He pulls back and looks me in the eyes and smiles. “You ready for this?” he asks.

“Definitely,” I reply and he pulls back from me and stands up from the bed and walks over to his suitcase and pulls out a condom box.

“Scoot up the bed, sugar,” he says pulling out a row of condoms and walking back over to me as I move up the bed and rest my head on the pillow.

“Now you sure you want to do this? You can’t take it back once it’s done,” he asks and I roll my eyes as he sits on the edge of the bed. I grab the condoms from him and rip one of the packets away from the others and tear it open with my teeth and hand it to him.

“Okay, but I need to remove this first,” he says. He holds his erect cock in his hand and removes his piercing placing it on the bedside table. “One day, I will keep this in and fuck you with it bareback, but tonight we need the condom so it has to go.”

Then he takes out the condom from the packet and rolls it on his massive length. I swallow hard because I’m pretty sure this is going to hurt a little, maybe a lot. A guy that big and a girl who’s never done this before probably isn’t the best match for my first time. I want to do this with him, and I’m pretty worked up and wet from the tongue lashing he just given me. So hopefully it won’t be too bad.

He moves in over the top of me and I can’t help but notice my heart is racing as I look up at him and he looks into my eyes.

“I want so badly to fuck you, sugar,” he says.

I bite my bottom lip wondering if I should just let him. “Okay,” I say and he raises his eyebrow at me.

“Okay?”

“Okay, you can fuck me. Be rough with me if you want,” I say and he smiles and shakes his head.

“Fuck Ella, don’t say shit like that.”

I feel his cock twitch against my abdomen.

“What? Why?” I ask.

He exhales and looks me in the eyes. “Because I want to so bad. And ordinarily I would fuck you, but this is your first time. Generally, I wouldn’t give a shit about it and just fuck a virgin. But you’re different and I don’t want to hurt you,” he says. “So while as much as I want to bend you over and fuck you hard and fast from behind, I’m going to do you missionary this time around. We can work up to my style later, but the first time has to be…gentle…ish,” he says.

“Okay, well less talk and more…” I pause and gesture with my eyebrows insinuatingly. He chuckles and leans in kissing me forcefully. His hand runs down my side and to my thigh and then he pulls on my leg bringing it up around his back. His tongue massages mine as he moves his hips off me and runs his hand down in between us positioning his rock hard cock at my entrance. He doesn’t ask if I’m sure again, but instead takes the lead and moves his tip to my opening and then thrusts inside me deeply while kissing me. Pain rips through my abdomen and I gasp into his mouth.

“Shit sorry,” he says as I try to catch my breath. “I forgot for a second, I got caught up in the moment. Are you okay?”

I slow my breathing and nod as he looks into my eyes. They start to water, but I will myself not to cry. It doesn’t hurt that bad. It was just more of a shock than anything. His dark blue eyes look into mine and he frowns. “Ella?”

I breathe and swallow hard as I move my hand up onto his bicep and hold on. “I’m okay, I just needed a second,” I say and he nods and leans in kissing me. I kiss him back finally feeling like I’ve acclimatised to the full feeling inside me. His tongue massages mine and his hand moves out and takes my hand pinning it to the bed above my head. He grabs my other hand and brings it up to meet my other one and he holds both my wrists together above my head pinning me to the pillow. I can’t touch him and I don’t like that idea, but he’s in control so I let him lead this. His free hand moves down and holds his weight next to me on the bed and he slowly starts to move inside me. I moan at the friction of him moving and it hurts a little like he’s stretching me, but it’s a good pain and I don’t want him to stop.

He kisses me again as he moves a little quicker and lets out a small groan of pleasure himself. His lips leave mine and trail down my cheek to my neck as we both pant with the motions of our bodies working together. I move my other leg up and wrap them both around his waist and gasp when he pushes in because it feels even deeper. He’s taking this slow and I don’t mind. I like the tempo we’re working at, I’m starting to like the feeling and the pain is getting less and less and the pleasure is taking over as my body begins to tingle all over. He thrusts into me and his kisses on my neck are becoming more like little love bites now as his teeth graze my skin. It’s primal, animalistic, and I like the feeling. His lips move up to my ear lobe and he bites on it hard and I moan as he tugs. I like this side of him. Who am I kidding? I like every side of Danger, and right now I am loving the feeling growing inside my body. The pressure is building and his lips make their way back to mine and he kisses me strongly. His tongue colliding with mine as they dance together perfectly in sync. I wish I could touch him, but being restricted like this is exciting and the tight grip he has on my wrists is only adding to the pleasure engulfing me.

My body begins to shake and I clench my eyes tight. I moan into his mouth as he thrusts deeply inside me working at a quicker pace now. He’s not being gentle, he’s not being rough either, but he’s definitely not taking it easy. Beads of sweat are dripping off my skin as I tremble with the pleasure. I flame in a vast array of heat and suddenly it’s like I’m raging hot. I moan out loud as I shake uncontrollably, my body tenses, my toes curl, and my fists clench together as he thrusts deeply hitting the right spot. Then I climax, splintering into a thousand tiny shards of broken glass shattering all over the bed. He’s broken me, any walls I may have had leading up to this point that were stopping me from letting him in, have been completely blown away. Danger is a part of me now, forever. Whether I like it or not he’s worked his way in, even after such a short amount of time.

I breathe rapidly as I come down from my high and he continues to thrust inside of me.

“God damn sugar, you’re so fucking tight around my cock,” he says and I’m still recovering and can’t react to what he’s said. Kissing me forcefully, his tongue dances with mine and he starts to moan into my mouth. I know he’s close and I wish there were something I could do to help him along, so I squeeze my muscles tightly inside and he groans and thrusts faster and deeper. He lets go of my hands and pulls back slightly pulling my legs from around his waist. I wonder what he’s doing when he grabs my legs and pulls them back toward my head and rests them on his chest and starts to thrust into me again. It’s deeper this way, and I moan again as he pushes into me fast and hard. I close my eyes relishing in the fact that I’m getting worked up again quite quickly. He’s so good at this. I had no idea sex could be so amazing. He holds onto my leg with one arm and the other he brings down and his thumb presses on my clit. I gasp as he moves his thumb on my clit quickly. Before I know it the heat is blazing back on, and in an instant, a fire so hot is burning no one will be able to extinguish it except Danger.

“Oh God,” I murmur.

“Come with me, sugar,” he says.

I’ve read about people coming together I just never knew that was an actual thing. He presses harder on my clit and he thrusts into me fast. My body is already shaking and it’s seconds before I’m feeling the pressure building up. I clench my toes and as I do I feel his body tense the same time as mine. My hands fist on the sheets as I clench my eyes shut and squirm. I moan out loud, as we both stiffen and then relax our bodies at the same time as the wave of ecstasy hits us both exploding like a Fourth of July fireworks display.

“Fuck,” Danger says as he pauses to unload inside the condom. I relax my body with a drawn out moan as I push back into the bed.

He pulls my legs down from his chest and lays down on top of me and as we both pant trying to catch our rapid breathing. He stares into my eyes and moves some hair from my face.

“You’re incredible, you know that?” he whispers breathlessly.

“I am?” I squeak out, equally as out of breath.

He nods and smiles. “Did I hurt you, badly?”

“You hurt me real good, Danger,” I say and he smirks and laughs.

“That’s a good thing, I hope?”

I nod and he leans in kissing me passionately.

“That’s very good. I never knew it could feel so…wonderful!”

“Oh yeah, that’s only scratching the surface of how good it can feel, sugar,” he says and I open my eyes wide.

“It gets better than that?”

“I’ll show you just how good it can be sugar, don’t you worry about that. Now we’ve broken the ‘seal’ we’ll be able to do a lot more.”

I bite my bottom lip and nod. “Sorry you couldn’t be rough with me tonight,” I say and he shakes his head and kisses my nose.

“Hey, it’s all good, this was great too.”

I smile as he pushes off of me and wince as he pulls out gasping at the loss of him from inside me.

I can’t wait to do that again.

He rolls over to the side of the bed next to me and pulls off the condom and ties it in a knot throwing it on the bedside table next to the bed. He lays on his back and I lay on my back looking up at the ceiling wondering what happens now.

“Hey come here,” he says and I look at him as he gestures for me to snuggle into his side. So I smile and roll over and cuddle him, resting my head on his tattooed chest. It’s only now that I notice both his nipples are pierced too. I smirk and bring my hand up to rest on his chest.

“So that was…” I trail off.

“Yeah, that was,” he says and I giggle.

“Thank you for being cool about the whole virgin thing,” I say and look up at him.

He looks down at me and half smiles. “Hey, we’ve all been there. Sorry, I was weird about it. I’m just glad we finally got to this part. I’ve been dying to get inside you, but it was totally worth the wait.”

I cuddle back into him and my stomach flutters with butterflies. I feel giddy. I feel happy.

“So, you were adopted, hey?” he asks.

I smile, obviously he wants to chat now which is a good sign, it means this wasn’t just all about sex.

“Yeah, when I was six-months-old. Annie was the same.”

“Do you ever think about your real parents?” he asks as his hand slowly caresses up and down my arm.

“Sometimes. But I don’t obsess over them like Annie does. Sure, I struggle with it at times. I wish I knew them, but I guess it’s better not knowing, you know?”

He moves his hand up into my hair and starts playing with it. “Yeah, I guess. It would do my head in. I’d want to know. So I think you’re really something to be so okay with it all,” he says and I shrug.

“You have to be, or you spend your whole life living in the past. That’s why Annie is so depressed right now because she’s lost in her past. I wish I could help her,” I say and he squeezes me to him.

“I know she seems entirely lost. She has to figure that out for herself or get some help, either way you can’t take it on.”

“I know, but I’ll just be there for her, that’s all I can do,” I say and he nods. “What about you? Do you have any siblings?” I ask and he chuckles.

“Yeah, one bratty older sister,” he replies and I smile.

“If she’s older, what makes her bratty?”

“She’s a princess! But unlike you, you’re a princess who does actually care about other people. Unfortunately, she only cares about herself. Well, most of the time anyway.”

“So if she’s older then how old are you?” I ask and he exhales and tenses slightly.

“I’m twenty,” he says and I smile and nod.

“And what about your parents?” I ask and he tenses even more.

“What about them?” he asks.

“Well, where are they?”

“They live in California, they’re basically hippies and they spend a lot of time at music festivals and crap like that. They’re unique people,” he says. I smile and try to contain my laugh because Danger looks so grunge and I can’t imagine his parents sporting a peace sign with long hair and tie-dye clothing.

“Wow,” I say and he huffs.

“Yeah,” he says and exhales.

“So what’s your real name, Danger?” I ask and he tenses up completely and unwraps himself from around me and sits up on the bed.

I furrow my brows and sit up next to him sensing his uncomfortableness.

“My name is, Danger, that’s all you need to know.”

I laugh and he turns his back to me sitting on the edge of the bed and immediately I know I’ve struck a nerve.

“Okay, I think you need to leave,” he says.

My whole body tenses and I look at his back as his chest is heaving like he’s furious.

What the fuck?

“I…I’m sorry, I didn’t realise it was a sore spot for you. I w…won’t ask you again. P…please, let me stay. We can t…talk about something else,” I stutter out suddenly feeling icy cold and ashamed of my nakedness.

He exhales and stands looking at the door. I open my eyes wide because he's serious. He just took my virginity and now because I asked him what his real name is he wants me to leave? Tonight was supposed to be special. I was supposed to spend the night in his bed cuddled into his arms and making love to him multiple times, and now he’s kicking me out over his name?

What the actual fuck?

I swallow hard and stand up feeling a lot sore, and I can’t help but notice the small amount of blood on the bed reminding me of what he took from me tonight. The silence in the room is deafening as I move over and pick up my dress and underwear and put them on as quickly as possible. He doesn’t look at me the entire time leaving his back to me. My eyes start to water with tears and I feel completely ashamed and used. Danger is making me feel abhorrent and I hate that he’s doing this to me. I grab my shoes and walk past him. I get to the door and turn back to look at him, but he’s turned around and is facing away from me again.

“Really?” I ask and he doesn’t react. I exhale loudly so he knows I’m pissed and I open the door and walk out without looking back. I hear the door click closed behind me and my racing heart is pounding so ferociously I feel sick. I’m breathing so fast I feel dizzy and my eyes are foggy from the unshed tears that I can’t actually see. I blink rapidly, and the tears I was fighting fall over as I start to cry, feeling completely overwhelmed by what’s just happened.

Tonight was meant to be special, and in the space of a minute it’s turned into something horrible and a disaster.

Danger used me.

Of that, I am sure.

He used me for sex.

He got what he wanted, and then when things got too serious for him he bailed and left me out in the cold completely naked and exposed. I left my shattered heart in that room with him scattered all over the floor. I opened myself up, I felt something for him and he treats me like this? I can’t believe I fell for his ‘nice guy bad boy’ act.

Everyone was right!

And as I amble down to my hotel room, my feet feel like they a weighted. I really hope Annie is not in a mess tonight so I can talk to her about my turmoil for a change. Because, honestly, I need to talk to someone. Right now, I feel completely and utterly worthless and ashamed of myself. I let him use me. I did that, no one else. It’s all my fault I feel this way and I only have myself to blame. Wiping my eyes with my free hand while I carry my shoes in my other. My eyes are so blurry that I can hardly see the room numbers as I sob all the way down the hall.

I finally find my room and I swipe the keycard. I immediately hear Annie crying and for once I wish I could be the one who would be comforted tonight. Just for once, couldn’t she be okay so I could talk with her. I can’t be the one to comfort her tonight. I walk in and close the door and head straight to my bed. I climb in fully dressed and get under the covers listening to Annie cry, and I don’t bother to hide my sobbing either. Annie probably won’t even notice, so I roll over and sob into my pillow for the rest of the night.