Indi

 

As I’m making out with Caleb on my lounge suite, I can’t help but feel like a massive weight has finally been lifted from my shoulders. For six long years I thought Maddie and Caleb had a fling behind the building at school and that was what I based my trust issues on. Now, as it turns out, I know that he didn’t actually let her suck him off at all, and it changes everything. I know he’s telling the truth because I can always tell when he’s lying. His eyes tell me everything I need to know. I’ve been so utterly stupid all these years. I could’ve been with him this whole time. We could have been happy. And it is my own stupid fault for leaving before talking with him. I don’t know if I will ever forgive myself for that. But right now, as Caleb is kissing me so passionately that my knees feel weak, I can’t help but be thankful that we finally talked this through. Without me breaking down and being honest with him, we could still be tiptoeing around this whole, do we–don’t we dance, that we both do so well. And my God am I happy that we’re both in this.

Caleb is mine, as he should have been six years ago. But I thought he didn’t love me the way I loved him. Now I know because of the way he’s behaved over the last few days since we reconnected, that he feels just as much for me as I do for him. He loves me. I just have to make sure we don’t depend on each other so much that it could cause us issues. I couldn’t stand it if that happened. I’ll need to watch him with the band. Make sure he doesn’t make bad decisions when it comes to drugs and alcohol. But my Caleb is smart, and he’s never been one to really want those vices, so hopefully I won’t have to worry too much. But why am I thinking of all this right now? I should be in the moment with him and concentrating on his passionate kiss.

I run my hands through his hair as I sit straddling him on the lounge suite. His hands move under my pyjama top and against my skin clenching onto me like he can’t believe this is happening. Our tongues dance with each other as we kiss passionately and powerfully. But I need to make this real. If I’m going to be Caleb’s girl, then we need to make this official and after running out on him last night, he deserves this.

I pull my mouth away from his as we both pant trying to catch our breath. He looks at me and smiles so broadly it stuns me for a second.

“You’re breathtakingly beautiful, Indi,” he whispers and moves in to kiss me again, but I pull back and remove my hands from his and place them on his shoulders and push up standing. He furrows his brows like he’s scared I’ve changed my mind about us. Poor guy.

“I love you,” I whisper and put my hand out for him to take.

He looks at it, taking it in his and stands up. “Are we going somewhere?”

“I think we have something we need to finish,” I reply.

His eyes light up as he smiles and leans down picking me up by my waist and throwing me over his shoulder. I squeal as he starts to rush toward my bedroom and we both laugh when he slaps my arse on the way. Running through the bedroom door, he slows his pace pulling me down his body so my front rubs along his gradually until my feet meet the floor. He looks into my eyes and all playfulness has left and now only lust-filled tension fills the air. He brings his hands up to my face and caresses both my cheeks. The warmth of his skin ignites a fire inside my belly that’s making it harder to breathe just from looking into his smouldering eyes. He leans down and gently places his lips on mine and this kiss is gentle yet full of desire. I can tell he wants to take his time. I want this to last all night. The way I’m feeling right now, I’d be happy if it were just me and Caleb in my bedroom for all of eternity.

His tongue slides into my mouth and dances against mine effortlessly. We always fit so perfectly together. One of his hands slides around the back of my head and into my hair holding my lips to his. I move in closer so our bodies are touching in every way as I run my hands up under his leather jacket and slowly pull down. His arms drop to his sides and I pull his jacket off, but our lips stay connected as it falls to the floor. I run my hands up along his strong muscular arms, the ones I love so much. He has no tattoos, but he doesn’t need them to look like a bad boy rocker. He looks perfect to me. I grip hold of his bulging biceps and he moves his hands to my pyjama top and lifts. Begrudgingly I part lips with him as he pulls it up over my head and I see him exhale and smile as he looks down at my exposed breasts. I step in closer and pull his vest up and over his head more forcefully than he was with me. I just need to feel skin on skin. Caleb chuckles at my show of impatience and I rush to him as his vest falls to the floor and press my naked chest against his. He smiles at me bringing his hand up and tucking some hair behind my ear.

“So beautiful,” he whispers staring at me.

I giggle and smirk at him. “Shut up and kiss me,” I say while stepping on the tips of my toes to reach him.

“Only ‘cause you asked so nicely,” he teases and then presses his lips to mine. I run my fingers through his hair. I love doing that. I feel like I can hold him to me and have more control over the kiss. Plus, his hair is awesome! His tongue moves with mine in perfect rhythm as we run our hands all over each other. His hand comes down to my breast and he massages it gently sending a shockwave straight through my core. I want him and I can’t wait to feel him inside of me.

He rolls my nipple between his fingers and then tugs on it slightly which makes my breath catch. He notices my pleasure and stops the kiss and moves his mouth down my collarbone and toward the nipple he’s playing with. In all my life, no one has ever made me feel like Caleb does with just a simple touch. He takes my nipple into his mouth and gently sucks, I gasp at the warmth surrounding my sensitive bud and run my fingers through his hair again. He twirls his tongue around the now erect flesh and suddenly but gently bites down. I gasp out loud as the shock sends a surge straight to my clit causing it to throb. I’m already wet for him and he’s hardly touched me. I clench my thighs together to try and dull the ache between them, but it hardly works. I’m getting so worked up and we’ve hardly even started.

He moves his mouth from my breast and kisses down my exposed stomach to the waist of my pyjama bottoms. I look down at him while listening to my breathing which is now rushed and harsh. The anticipation of him making me feel the way he did last night is growing, and I can’t wait to feel the ecstasy of his touch again. He kneels down so his face is in line with my pussy and he looks up at me with a smirk. A smirk so delicious that if my pants could melt they would surely be running down my legs.

He runs his hands up my legs and I feel like I’m starting to shake with anticipation. Bringing his fingers to the seam of my pants, he places one finger down either side of them. I swallow hard as I watch him watching me.

I wish I knew what he was thinking?

I bite my bottom lip as I try to control my ragged breathing. He looks right down at my pussy and then his fingers pull my pants and panties down in one swift movement. I’m standing here in front of him looking straight into his eyes as he taps my ankle for me to step out of my pants. I do as he suggests and then stand back in front of him completely bare and he looks back up at me and blinks his eyes a few times.

“You are…I have no words,” he says and then leans forward planting a chaste kiss on my pussy. I swallow hard as the warmth of his lips sends a tingle straight through me. He stands abruptly and presses his lips to my forehead and moves his hands to his jeans to unbutton and undo the zip. His jeans fall down freeing his rock solid cock and I desperately want to reach out and pleasure him, but for some reason I’m stuck to the spot.

Nerves I think.

Last night, I wasn’t nervous at all. But tonight, now that I’m his girl and we’re doing this for the first time as a couple, I want it to be perfect. I need him to feel as good as I know I’m going to. I just want everything to be perfect.

He brings his hand up to my chin and forces my head up so my eyes stare into his. I bite my bottom lip because his gorgeous face is too much for me to take in right now.

“What’s going on in that beautiful head of yours?” he asks inching our now naked bodies closer together, so every part of us is touching.

“I just…”

“Indi, talk to me. Am I going too fast?” he asks suddenly looking very unsure.

“No, no, it’s not that—”

“Then talk to me, Indi. You know what happened last time you kept something from me,” he says, the pain of the past stings my eyes.

“It’s just…I want this to be…perfect. I want you to feel as good as I know I will. I just don’t know if I’ll be as good at this as you are,” I admit and his intense gaze softens and he leans down so we’re face to face.

“Indi, just being here with you like this is perfection for me. Being inside you will be pure bliss. You don’t have to worry about being as good at this as me because Indi, we were made for each other. This is only awesome when it’s with you.”

“You’ve only been with me once though?”

“Once was enough to know that making love with you is the only way I want to make love from now on. Indi, like I said we fit together perfectly. You don’t even have to try because we were made for each other. Anything you do will be perfect,” he says leaning in and kissing me strongly.

I kiss back with the same enthusiasm and move my hand down to take his rigid cock in my small hand. He moans as I grip onto him tightly, but not so it’s painful. I start to move my hand up and down trying to make sure that he knows I want to pleasure him as much as I know he will me. His kisses become less controlled and he starts to move his hips in time with my hand. I love that I can make him feel this turned on. I enjoy the control I have over his pleasure. He moans into my mouth and moves his hand down my waist and over my hip. Then he dips inside my thigh and I step my legs apart so he has easier access. He gently moves his hand against my pussy rubbing which instantly causes a tingle to run all over my body as I continue to stroke his length. He runs his finger inside and puts pressure on my clit causing me to jolt slightly at his touch. It’s a lot harder to concentrate on pleasuring him while he’s pleasuring me, but at least we’re in this together. Our kissing is less focussed as we’re both trying to focus on our breathing, but our lips are still touching as we work each other up. He circles on my clit and my whole body is swaying with the movements trying to work with his rhythm. It feels so good. A tingle shoots up my spine and my muscles start to tighten then I moan into his mouth.

“Come for me, baby,” he whispers against my lips and I whimper in response.

He presses and circles harder on my clit, and it’s tougher for me to stay focus on pleasuring him. I want to so badly, but he’s making it very difficult to concentrate. He takes my hand from his cock and puts it on his chest. I open my eyes and look at him wondering why he stopped me from stroking him.

“Was it bad?” I ask and then he presses harder on my clit and I moan out again.

“No baby it felt too good and I was going to come, and I only want to come inside you. But I want you to come. Now,” he demands as he increases pressure on my clit, then moves his mouth to mine forcefully. He flicks his finger against my clit in such a way that sends a shiver all over me. My back arches and my eyes clench tight trying to ride the wave of agonising pleasure. I grab hold around his neck to steady myself because my knees feel weak as my whole body tenses. I see stars behind my closed eyelids and I clench everything so tightly while I hold my breath. He flicks one more time and a wave of ecstasy rolls over me like a tsunami. The waves of pleasure hitting every surface of my skin erupting into an inferno of desire as my body explodes into a massive, all-consuming climax. My knees buckle and Caleb chuckles as he wraps his arms around my back and holds me to him to stop me from falling.

“Oh God, Caleb,” I whisper still with my eyes closed as he carries me to the bed.

“I know, baby. Now let me make love to you?” he asks as he crawls over the top of me.

I open my heavy lazy eyes and look into his that are bright and full of lust. “Please,” is all I can manage. He smiles then leans in kissing me, pressing his weight on top of me. I kiss him back, but suddenly he pulls back and looks into my eyes again. Panic starts to wash over me that he’s changed his mind.

“Are you on call?” he asks and relief floods me as I giggle.

“No, not tonight. I’m all yours,” I whisper.

He slowly pulls back again and I bite my lip wondering what question he has this time.

“Do you want me to use a condom?” he asks and I smile biting my bottom lip.

Chuckling and nodding in understanding at my facial expressions, he gets up and walks over to his jeans and pulls one from his wallet. He actually grabs a couple and comes back over to the bed placing one packet in his mouth and ripping it open with his teeth.

God damn that’s a sexy move!

He looks at me one last time and I know another question is coming, but this time I think I know what one it is, so I intercept first.

“Yes, I’m sure. Now please make love to me,” I say and he smiles as he rolls the condom on and throws the spare on the bedside table. He crawls his way up over me and I grin as he leans down and kisses me. I run my hands up his arms and one into his hair while the other stops on his shoulder blade. He positions himself at my entrance and I open my eyes to watch him staring down at me. I smile against his kiss and he slowly eases inside of me. As we look into each other’s eyes, something passes between us. Unmistakable love and devotion and a feeling that everything is going to be okay. It sends a shiver down my spine and joy runs through me like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. My whole body is shaking, but in a good way as I’m now connected with Caleb, just like all those years ago.

The emotion and rawness I felt back then is here with me again now. I love him, he loves me, and everything about this moment, as I stare into his beautiful chocolate brown eyes, is perfect. I moan into his mouth as he moans right back into mine. The filling feeling hits me and I wrap my legs around his waist and pull him in deeper. He kisses me slowly as we start to move in unison. The wave of pleasure strokes over me immediately and feeling him inside of me is unquestionably pleasurable. Sure when we were younger we did this, but this time it’s different. There’s more meaning behind it now. We’re together, and this is our first time as a couple and it couldn’t be any more perfect. He grinds into me slowly and sublimely. This is definitely making love. This is nothing like the fucks I’ve become so accustom to from other guys. Obviously, this is what being in love feels like. Slow and passionate, slow and steady, as our bodies move together both striving to please each other, the feeling of love is flooding the room.

“Oh God Indi, you feel so good,” he murmurs against my lips.

I move back in kissing him as he moves in deeper rocking gently against my core.

“I love you so much,” I murmur.

He groans and pushes just at the right spot to make me shudder. We’re working effortlessly together and this couldn’t be more faultless. Every thrust inside me makes me feel alive, more alive than I have all my life. Being with Caleb ignites something within me. Something that makes me believe in a happy ever after. I could have that with him, and as he strives effortlessly to bring me to climax I realise that I have wasted all my time worrying about the past instead of concentrating on my future. My future is with Caleb. I know that now, and as he thrusts into me again a jolt surges right through my core making me gasp as my back arches upward while I clench my toes up tight. My body is trembling as he kisses me passionately. Then a wave of pleasure rolls through me making me see little white stars, it takes my breath away. My body tenses and then releases as he thrusts once more hitting just the right spot. I relax against the bed, but keep moving in time so he can have his release.

“Oh God, Caleb, I love you so fucking much,” I murmur against his lips and dig my nails into his back as he works himself up inside me.

“I’m close, baby,” he says and I bring my lips to his forcefully and kiss him passionately as I tighten my core muscles to milk him for all he’s worth. He groans and I can feel him quivering against my body as he thrusts a little faster. Then he stops kissing me and moves his head into the crook of my neck and groans loudly while he stiffens and unloads inside of me. I run my hands all over his back working him down after his release. He relaxes his body against mine putting his weight on me, as we both breathe quickly trying to catch our breath. I run my hands up into his hair and close my eyes reveling in the afterglow. A smile crosses my face and Caleb lifts his head from my neck and then I hear him chuckle. I open my eyes to see him looking right at me.

“What?” I ask.

“Why are you smiling?”

I smile wider. “Because I’ve waited six long, disastrous and torturous years for this exceptional moment. What the hell was I thinking?”

He just smiles his gorgeous smile the one that caresses his eyes.

“I should’ve been doing this with you. You amaze me. I’ve wasted so many years, Caleb. I didn’t know anyone could make me feel so…”

“Alive?” he asks and I smile and nod.

“Exactly,” I reply. “Caleb.”

“Yeah, baby?”

“Can we stay here forever?” I ask being half serious.

He smiles again and nuzzles his nose against mine. “Indi, for the rest of tonight I’m all yours, and then for the rest of forever. Your wish is my command.”

I giggle and lean up to kiss him, he slowly pulls out of me and rolls onto his back pulling me on top of him. I giggle as he wraps his arms tightly around me, and I feel safe for the first time in my life. I’ve never felt like I’ve been in any sort of situation where I felt at home. But right now, in Caleb’s arms, I couldn’t feel more like I’m finally there. A place to call home…my home with Caleb.