the forgiveness he sought out in his mind from Matt was nothing compared to what he had done today. He had knowingly kissed Lalena even though he knew she was sleeping with and involved with another man. Sure she had claimed it was nothing serious. But did Jake Newton feel that way?
Jake could very well be just like Matt, oblivious to the fact that his woman wasn’t really in love with him. He knew he had made the comments to her about what he thought Jake felt, and that she wasn’t going to be part of his future life. But he wasn’t sure about that, he had only been lashing out at her, he was hurt.
At first she had fought him, but he kept kissing her, urging her for a reaction. He was sure it would happen; he could honestly see the way she looked at him. There were thoughts that were not pure coming from her eyes when she looked Rico’s way. He knew he wasn’t crazy, and when she had kissed him back, it had taken everything to pull away from her.
He had walked away from her, even though he had wanted to go back to her. “She’s involved with another man, what the fuck Rico.” He swore once more at himself.
Once he was back in the office Sally had asked where Lalena was. “Hey where is Lalena at?” She questioned him.
“She had something else to do.” Rico answered and headed to his office. He could still feel her lips on his, and it made him even more upset.
He licked his lips and could taste her; he craved to have more from her. But he knew it wasn’t possible, what had happened today should never have taken place. The only way he could ever be with her is if she was alone.
Rico had realized today that for some reason he wanted so much more from her. He would be willing to be with only her. She had asked him what he wanted from her and he had almost told her, I want to marry you. The thought had come to his mind quickly and scared him though.
She would never believe him, he was certain. She had made it clear in the car that she felt he was not a good man. “How can you judge me when you do the same thing?” She had asked him.
He knew she was right about that, he did use woman for his own devices. But that didn’t mean he wanted to use her, because he didn’t. Rico wanted more from her, but there was no way he could have it. He wondered what Jake Newton felt for her, not for the first time since he had seen him open the door at her place last night.
Rico considered talking to the boy, but what would that accomplish? “Maybe it will let you know how long you’ll have to wait for her.” He thought, however, he shook the thought away.
“What would it look like me approaching him and asking about his feelings for her? He would surely know there was a reason for this, and most likely not a very good one.” He commented to no one. He pictured what his reaction would be if someone came up to him and asked him the question about a female he was seeing.
“Not a good idea at all. I just really have to stop, I can’t have her.” Rico admitted to himself. However, his body yearned to kiss her again, to feel her skin under his fingertips. He wanted her so badly he didn’t even hear Sally knock on the door.
“Excuse me Rico; did you forget you have that date tonight?” Sally opened his door and poked her head inside his office.
“Oh shit, yeah I did forget. Am I late?” Rico asked.
“Well you’ll be a few minutes late. She’s meeting you at Outback Steakhouse.” Sally told him.
“Wasn’t I supposed to pick her up?” He questioned.
“Yes, but with it being so late, you’ll miss your reservations if you go and pick her up first. So instead I just sent the car to get her.” Sally said.
“Thanks. Do I even have time to go home and change shirts?” He questioned and looked at his watch. “Shit no, it’s all her fault.” He said under his breath.
“Excuse me, I didn’t quite hear you.” She questioned.
“Nothing I was just thinking to myself.” Rico got up and headed out the door. “See you in the morning. If you see Lalena tonight tell her that she should be in at 9 in the morning.” Rico told Sally and left.
He wasn’t really happy that he had this date now. All he could think about was the kiss and how she had fought at first, then given in. It could have been a sweet victory was it not for Jake Newton and his part in her life.