Chapter Sixteen
Lila (Thursday)
Oh, my God...
I had no idea what had come over me, why I’d suddenly decided to take that bold move, but here I was kissing my boss like there was no tomorrow. Of all the bad ideas I’d ever had in my life, this was probably the worst.
But it felt like the best.
“Oh wow,” I gasped as my butt slid a little along the piano keys, making one hell of a racket. I wasn’t concerned about the noise. I wasn’t even thinking about the fact that this was a public place and anyone could walk in at any given moment. I was only concerned with the fact that Xander’s fingers were slowly, tantalizingly, moving up my body.
“Oh, my God.” His mouth was everywhere; all over my neck, on my jawline, kissing my earlobes. I could barely even think with all the sensations tearing right through me.
A hunger was growing inside of me with each passing second. Every time his fingers brushed electricity past my skin, every time his mouth sent flutters of excitement everywhere, each time his eyes met mine and that intense heat flowed... I felt like I was about to tear him apart with my teeth. I was slowly losing all control.
As he fisted the material of my top, clearly feeling as needy as me, my nipples hardened under the soft, silky material. All the fantasies that I’d been having in the back of my mind, all the feelings I’d been trying to hide were all crashing to the surface like a tsunami of waves. Maybe this would ruin things for me and Kyle. Maybe not. I hoped not, but I just couldn’t stop myself. I wasn’t thinking straight anymore. All my brain wanted was Xander. Whatever the consequences.
I sucked in air desperately, trying to get buckets of it into my lungs as the top half of me became very bare. The top that I’d agonizingly picked out earlier at home was strewn to one side, and Xander was flickering his eyes over my pale, bare skin like it was the Holy Grail or something. He wanted me – bad – it was written all over his face, and that made me feel much sexier than I ever had before.
“You’re beautiful,” he gasped loudly, before placing sweet kisses along my neckline once more. I couldn’t help but believe his words because he spoke them with such conviction. I’d never seen myself as anything other than plain before, but as I tossed my head back, exposing more skin to him, allowing my hair to flow out wildly behind me, I felt like a goddess.
Then his soft lips became sharper nibbles, which I found myself enjoying, as well. It was unexpected, but in the best way possible.
His fingers expertly unhooked my bra, the material floating away, my breasts claimed by his mouth in a heartbeat. His lips, his tongue, his teeth... I couldn’t take it anymore. I slid right off the piano without even realizing and straight onto his lap. Xander didn’t miss a beat. He grabbed me and kissed me hard, pressing himself against me.
I could feel him, all of him, his thick, throbbing erection, and my God, I wanted it. I panted loudly, my breaths becoming intensely ragged as heat spread throughout my body. I ached, I pulsated, and I could feel a wetness growing. I was so far past the point of no return that there was no turning back. I wanted him, if I didn’t have him I might just die, so I squealed with excitement when he lifted me up.
“Where are you taking me?” I giggled happily into his mouth, but he didn’t need to answer me because my butt soon crashed against the top of the piano. It seemed like we weren’t going anywhere; we were staying right here.
Xander unzipped my jeans and wiggled them down. I shifted myself about to help him, eager to be naked. Although when I was sitting there on display for him in only a simply pair of cotton panties, I couldn’t help but notice that I was the only one flashing anything.
“This isn’t fair,” I insisted, tugging at his pants. “Why don’t I get to see anything of you?”
“You want to see me?” He smirked, his lips curling upward in happiness while he took a step back. “Fine, you can see me.”
He grabbed his shirt and yanked it open, allowing the buttons to rip all the way down as he did. I clapped my hands over my mouth in stunned silence, which only grew as I finally got to see the muscles that lay beneath. I had a feeling that he was the sort of man who worked out. I had guessed he had a decent set of abs, but my God, his body was breathtaking. “They good enough for you?”
I didn’t answer. I simply wiggled my finger and indicated for him to come closer. As he moved seductively in my direction, he allowed his pants to fall, leaving us both in just our underwear. Somehow, I felt totally exposed and vulnerable, yet that small bit of material left was too much.
We kissed passionately, pressing our bodies tightly together, allowing us to feel even more of one another. And as our lips moved in unison, his fingers teased the edge of my underwear and the top of my thighs. I had shivers tearing through my body, thundering up and down, causing me to cling even harder to him. I rocked my hips closer, trying my best to tell him exactly what I needed. Thankfully, he seemed to get my meaning because his gorgeous, silky fingers started to trickle up and down my slit.
“Oh, shit,” I gasped as he drove further into me. He was exploring my heat, feeling my wetness, and from the way his whole body was trembling, it felt good to him. “Oh, God, I need more.” I wanted to feel him inside me, I wanted to know what it’d feel like to ride Xander, but he wasn’t there yet. Instead, he thumbed my clit until I felt like I was about to explode.
Just as I felt like the pressure was about to consume me entirely, he stepped backward, leaving me cold and alone. I opened and closed my mouth a few times, trying to say something, but I wasn’t quite sure what.
Luckily, before I managed to make a fool out of myself, he reached down and tugged a condom from his pocket, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively at me. It was almost as if he was asking me if I was fully ready for this, if I was prepared to take the next step. I bit down on my lip and nodded slowly. There was no stopping me now.
As he rolled the condom over his thick length, I finally braved a glanced down at it. When I saw what was coming my way, my eyes widened in surprise. He was huge, bigger than I’d ever seen before, and I had no idea how I was going to handle it.
I was excited, though, and eager to find out.
He moved back between my legs, and I could feel him there, teasing my entrance. I tried to shift forward, to slide him into me, but I had no control in this position. Xander had all the power and I quite liked that. I liked giving myself over to him – it felt right.
Finally, he shifted his hips slightly backward and slammed himself into me. The sound that flew from my mouth was like a battle cry, guttural, like nothing I’d ever heard myself make before. My heart was pumping powerfully through my whole body, my mind racing, that powerful wave building all over again. I was losing it. Xander was consuming me, and it was all I’d ever wanted.
“Fuck...” I screamed as the bliss swallowed me whole. I dug my nails into his shoulders, needing him to hold me as I buckled and crumbled. The waves kept coming and coming, shattering me. It was the most powerful, intense orgasm I’d ever felt, and I never wanted it to end...
“Wow,” I panted into his shoulders as I tried to get my breath back. “Wow, that was...”
“Something else, I know,” he agreed, nestling into me. The moment was sweet and tender. I felt like we were building a bond as we held each other. It was almost as wonderful as having sex with him had been.
I wasn’t the sort for a one-night stand. I didn’t know what the standard protocol was, but it didn’t feel like it was hugging for ages. Still, I wasn’t complaining; it felt nice. I didn’t want to let him go, but we had to.
Xander pulled back and stared into my eyes, causing us both to burst into slightly awkward giggles. What we’d just done was so wrong. I couldn’t believe I’d risked everything for one moment of fun, yet it didn’t feel as bad as I thought it would. I wasn’t instantly filled with regret and shame. I didn’t feel totally humiliated that my boss had seen me naked. Somehow, Xander still had me feeling quite comfortable.
“You okay?” he asked as he reached down to grab his clothes.
“Yep.” I took his lead and jumped down to grab my own clothing. Usually, this was a part of the night I found embarrassing. I hated the scrabble for something, anything, to cover my body, but now I was too distracted by Xander and his gorgeous body to care about my own. He was easily the hottest man I’d ever been with, and I wanted to savor every second. “Yeah, I’m good.”
“Would you like a ride home?” This didn’t even feel like a way to get rid of me. It seemed like he was just being nice to me. “My car’s parked outside.”
“That would be awesome, thank you.” There was a pregnant pause in the air, and for some reason I felt the need to fill it. “I’m... I’m sorry about my voice today. I haven’t been well, but if we ever come back again, I’ll make sure it’s well rested.” I wasn’t sure if I was overstepping the mark, but I did want to know where our future lay.
“Why don’t you come in on Monday?” He shrugged casually with a smile, clearly not as worried about my future as I was. Of course, he wouldn’t fire me for sleeping with him; he didn’t seem like that at all. “If you’re up to it, record some more then.”
“That would be wonderful, thank you.” I couldn’t keep the huge grin from my face. I was so incredibly happy. “I appreciate it.”
“Of course.” He spun me around and kissed me lightly on the lips. “I want to see you before then. Does that sound good to you?”
Was he serious? Could this be the start of something? More than a one-night stand?
I didn’t dare dream it, but it seemed like it was happening anyway. It seemed like Xander might want me for more than just... well, that. I nodded, dumfounded, and rose on my toes to kiss him once more. With Xander, I felt special – he made me feel incredible.
If this was only a dream, if there was no way it could last, I wanted to take advantage of every second of it. This would likely be the best time of my whole life, and I wanted to savor it all.